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You are absolutely not a monster in even the slightest sense of the word , please understand that. I wouldn’t tell your husband just yet , as some people don’t understand Pure O OCD and it would be better if you were to tell him at some point whenever you find a therapist to talk about this with. So sorry you’re going through this , I’ll keep you in my thoughts and I know things will work out just fine in the end ❤️
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You are very welcome!!!?
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Thank you sooo very much Andrew for the kind words, and wonderful support. It greatly appreciated.
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Okay, so, first off, try not to utterly despair (emphasis on try), because you are not alone, there are many like you who suffer with that particular form of OCD. There is hope because many like yourself do find dramatic relief! So, personally, my advice would be to seek out a therapist. I would strongly suggest seeking one that is posted on the IOCDF website, because they are specialized in OCD of all forms, including yours. Here is a link https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ (If none are in your area, then perhaps use https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists) Then, in the mean time, perhaps try and research a bit about OCD, especially your type, (There are resources on that website) to get an understanding of what's kind of going on. There is help, you do not have to go through it all alone. The sooner you seek professional help, the better!
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Thank you. I just don't want to tell my partner. He doesn't understand. And I don't want to lose him. What should I do? Am I considered a monster for having these thoughts?
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No, you are not a monster for having those thoughts. The fact that those thoughts cause you distress proves it! I think the term is Ego Dystonic, meaning the thoughts are against your values and beliefs, thus causing you distress. Check out the channel "Restored Minds" on youtube, it's an amazing place to start! The best thing to do in your situation is find a therapist who can help you. I'm not sure if telling or not telling your SO about the thoughts would be beneficial or negative, that's something best saved to ask your therapist.
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Ok thank you. I will check out the channel you have been a great help for me. I really really appreciate it.
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- 23w
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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