saw something and now i cant unsee it

i always want to watch new tv shows and lately especially i’ve been getting triggered by a lot of them. anyone else experience this? it gets to the point that i feel like i can’t continue watching the show or i’m doing something wrong, even if i enjoy it/want to continue watching. i recently started watching the menéndez brothers documentary on netflix and i’m intrigued and want to watch the rest but then my brain tells me i’m enjoying it for entertainment purposes or “profiting” off of someone’s trauma or awful experience. i’m more so interested in the case and watching the court experience but i fear i won’t be able to finish it now. anyone else have this issue?

So i’ve been planning to apply for a job that i’ve always wanted to experienced and i’ve been looking at videos regarding that job. I was scrolling on tiktok when i stumbled upon someone on live talking about the job. i had a very bad intrusive thought and my anxious mind told me that in order to be safe, i need to find that exact live and fix the thought. i’ve been scrolling for the past hour and have not been able to find the account. my brain is not linking the job to the intrusive thought. why is this happening 💔

Basically I’ve been seeing a lot of content about Palestine lately and I wanna help as much as I can. But everytime I’m doing things like taking a shower or doing work or completing a hobby or other thing I have to do, I get intrusive thoughts saying “you’re a terrible person, you could be doing stuff to help the people in Palestine right now.” Am I a terrible person? Please help. I’m aware that interacting can help others come across the video and even more content even after you’re no longer on the app, but I still get scared anyway. Am I a bad person? I need help immediately I feel terrible