Any encouragement?

Hello! You are still young, my friend! Everything is alright. Don’t let your mind convince you that the situation is worse than it is. There are always things to be grateful for. The fact that you’re able to write this post is evidence enough that you have what it takes to get a decent job. You can always start with a customer service job or something similar and build from there. At this point, you need to decide what your passions are and how you want to live your life. If you need someone to talk to, I’m here. You’re more than welcome to reply to this thread. Don’t let your mind tell you stories that aren’t real. The simple fact that you’re alive and able to observe the wonderful experience of life is enough. You have nothing to prove to anyone. You already are complete. Everything is well. May you be happy, at peace, and free from suffering.

It's great that you're realizing what you need to do now. You're still young, and it's too early to give up. Those words might be more fitting for someone in their sixties, but at twenty, you have plenty of time. To make up for lost time, you'll need to put in double or even triple the effort. Are you ready for that? If so, you'll need to tackle three areas simultaneously with dedication. There will be ups and downs, so hold tight to your goals. First, address your OCD. If you haven't already, consider seeing a specialist to begin your recovery journey. Second, find a job to ease your way into the job market. Look for something that allows you to meet and interact with people. Third, focus on your education. Start with general classes, and as you progress, you'll discover subjects you enjoy and want to pursue further. This journey might take a few years, so dedication is key. Don't come back with excuses—just start on one of these three paths, and the rest will follow. You got this! Praying for your recovery and success.