- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Thanks! I really hate these thoughts and feelings and I hope they go away. I hope everyone on this app will get through this
I totally understand you. I’m pretty sure this is OCD and I hope it is. Whenever I try to calm myself down and reassure myself, my brain goes “oh you’re lying to yourself” and “you’re having fake compulsions just because you’re in denial” and it feels so real, like I’m actually thinking this and it’s not ocd or anything. I really want a therapist but no idea how to explain this to my parents. I hope this goes away! Good luck to you, both of us can get through this
Im this way with my hocd. I look at someone and be like theyre gay or bi and I look bi. How does one look bi lol? Ocd is stupid sometimes and a lot of our assumptions our based off stereotypes.
i hate trans ocd , i feel 'dysphoric' i genuinely imagine myself male and i want it to stop - either im trans and im done with these thoughts or im cis and im done with them.
Same, i was a big tomboy and then this bitch hit me like a train, which makes me really anxious because being a tomboy is considered one of the signs of being trans. I’ve always wondered what it’d be like to be a dude and that’s one of the main things that messes with me because this ocd is trying to prove its true
Yeah same, and I would kinda jokingly say that I was a boy, and now it’s all piling up on me as “proof” that I’m trans
id rather be trans and for sure now that i am , not cis with ocd
I remember having these thoughts as a kid, thinking I was maybe born hermaphrodite gave me horrible anxiety. Then, somehow, I came to the conclusion that, I really just thought the opposite sex was amazing, and it didnt have anything to do with sexuality. I still have HOCD though, to some extent. I imagine it would be different if it hit me now, all this was before identity and gender became so pevasive and important. But anyway, maybe it’s worth thinking about whether it has to do with fear of sexuality or just a question of identity. Hope it helps, sorry if I triggered anyone.
Thanks! I’m still trying to figure myself out and I’m pretty sure it’s ocd.
If you want to figure out if you have OCD, then perhaps consider if you’ve had similar symptoms that you’re experiencing now, to other things in life. Or just similar kinds of anxiety, not necessarily accompanied by compulsions. When I first experienced HOCD I had no idea it was linked to me trying to get things ”just right”.
im pretty sure my tocd comes from ocd mixed with insecurity , before i was a normal tomboy- girl and one day i just got hit with this bs
same!!!
Glad I’m not the only one
id also always pick male characters in games , imagine myself as a dude thats weeeeird
But being trans is no disease. There are no signs. There are a lot of girls that have a strong will, are feisty and believe in themselves with great confidence. Just because these are traditionally male traits it doesnt make you a man? Everyone imagines themselves as the opposite sex sometimes, and people have always done so in history. Shakespeare wrote a famous play about, Twelfth night.
I’m not trying yo reassure you, I’m trying to aid your way of looking at it.
you have a good point but if my brain wouldnt have ocd i would understand it. no matter how much facts or proof there is , we wont be satisfied. Hell, if there was a test thats 100% reliable and would tell you your true gender i would STILL doubt it.
I know. But sometimes trying to think your way through it rationally helps seeing things differently. I’m just infuriated that theres so much misinformation. I’m sure it doesnt help people with OCD.
I’m a gay guy and I always felt different, but in a gay way, you know. I’ve never questioned my gender identity and I always felt in the right body. But since I saw the instagram profile of a trans girl, I can’t stop thinking “what if I’m trans?”. Literally I think about this the HOLE DAY and I always look for evidence that I’m or not trans. And the worse thing is that as a gay guy I’ve done things or liked things which are stereotypically for girls. This thought gave me panic attacks, anxiety and stress during all the day. I’m scared and confused because my mind keeps telling me that there’s should be something and for some reason I thought about it. It’s like my brain has been replaced during this month. I just want to go back in time and be the happy guy that I was before, I miss my life.
Does anybody else obsess with other people being gay and start thinking that everybody is gay and then think because they do this it makes them gay
So basically I’ve been dealing with obsessing thoughts about my sexuality and gender orientation. Although the majority of my thoughts are about my gender. It’s really freaking me out! I had a really bad issue with this when I was a freshman in high school. The thoughts became much less intense and I was able to live my life although I still got anxious about it from time to time. Now I’m in college and I recently began another very intense and distressing obsession about whether or not I’m attracted to girls or whether or not I’m transgender. It’s been six months of never ending anxious thoughts that really bother me. I want to be girl (which I am now) and date boys but I have these thoughts that what if I liked girls or wanted to be a boy and that causes me sooo much anxiety. I just worry so much because I sometimes have thoughts that I am uncomfortable being a woman and with feminine things even though I really like traditionally girly things and have all my life. There was never an ounce of evidence in my childhood but I’ve heard that some people don’t find out until they’re older and they sometimes don’t have any evidence from childhood so this doesn’t reassure me. Anyways, sometimes I have thoughts that it would make sense if I were a boy and that would be more like me even though I don’t want it to be and have never really felt like that. Lastly, I get really anxious because although I’ve felt much better with these obsessive thoughts over the past few years, it still came around once in a while. Why wouldn’t it go away? If I weren’t transgender, wouldn’t it have gone away? I just need some help. I don’t know what’s happening to me? I get scared because I just want to be me but sometimes it feels like it could be wrong and I can’t tell if it’s just my anxiety or what?
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