Anonymous
- Date posted
- 20w
Can someone help
My rocd is spiraling so bad i feel like I’m terrible and can’t recover 😓 idk wuts real anymore yet ik i never wanna leave my man😓whats wrong w me
alan87alan87
- Date posted
- 20w
I hear and understand this. I suffer this the same. From what I know, ROCD makes us question everything in our relationships/marriages of “do I really love them”, “are they the one”, “what if I don’t love them”, “how do I know I love them”, “what should it feel like” etc etc. I don’t know how to combat it too much except to say our thoughts are not our actions. Other inputs would be great to hear.
MichelleVMichelleV
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 20w
What is causing you to spiral? What are you trying to solve right now?
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 20w
@MichelleV All day yesterday my brain convinced me that if rather have another guys attention and that if I’m out w my man is be all dressed up and tryna impress other guy and not my man. And I hate it and it feels so real like it feels like I’m evil and deceitful. Then my brain was like convincing me that i should just break up w him and figure this out but no I never wanna break up with my man. And I get so confused is this real do I rlly want other guys. But I don’t want to want other guys bc i just wanna be myself again. The one who was fully obsessed w my man. And tho Ik that i can’t help but be confused bc everything feels so real😓I hate this. And I feel like i should know that like if I’m so upset by this it isn’t true, but then my brain convinces me that’s not true. It’s gotten to the point where I’m so good for like a day or two and then other days I’m so terrible and I feel like I’m an aweful gf. I don’t want this but my brain says I do and that i’m confused but i just wanna be happy and the me who was obsessed w my man was happiest😓I’m so lost and i hate it. One day i’m ok the next i feel like I’m a terrible person. Plus my man is my best friend and i wanna marry him, so how can everything else be true? Yk?😓i hate myself
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 20w
@Anonymous Like It’s so upsetting bc even rn i refrigered it out qnd was like NO HES my best friend qnd i wouldn’t just give him up for the new/ “excitingness” or q new guy😓like no that’s make me so upset. Then i got a little better and my brain was like “but when ur with him ur gonna feel like a liar when u say you love him bc you’ve been you picturing urself in these situation happy😓 but i never wanna be in those bc it’ll make me sad😓and i feel like i lie to him and myself when i try and fix this but ik he’s the one like wuts wrong w me😓the huge pit in my stomach is so bad too.😓
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 20w
Then now my brains like “you not even worthy of him bc you don’t even know if u rlly want him or other pls attention😓but i just wanna be me again the one who’s sure. And like I’m tryna re place everything else w images of my man and i and like me watching him at the musical and stuff but then my minds like “your not worthy of him you can’t admire him if you were this lost and confused”😓i hate myself for this i’m so lost but i just wanna go back to where i was only focused on him and no one else😓i don’t want to want others 😓
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 20w
And When I Say that it feels like a lie now but I Just wqnna be me again
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