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I feel like there’s no way out of this. everyday i’m anxious and depressed from these thoughts. and a compulsion i have is looking eveything up on the internet when im stressing to know that it’s just my OCD and im not in danger. but looking things up add on to my thoughts and i start thinking “what if” actual suidcal people think. do others with this theme whenever they do something like if im taking a picture it’ll be like “yeah you look happy people will wonder what happened when your gone” LIKE i DO NOT want to end my life. or even as simple as cleaning my room, “yup keep it clean so when your family goes through your stuff” then i panic and can’t even do anything. those thoughts distress me so bad. i’ll sit there and think how good my life is or when im having a good day my thoughts will be like “NOPEEE what if your just saying that to convince yourself” it never shuts up and genuinely makes me think i have SI or something. i hope this reaches the right people just to know im not alone.

Username: bebecoll30bebecoll30

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

I’m here for you! This is a safe place. I’m proud of you for coming on here and sharing what you are struggling with. What you described is classic ocd trying to find sneaky ways to get around and make you think it’s something different. OCD is always going to want us to think we are in danger. I’ve had this theme to and these were some of my thoughts as well. just remember, you can be an observer of your thoughts and not an engager. we all as humans have thoughts that are just purely junk.. it’s okay to let them pass by like clouds in the sky.

Username: raspberrycreamraspberrycream

Date posted: 25w ago

i’m here for you ❤️ just remember that ocd attacks what you value most. you don’t want to end your life, it means you clearly value it. i hope you feel better

Username: 13rianna13rianna

Date posted: 25w ago

I’ve experienced something similar. It’s crazy because we want control over things we don’t have control over. The ocd makes us want to control the future or look for certainty until we have it. It’s not realistic. With mental health people always say to find the things your grateful for and as I am so thankful for so many things it doesn’t stick in my head the way it should. I’ve been trying to tell myself that “I get to”. For example, “I get to take this picture or be in this picture”, “ I get to clean my house”, “I get to drive my car”, “I get to call my friends and have conversations”, “I get to have a dog as a pet”. Try to focus on things you get to do and maybe it’ll shift your mindset and you won’t focus on the intrusive thoughts as much. If you have an intrusive thought try to just sit with it and not give it any energy. Pretend it’s the same thing as you having a thought of wanting a donut or liking the beach. Just let it sit there and let it flow away.

Username: bebecoll30bebecoll30

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

@13rianna This was a beautiful explanation. Thank you for this. It was so nice reading it!

Username: 13rianna13rianna

Date posted: 25w ago

@bebecoll30 Thank you 🤍

Username: buckaroobuckaroo

Date posted: 25w ago

Right here with you. I also feel like I can’t seem to find a way out sometimes. I’m always stressed and my brain can’t detect whether something is an actual threat or not. Feels like my brain is broken lol. Hang in there❤️

Username: UK50UK50

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

Another way to think of thoughts is as if they are farts! If you consider your brain as an organ, just as your digestive system... it's just doing it's job, throwing out random thoughts just like your digestive system throws out gas. Try to change your relationship to the thoughts by not to judging them or adding any meaning to them... just like a burp or a fart!! Check out Mark Freeman on YouTube he explains this so wonderfully.

Username: cows12465

Date posted: 16w ago

any advice would help right now

The theme i struggle with most is suicidal OCD. And with September being “national suicide awareness month”, My anxiety is sky high. i’m back in my spiral. I’m back with the panic attacks. My mind keeps comparing itself to all of these people and now i’m convinced i want too or i have these symptoms and im next. i’m freaking myself out and idk what to do. I get scared i have suicidal ideation when i know i don’t because i would never ever actually kms nor hurt myself in anyway. Does anyone know how to comercome this??? I just got out of my spiral not even 1 months ago and im scared im going deeper this time. My mind is all over the place scared im actually going to do it when i know im not and i feel like i have to go to the hospital or something idk what to do.

Username: l_stark08

Date posted: 15w ago

Death ocd help

I really don’t know what to do- I’ve been making it so much worse with compulsions, watching death anxiety videos or videos about why I shouldn’t be scared over and over, and getting on the same Reddit forums about death anxiety over and over all day. I’ve never felt this bad in my life and nothing feels real, I feel trapped in my own life and can’t see the way out of this theme, I’m feeling so depressed and I can’t care about anything. The rumination is awful and now I’m getting intrusive thoughts about my own corpse and everyone I know. It feels like my life has been reduced to a single line, like a timeline and I’m slowly moving across the timeline. I contacted the suicide hotline the other day but it didn’t really help, I don’t want to die and I don’t want to kill myself but life feels like it will never be the same and like I’m living in a nightmare.

Username: cows12465

Date posted: 14w ago

Advice please!! needed

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