I really need some and advice. I have just discovered that I suffer from POCD and I have yet to seek treatment. This has been eating up for the past two days now. I'm not attracted to children in the slightest bit. And my fiance doesn't know. I'm afraid that he will leave me. I can't tell my parents because they wouldn't understand. I am not a pedophile. But I'm afraid that I might become one. Please help urgently.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

You are absolutely not a monster in even the slightest sense of the word , please understand that. I wouldn’t tell your husband just yet , as some people don’t understand Pure O OCD and it would be better if you were to tell him at some point whenever you find a therapist to talk about this with. So sorry you’re going through this , I’ll keep you in my thoughts and I know things will work out just fine in the end ❤️

Infinite1010

Date posted: 5y

You are very welcome!!!?

ccsantiago

Date posted: 5y

Thank you sooo very much Andrew for the kind words, and wonderful support. It greatly appreciated.

Infinite1010

Date posted: 5y

Okay, so, first off, try not to utterly despair (emphasis on try), because you are not alone, there are many like you who suffer with that particular form of OCD. There is hope because many like yourself do find dramatic relief! So, personally, my advice would be to seek out a therapist. I would strongly suggest seeking one that is posted on the IOCDF website, because they are specialized in OCD of all forms, including yours. Here is a link https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ (If none are in your area, then perhaps use https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists) Then, in the mean time, perhaps try and research a bit about OCD, especially your type, (There are resources on that website) to get an understanding of what's kind of going on. There is help, you do not have to go through it all alone. The sooner you seek professional help, the better!

ccsantiago

Date posted: 5y

Thank you. I just don't want to tell my partner. He doesn't understand. And I don't want to lose him. What should I do? Am I considered a monster for having these thoughts?

Infinite1010

Date posted: 5y

No, you are not a monster for having those thoughts. The fact that those thoughts cause you distress proves it! I think the term is Ego Dystonic, meaning the thoughts are against your values and beliefs, thus causing you distress. Check out the channel "Restored Minds" on youtube, it's an amazing place to start! The best thing to do in your situation is find a therapist who can help you. I'm not sure if telling or not telling your SO about the thoughts would be beneficial or negative, that's something best saved to ask your therapist.

ccsantiago

Date posted: 5y

Ok thank you. I will check out the channel you have been a great help for me. I really really appreciate it.

HOY

Date posted: 23w

What is happening to me (Warning)

I fear I may have POCD, I am terrified of being a pedophile. my symptoms were initially strong surges of anxiety. I made the mistake of looking up what pedophilia is about and now I fear I am one. I have a bad masturbation problem and that didnt help, as now I feel a weird feeling down below and its distressing me. I'm only 20, this never happened to me before and now I only feel confusion and doubt, Ive cried like never before cause of this.

HOY

Date posted: 23w

I cannot tell whether I have POCD

I have been suffering this for about 3 weeks now and its absolutely unbearable, I want to state more explicit details about this but I dont want to distress others, all I can say is I am experiencing this weird feeling in my groin and an urge to masturbate and its horrifying me. I already am diagnosed with anxiety but it pales in comparison with what is happening with me. I had no interest in children at all before this but now I am experiencing doubt and uncertainty. I have already cried 5 times today, this is the most awful thing I have ever experienced. I am only 20 years old and its both physically, and emotionally destroying me

Purvi

Date posted: 12w

POCD help

I'm posting something after a long. I have multiple Ocd themes and my main themes of sexual ocd is incest Ocd and Hocd and POCD has never been so active but today something happened that has been bothering me for a while. I was traveling in a bus and there I saw a kid/young teen. When I saw him, I instantly found him so attractive and then BOOM.. I started feeling like I'm attracted to him. I felt confused. I literally found him attractive and also thought that he would look really fine after growing up his face was so attractive but I don't want to be into him at all. I feel like I'm so much into him. I'm feeling very bothered by this feeling. I feel like I'm in denial and I should accept my attraction towards him. I don't want to feel this way at all. I don't understand what to do, how to figure out this feeling. I'm 99% sure that there was an underlying attraction I felt when I looked at him and realized that he is good looking. I feel like dying from inside and extremely confused. He's not in my bus now and I feel urges to just see him once to finally figure out that I'm into him or not but he is not here. I think I'm a pedophile which I don't want to be and everything is finished now, nothing would be same in my mind because I'm so paranoid and feeling like I'm into him. Please somebody help me and let me know if anyone of you has ever felt this way having POCD.

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