What’s the first intrusive thought you had that took you into an ocd spiral which eventually led to your proper diagnosis? This is a judgment free zone!
My first thought was about believing I drank a full bottle of bleach as a kid. One day at 9 years old just woke up and walked about into the living room and looked both my parents in their eyes and asked them if I drank an entire bottle of bleach under the sink. Feels insane typing that, but after that my parents got immediate help and I was officially diagnosed.
@Anonymous Wow! What parents you have🙏💪
@Anonymous So happy your parents stepped in for you!
@elliss2 yes and Amen!!
@bebecoll30 Thank you so much ❤️
My first intrusive thought that triggered the onset of my OCD was about losing my hearing. I was 9/10 at the time and had no idea what was going on. It ended up going away for a while but came back years later with different thoughts. About 2 years ago I had an intrusive thought about my sexuality and it all went downhill from there. I got diagnosed a few months later.
@blazed I know how scary the somatic ocd can be. Blinking used to get stuck in my head as a kid and i would hyper-fixate on it so badly i was scared it was never going To go away.
I was 7/8 years old I was obsessed with religion, I had to pray 3 times at 3 am. And also I had to ask every hour my mom if She loved me, I couldn't stop It.
But i didnt get a diagnosis for more than 10 Years, only when I started to have rocd and then hocd they finally diagnosed me with ocd
@Marharet I’m so sorry you went through this. I didn’t develop full blown ocd until i was 22. i am now 27 and learning how to successfully cope with this mental illness.
The first i can ever remember was a fear of getting attracted to a family member. I didn't develop ocd then but was still highly conscious around them. It went away and I haven't had it since but still have other themes of ocd.
I can’t remember I’m In such a mess right now I know I like men in veiny arms but I watched a vid about a women having them and now I’m getting a fealing that I like girls in veiny arms when I don’t I know I like men in veiny arms could u plz help me I don’t think I can live anymore like this I know I like men
@Anonymous I think if the thoughts are bothering you then they are intrusive it isnt you.
@lost_ Yhh
@Anonymous I watched a podcast recently about a fellow OCD friend who struggled with believing he liked men to the point of putting his face down when walking past other men because of the thoughts he felt and the things he thought he liked and wanted. You don’t like women with veiny arms. You like men with veiny arms. Go to google and remind yourself of the guys you like with veiny arms. Heck, even set one of the men with veiny arms as your phone background to put it in your mind and fight the thought. You got this.
@Anonymous Thanks u
@Anonymous I just at my female freind and I felt so thing I’m scared I don’t want to like girls I like boys
@Anonymous don’t be scared. you know you like boys. repeat it again, “i like boys”
@Anonymous Ok
@Anonymous Hi! I’m so sorry you are going through this. I think it’s important to circle back to this is a fear… not a desire. You are afraid there could be a chance you like women. Not the actual desire to be with women and afraid of others opinions. The obsessions are totally different from someone who actually has desires. If you desired it you wouldn’t be so extremely distressed and it wouldn’t even be a question to begin with. It would feel natural and right to you… i have had intense fears of becoming lesbian and even suffered from one that try’s to convince me that i want to be a man, when in reality that scares me to death and is the farthest thing from the truth. We give our ocd power when we argue with it, and when we do compulsions. It is cognitive distortions it is not real or logical thinking. unfortunately the advice that was given below with all due respect to them, is just a method of reassurance seeking. Putting a picture on your phone and repeating to yourself over and over that you like guys is just fueling the fire it’s exactly what your ocd wants to keep you in the loop. Instead, let the thoughts be there, acknowledge accept and say thank you. Continue to do what you planned to do that day, understand that ocd intrusive thoughts are a symptom of this mental illness. The content so much doesn’t even matter, i have obsessions about harming myself, about becoming bipolar or schizophrenic, ive had the insane constant fear of getting herpes even from sitting on a toilet seat and I’ve been scared of somehow deep down wanting to be a man. it’s all a crock of crap and lies, the brain produces junk thoughts with ocd! If you are struggling with suicidal thoughts i highly encourage you to call or text the Suicide support hotline. you are not alone and you will overcome this!
I can't remember it as it was long ass time ago, but the first real one I had a massive issue with, that brutally tortured me mentally for years was violent thoughts. Everyone was a target for these thoughts and nothing was off limits to how far they went. Imagine the worst stuff possible, it was worse than that. I tried repressing them so much that they became voices in my head as I dissociated myself from them. I knew they were me but it sounded like someone else's thoughts because I didn't want to believe I could imagine that stuff.
@Wolfram I’m so sorry, i know how hard that can be. I often have violent mental images when picking up a knife or scissors. Just remember ocd is a bully and it’s the opposite of who you really are. In reality you are probably a gentle and kind person.
@bebecoll30 That theme is long behind me. Thanks for the kind words though ☺️ I hope you get better too
@Wolfram Thank you so much!!
my first intrusive thought I was in first grade and my dad was watching some show on the discovery channel about demons and then I had a thought what if I get possessed by demon and for months and months I would refuse to go to sleep and cry all night long
What do you do when you have a thought and you’re not sure if it’s intrusive or not? I just had one that was so strange and bad, and I can’t believe I just had it, but I’m almost afraid it’s not intrusive and there really is something wrong with me. I hate this.
I am starting to come to grips with intrusive thoughts, reading how your brain will think of the worst thing / or make you think of something that really distresses you. BUT, I’ve got something I need to get off my chest, not looking for reassurance but just to know I’m not alone I guess? I remember one time, I saw a girl I follow on Instagram go on a marathon, and then went straight out for dinner after without showering and I had the passing thought of, gosh she must smell, even worse, she must smell down there. That has got to be the worst intrusive thought EVER, and because it affected me so much, I have the urge to think of this horrible horrible thought most times I look at people. Wondering if they smell!!!! It’s disgusting!!!! :( I don’t know if this is because I also have contamination ocd and I do obsess about feeling and being clean.
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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