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You are absolutely not a monster in even the slightest sense of the word , please understand that. I wouldn’t tell your husband just yet , as some people don’t understand Pure O OCD and it would be better if you were to tell him at some point whenever you find a therapist to talk about this with. So sorry you’re going through this , I’ll keep you in my thoughts and I know things will work out just fine in the end ❤️
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You are very welcome!!!?
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Thank you sooo very much Andrew for the kind words, and wonderful support. It greatly appreciated.
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Okay, so, first off, try not to utterly despair (emphasis on try), because you are not alone, there are many like you who suffer with that particular form of OCD. There is hope because many like yourself do find dramatic relief! So, personally, my advice would be to seek out a therapist. I would strongly suggest seeking one that is posted on the IOCDF website, because they are specialized in OCD of all forms, including yours. Here is a link https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ (If none are in your area, then perhaps use https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists) Then, in the mean time, perhaps try and research a bit about OCD, especially your type, (There are resources on that website) to get an understanding of what's kind of going on. There is help, you do not have to go through it all alone. The sooner you seek professional help, the better!
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Thank you. I just don't want to tell my partner. He doesn't understand. And I don't want to lose him. What should I do? Am I considered a monster for having these thoughts?
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No, you are not a monster for having those thoughts. The fact that those thoughts cause you distress proves it! I think the term is Ego Dystonic, meaning the thoughts are against your values and beliefs, thus causing you distress. Check out the channel "Restored Minds" on youtube, it's an amazing place to start! The best thing to do in your situation is find a therapist who can help you. I'm not sure if telling or not telling your SO about the thoughts would be beneficial or negative, that's something best saved to ask your therapist.
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Ok thank you. I will check out the channel you have been a great help for me. I really really appreciate it.
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- 15w
I'm posting something after a long. I have multiple Ocd themes and my main themes of sexual ocd is incest Ocd and Hocd and POCD has never been so active but today something happened that has been bothering me for a while. I was traveling in a bus and there I saw a kid/young teen. When I saw him, I instantly found him so attractive and then BOOM.. I started feeling like I'm attracted to him. I felt confused. I literally found him attractive and also thought that he would look really fine after growing up his face was so attractive but I don't want to be into him at all. I feel like I'm so much into him. I'm feeling very bothered by this feeling. I feel like I'm in denial and I should accept my attraction towards him. I don't want to feel this way at all. I don't understand what to do, how to figure out this feeling. I'm 99% sure that there was an underlying attraction I felt when I looked at him and realized that he is good looking. I feel like dying from inside and extremely confused. He's not in my bus now and I feel urges to just see him once to finally figure out that I'm into him or not but he is not here. I think I'm a pedophile which I don't want to be and everything is finished now, nothing would be same in my mind because I'm so paranoid and feeling like I'm into him. Please somebody help me and let me know if anyone of you has ever felt this way having POCD.
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Anyone with pocd in the subset of teens/ fear of being attracted to teens have any advice? I never see anyone talking about it and it’s making me go a lil cray lmao
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So I was never diagnosed with pocd but many ppl said that I have it and my therapist also said that I have ocd, I’ve recently been getting these thoughts and feelings of attraction towards kids, idk if it’s real attraction or not, but I worry that it’s true attraction because I don’t feel panic and anxiety towards those thoughts and feelings anymore, I used to feel that, but I also never felt shame or guilt for those thoughts and feelings. I also can’t tell if I want those thoughts and feelings or not. When I get those thoughts and feelings, I tell myself “I can’t be attracted to kids” and “being attracted to kids is bad” and “I wouldn’t like kids”. The main thing is I can tell if I am attracted to the kids or not, I feel like I want to know, but I also don’t know if I want to be attracted to kids or not, yet the attraction feeling feels so genuine, I can’t tell if it’s false or not, I try to compare my attraction towards a girl my age to the feelings I get when I see the kids. I’m also under the age of 16, and I’ve heard that people under the age of 16 are at risk of developing p#dophilia, I’m pretty sure I don’t want to become a pedo. But I can’t tell what I want anymore, I can’t tell if my feelings intrusive or not. Even though some people said that I have “textbook ocd” I still don’t believe it. These feelings and thoughts, I just don’t understand if I want and like them or not, idk if I WANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. Can someone give me advice pls? ANT to like or want them. I also lied on 2 questions for the ocd diagnosis about liking the thoughts which I don’t know if I do or not, I said that I think I don’t when in reality I don’t know if I do or not. And the second question where I said I don’t feel aroused even though sometimes I do, idk why I get aroused for that stuff, idk if I want to be aroused or if I don’t want to be aroused. I also used to watch p#rn a lot, I was exposed to it at a young age cause I was a stupid ass kid once, I got addicted to it and watched it every day, when all of these feelings and thoughts started, I completely stopped watching p#rn which fixed that, but now I’m worried it was a sign of something bad because I heard that early porn exposure creates mental issues and stuff, so I don’t know if I have pocd or actual pedophilia anymore. I’m also currently tryin to get a relationship with a girl my age. Can someone give me advice on all of this pls? Idk what all of this means anymore :( (edited) I also keep getting thoughts of kids and I’m worried I’m attracted to a specific part of them, because most of the thoughts include that specific part of the kid. Im also attracted to that specific part on adults, but I’m worried that it’s a sign I’m a pedo because it manifests on the thoughts of kids
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