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Hi! I'm so sorry you're going through this- hocd is the worst. I find the only way is too accept uncertainty- you might be a lesbian, you may not be, both will be okay and you will figure that out when you're older- you do not need to now! I know that's super hard to hear- because OCD makes us believe being a lesbian is the worst thing in the world and also that we are one, but if you accept uncertainty it will go away. OCD looks for evidence, or 'signs' to convince we are gay even if we are not. Also looking up YouTube vidoes on this type of OCD really helped me. Feel free to message me about anything, I know you got this!

Hi! I’m a lesbian with ocd and I sometimes struggle with internalized homophobia. Whenever I feel upset about it I remember all the beautiful things about being a lesbian as well as that there are cons to every sexual orientation. A woman will love you in a way no man ever could and a man could never love you the way a woman could. You’re missing out on something whether you’re gay or straight. In my experience though, being a lesbian is great. Being in a same sex relationship means being with someone who understands struggles unique to being a woman and that makes the bond just so much closer. I said I was bisexual for a while just to get used to it and that would be ok too. If you’re worried about religion, God loves you know matter what. Highly recommend talking to a therapist that can help you learn to love who you are. It’s also ok not to know! My roomate doesn’t like labels and she just says I like who I like when I like it and I think that’s a great mindset.

Unfortunately me too