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Does switching from one theme...
Does switching from one theme to another is also a compulsion to get rid of the previous theme and then we actually end up in the loop of other themes? š
Does switching from one theme to another is also a compulsion to get rid of the previous theme and then we actually end up in the loop of other themes? š
Absolutely; I felt as though once I conquered one theme, my brain would introduce another that seemed much āscarierā in comparison! For example I went from intrusive thoughts about my relationship to unwanted sexual thoughts to intrusive suicidal thoughts etc.
Yeah this is happening with me right now although the themes are different from yours and the most disturbing for me is magical thinking
I think so! When I am struggling with ROCD I am like āwow this other theme seems less painful I wish I was dealing with that insteadā and then when I deal with the other theme I get the same thought! Or sometimes when I see someone post about other themes I think āthat theme seems less anxiety inducing than mine why canāt I worry about that insteadā
Yeah yeah same I can understand this
My OCD wants to keep switching āthemesā on me, but once again it always concerns my mom or family. This time itās sexual-related. The one I experience the most is the harm-related thoughts towards her, thinking I want to hurt her or thinking she abused me in the past (she did not) so thatās why I have these thoughts. My mind is always trying to see if there are deeper meanings to these thoughts and how I really feel. Yesterday my thoughts started going towards - āwhat if Iām attracted to my mom?ā I was reading a book and it was a romantic scene and an image of my mom popped into my head. I tried to just dismiss it since I know we canāt control what comes into our heads, but I of course ruminated about it more and it has become a full-blown obsession. I have started wondering if I really am attracted to her or not, do I want to be in a relationship with her, am I just denying my feelings, etc. It sounds so disgusting and disturbing to share these things, but itās difficult to disengage with this kind of thinking. Like itās too disturbing to just let it go. Which leads to other worries like what if I can never be in a real relationship because I will just keep having these thoughts, what if this is true and how will I live with myself, what if my mom sexually abused me as a kid and thatās why Iām having these thoughts, etc. I know Iām going down the rabbit hole, but I just keep coming up with more and more āreasons.ā Trying to go about my day and not pay them any attention, but it has been difficult to focus on anything else. Which then makes me wonder if Iām actually just fantasizing now and not actually obsessing.
Hi, I donāt know what to do anymore Pocd kills me I had many themes before but this theme is the hardest for me. Iām tired. Iām on therapy and meds but I barely do erp . I donāt have a reason I just donāt want to do it but today I will because I have to. Iām taking meds and they help with the anxiety for sure. But the obsessive part is still here . Iām almost 2 months on it (40 mg on Prozac) but Iām still super obsessed like I can have thoughts 24/7 every second of the day and not leave me alone. I have experienced a thought right now for a month + . Itās a thought to do compulsion/urge. My therapist says to let go and gives me tips how to she also tell me to do more erp. But I have this thought to do compulsion for more then month. Im scared what if I donāt have ocd the thought is 24/7. Do you think I should switch meds im so tired.
OK, this might sound really dumb, but when you guys get intrusive thoughts, do they just come once and then go away? Iāve heard that repeatedly thinking about an intrusive thought is considered āchecking,ā but it doesnāt feel like I have any control over how many times it comes up in my head. Itās not like Iām trying to check anythingāit just keeps showing up, almost like itās terrorizing me every time. I canāt seem to stop it from looping, stop remembering it, or prevent it from coming up. Every time it does, I feel horrified, and I already know itās going to horrify me. I donāt think Iām actively trying to see if my feelings have changed, so is this still considered checking? How do other people get an intrusive thought and just move on? Doesnāt it pop up a million times for them too? I always thought that was normal, but now Iām hearing this could be a compulsion, and I feel really confused, scared, and lost. Is this why my OCD feels so extreme? Because I really donāt feel like I can control how many times the thought pops up.
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