dream crushed my reality, repost

i've had a terrible dream this morning about my fears getting pretty much confirmed. I've avoided to address this the whole day doing a rehearsal, going at the bar with friends and playing games till 2 AM. I don't know how to move on from that dream. Something horrible happened. I felt genuine arousal and now everything seems meaningless. That dream basically confirmed my fears and invalidated all the things I reassured myself about false attraction and staring ocd. I don't know how to proceed after that dream. My hopes of being a good person got crushed. All is meaningless now. I don't even feel that much distress about it. Probably because I shut it down and didn't fully address the dream, reality hasn't kicked in yet I feel defeated. I feel like a **** and my identity is in shambles. Even at school I felt defeated and was wondering what's the point. "What's the point now of even avoiding sophomore and junior girls""who cares feel attraction like your friends do" and I felt like I stopped caring about my moral code and when I realised that I didn't like it. It all feels meaningless. The one thing I didn't want to feel I felt and now l'm empty. I don't even feel distress no more.

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Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

I’m sorry you’re feeling that way. Sounds like your OCD is getting the best of you just because you have something happen in your dream doesn’t mean that you really did it especially with OCD. There’s a good chance that you’re just imagining your OCD if that makes sense in your dreams. I have hurm ocd and I unfortunately had dreams where I did bad things in my dreams that is not who I am as a person is just my OCD . having OCD does not make you a bad person that makes you a person with a Fire disorder. Please work on not feeling guilt for your OCD. Also, I highly recommend you look up OCD response exposure and how not to do physical and mental compulsions for OCD .ocd is hard but it is treatable, but it will take some time. Please stay strong and don’t let OCD suck the life out of you.

Username: TomFromHomeTomFromHome

Date posted: 29w ago

Dreams can be filled with your OCD themes - it happened to me a lot and it was very scarry. For a while I could not sleep past 4 AM, OCD was tormenting me all day and all night, it was hell! But I got over it and so will you.

Username: Steve2022Steve2022

Date posted: 29w ago

Dreams only reflect your thoughts, and, if you'd been particularly anxious recently, they can appear in your dreams. I had this happen to me, and it makes you feel numb and worthless, but it doesn't reflect who you are - just bad dream playing out worst fears. I'm struggling with it today, but I know that I've got over it before. Don't be too tough on yourself.

Username: Nameless000Nameless000

Date posted: 29w ago

I was conscious and I felt arousal. This single event negates all the hopes of the other events being a product of ocd, being unwanted.

Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

@Nameless000 Having the fear that you secretly want some thing that you don’t want that cause tou distress is very common symptom of OCD. For example, right now I having the fear that I want to kill myself even though I do not and straight up terrifies me.I having depressing thoughts and images and it causes me great distress, If I’m being honest, I’m working on it and I’m getting better but it really sucks so I understand having thoughts that are against your nature and are horrible acts do cause you to feel terrible but you kinda need to learn that it’s just OCD and not to react to it. I know that’s hard to do and it takes a lot of work to get to that point. It is just your OCD. It does not make you a bad person, but I highly recommend you work on treating your OCD and look up how to treat it so that you can live your life without it affecting you OCD can be a very crippling depression disorder, and I’m sorry you’re struggling with it ocd truly is terrible.

Username: emilyxo17emilyxo17

Date posted: 29w ago

@Nameless000 please look up made of millions arousal non concordance!!!!

Username: My OCD Academia

Date posted: 42w ago

Dreams

Do any of you deal with OCD showing up in your dreams? Just had a dream where I fell for this beautiful girl and I felt so happy and then her face turned into a masculine face and realized it was a man after. In the dream, I even started questioning what if thoughts and scared why this happened. Now, I can’t shake off why the woman’s face I saw turned into a mans and why for a split second I was still thinking it was a woman’s face. I just feel sick and exhausted that I keep having this theme running around my mind. I don’t want to be gay ever and all these thoughts and now dreams make me feel ill

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Username: randomuser!

Date posted: 39w ago

have you ever had a nightmare about a theme

so i haven’t been dealing with false memories or real event odc for a whole now but i literally just woke up from a terrible triggering nightmare at first i was ok and relieved when i woke up but now doubt is setting in and the part is in the dream i think the person is made up. but i have doubts i think i got this dream because i was thinking about kissing my partner right before i fell asleep and yesterday i was looking for a video of my little cousin and i had an intrusive “what if” but i was able to brush it off. so it may be that all i know is that i keep getting flashbacks and i hate it it’s disgusting and i hope its not true. and i don’t think i could accept it if that is the truth its just so wrong

Username: Nameless000

Date posted: 28w ago

a nightmare delegimitized me from having triggers

After that triggering dream where the worst thing could have happened, I don't feel legimitated anymore to feel genuinely distressed by triggers, to call compulsions as such. It all feels disingenuous. They don't feel valid anymore. Like crocodile tears. Because the one thing I didn't want to happen probably happened, that undoes everything else. I feel like a hypocrite, to feel distress and worry about those things, being anxious of that particular fear because in that dream it happened. I felt arousal and probably genuine attraction, I'm afraid that I could have agreed with it. Maybe it isn't true, maybe it didn't happen, maybe I'm misinterpreting, but then why I was left with that impression? All because of a damn dream, because ocd, all my triggers intrude even in my sleep, because I can't even be safe in my dreams. This is the worst mental illness.

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