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Hi! I'm so sorry you're going through this- hocd is the worst. I find the only way is too accept uncertainty- you might be a lesbian, you may not be, both will be okay and you will figure that out when you're older- you do not need to now! I know that's super hard to hear- because OCD makes us believe being a lesbian is the worst thing in the world and also that we are one, but if you accept uncertainty it will go away. OCD looks for evidence, or 'signs' to convince we are gay even if we are not. Also looking up YouTube vidoes on this type of OCD really helped me. Feel free to message me about anything, I know you got this!
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@Preena I know it’s just very hard because I don’t want to be!
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@Beachgirl2024 That's exactly why OCD is attacking it :( I'm so sorry you're going through this. I think accepting the uncertainty and being okay with being a lesbian is the way through here :)
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@Preena Okay I will try that! Thank you so much :))
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@Beachgirl2024 No worries! Feel free to message me anytime ❤️
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Hi! I’m a lesbian with ocd and I sometimes struggle with internalized homophobia. Whenever I feel upset about it I remember all the beautiful things about being a lesbian as well as that there are cons to every sexual orientation. A woman will love you in a way no man ever could and a man could never love you the way a woman could. You’re missing out on something whether you’re gay or straight. In my experience though, being a lesbian is great. Being in a same sex relationship means being with someone who understands struggles unique to being a woman and that makes the bond just so much closer. I said I was bisexual for a while just to get used to it and that would be ok too. If you’re worried about religion, God loves you know matter what. Highly recommend talking to a therapist that can help you learn to love who you are. It’s also ok not to know! My roomate doesn’t like labels and she just says I like who I like when I like it and I think that’s a great mindset.
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Unfortunately me too
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I keep seeing tiktoks of things that are like ‘things I did as a lesbian in denial’ or ‘things my not so straight straight friend said’ and I feel like I might relate to some!! But idk!! It’s kinda triggering me. I’ve had this 5 years on and off now so when it comes back the whole well you’ve had it so long you must be gay comes up. I have been with my boyfriend almost 6 years and i love him so much I don’t want to be gay (nothing weong with it - I’m just not and don’t want to be!)
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Hi everyone I'm 18 and recently discovered i have soocd. I remember having random thoughts about men and it would make me feel uncomfortable and have bad panic attacks. Sometimes I would have to leave class bc these thoughts was messing with my head. And sometimes I would avoid men bc of this. I remember having a sex dream about one of my guy classmate and when ever I seen him I would have hatred for him. These thoughts keep on repeating over and over in my head to the point where I don't reaction to it. I don't if I'm slowly realizing im actually into men, but I still have this weird gut feeling in my stomach when I think about it. I really don't wanna lose my identity as lesbian.
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So I’m afraid that I have HOCD, but at the same time that I might also be homosexual. Is that possible? I have all the typical compulsions… checking for attraction, analyzing thoughts, analyzing the past, analyzing emotions, searching the internet. Is it really HOCD? When I see anything related to LGBT, I get strongly triggered. Sometimes I observe how my body reacts around people, but most often I check with ChatGPT to calm myself down, although it doesn’t last long—it depends. I also compare myself to other straight women who look like lesbians, or to lesbians who look like they’re straight. I had a phase where I was analyzing my body… whether I have too much hair, whether I have an Adam’s apple, whether I act like a lesbian without realizing it. I also have the typical intrusive thoughts like “did something from the past actually mean something, or is it a sign?” “am I just lying to myself?” “what if I’m in denial?” “what if I’ve ignored signs my whole life and lied to myself?” “what if I’ll never be able to fall in love with a guy?” “what if there are too many signs and proofs and it’s true?” “what if it’s not HOCD at all?” And much more. But now I’m scared that it’s both—that I have HOCD and that I’m homosexual. I’ve cried multiple times because of this and it’s been going on for 7 months. Some days are better, some are worse. And there’s so much ‘evidence’ that I won’t even list now—over these seven months I’ve found so many things from my past and dreams that I feel like there has to be something to it. I’ve also had around four panic attacks because of this. And I truly believe I have HOCD and that I’m also homosexual, which is killing me and it feels horrible. I just want to be sure that im straight and be at peace. When im doubting and thinking that im a lesbian i feel like im not at peace and i hate it. But u feel like i just need to accept it but i don’t want to and i just want to have a boyfriend, kids but im scared that it’s not possible for me because im lesbian and i actually just think that i want a boyfriend but in reality i don’t. Ughhhh help me.
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