- Date posted
- 49w ago
Uncertainty
Having a really hard time living with uncertainty.
Having a really hard time living with uncertainty.
I believe in you, you will get through this too ❤️
@sepsomeone Thank you 😊♥️
@MelissaArrowood Youre always welcome 🥰♥️
I’m newly diagnosed and it seems like that’s our goal…to learn to live with uncertainty. Do you want to say more? It’s okay to be having a hard time. You’re human. It’s okay to not be okay. And we’re working on feeling better, on figuring this out.
@JediMJ I’m having a really hard day for some reason. I’m thankful for everyone on here. They know just how to make you feel better because they know what you’re going through 😊♥️
Same. Been having a hard time. Hang in there!
Leaning into uncertainty is the only way to get better in the long run. It’s hard I know but you can do it
Posting for reassurance and not getting comments due to that is so hard. OCD is so hard..
I feel so freaking scared. I know I’ll have an intrusive thought/urge and whatever I know I’m going to fight off another compulsion until I eventually give in bc I’m still so new to this. I am petrified and I feel like I cannot for the life of me relax. I’m sleep deprived, in a terrible place hormonally, withdrawing from meds, and being treated like a burden by people around me. I literally feel like I can’t do this. I keep thinking about those posts where people talk about the hypothetical scenarios where you learn your death date. I feel like if someone told me I’d die soon, I would cry of relief. I would never hurt myself but boy do I not want to experience this anymore.
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
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