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in my experiences, when i am very symptomatic my sex drive is almost gone. anytime i am getting symptom relief or meet a person that can distract me from obsessions my sex drive is normal to high. so yes over the years it comes back unless you have “flares”.
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Thank you. It helps to learn from other's experiences.
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It's crazy huh? I have learned that in HOCD the fear is not only becoming gay, but also loosing attraction to the sex you've always felt attracted to. So i think a good approach would be to treat it as any other fear of ocd: to accept that there's the chance you might not like them anymore, but still act like you would normally: keep meeting people, flirting or whatever it is that you enjoyed doing. Maybe your brain will learn that there's nothing to fear then. That's what I hope. I'll try harder. I have to stop avoiding girls.
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Can you tell me where did you learn HOCD is the fear of losing the sex you've always felt attracted to?
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It effects your sexual activity and makes it hard to have an orgasm also but it can still works like you can still have sex
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Hi Larry. What type of ocd do you have? HOCD?
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My aesthetic attraction to opposite sex has gone. That's why I still have HOCD.
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For how long have you had it? I've had it for 11 years. I regained my attraction quick although sex was a bit challenging, I was "too aware" and nervous. But since my relapse it's even worse. I have a girlfriend and she's paying the price too. It hurts so much...
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@TonyOCD 18 months since the loss of attraction, after the fear of becoming gay disappear
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No, sorry, sorry, I explained myself wrong. Everyone develops their specific fears even when they share a theme (HOCD, Harm OCD, etc.). In my experience, as soon as I experienced the fear of being gay, I "lost my attraction" to girls. But It's not only that, I also avoided contact with them, in fear that my thoughts would made me feel I'm not attracted to them anymore. And in that sense, the fear of becoming gay also has a fear of loosing your attractions to girls. At least for me, there's a fear that I'll never get to enjoy a normal sexual life and that maybe i won't love my girlfriend again. So i need to expose myself to those fears and try to continue my life.
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My ocd is bad when I got to check my pulse constantly for no reason, why I think it’s gonna change anything, gotta get it out of my head
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I feel I have HOCD FOR MORE THAN 10 years now. Basically all my ocd started since me and my husband started dating for real…. Will it ever go away? Will I ever be happy? Will I ever know? I don’t know… How long for you? Edit for me it’s more SO OCD cause I think I’m bisexual
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I suffer since 10 - 15 yrs from specific fears. It was years that my OCD constantly wanted to be checked if I have HIV or not. I had a lot of sex and I thought this is normal. But I ruminated in my backhead about and was testing like 5 - 10 times a year. After the test I felt everytime so relieved. In Corona I was addicted to porn and even I lost control and was watching pretty hard stuff. I was chatting with a girl and we fantasized about really disturbing things. I never wanna meet her and for me was sure it's just kinda onlinestuff. I was in a relationship 3 years now. And I lost fear of HIV. But then came Morality OCD, Real Event (this chat) and after some times POCD. This combination was knocking me out, I felt like the badest person on earth. I did everything wrong and searched for relief and reassurance. It put me to the point of suicidal. I never ever hurting somebody, but my brain was making me a monster. I had to quit the relationship because I just couldn't give her what she deserved. I was in a clinic for 3 months. And we tested medication with ERP (before I took escitalopram for years). Anafranil was working first, then too many side-effects. I tried even without meds, but was so depressed. Now on sertralin for 5 weeks, but only 2 weeks on therapeutic dose 200mg. And wow, now I really feel so confused in the brain. I feel like how big my OCD became. The specific thoughts are not anymore, BUT it sticks on EVERYTHING atm. It's delusional how it feels in the brain. I really hope so deep my brain makes finally a reset and I need to wait it out. I could live with OCD for a long time but the last 1-2 yrs it took absolutely everything. I remark that POCD doesn't stick anymore like before but my brain is now constructing a very bad future because of past mistakes (that I all discussed with family, friends for relief over and over and over again). So it's like my OCD is now Real Event (The sexchat) again. Anyone was on the same point in life?
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After I started experiencing SOOCD for the past 5 years, I have had absolutely no sexual drive and no (barely anything) attraction to men. I’ve also sort of been emotionally numb for a very long time and I think it’s due to the years of anxiety and horrible depression. Ive been living like a rock, im just floating through life. I have no interests, no hobbies, zero motivation, no goals, and i feel like im going to be stuck like this forever. TMI !!!!!! I think the last time I felt actual genuine arousal/excitement was when I reconnected with my ex a couple years back and that was literally just for a day because SOOCD shut that down quickly. Since my SOOCD started when i was young i never fully felt aroused when I was being intimate. I wanted to do it and I wanted to feel things so badly but I couldn’t/i couldn’t get fully turned on. A month ago I was starting to feel happier, the intrusive thoughts/compulsions were very rare, and I was rarely experiencing the grounds response or or triggered (even though i still had no libido or attraction). I was doing pretty good and I recently got into a new relationship and my boyfriend literally woke up the attraction, I slowly felt myself becoming less numb. Just hanging out with him I started thinking “wow he’s so cute” “i want him to kiss me” “i wish he would hold my hand” “his smile is nice why is he so fine”. I felt something so sweet and It made me so so happy. We had such sweet dates and I was starting to feel like I was getting myself back. I still didn’t have a sexual drive (it was waking up slowlllyyy) and my flare up was starting to get worse so I couldn’t fully enjoy being intimate. My flare up has gotten pretty bad again lately i’m questioning all the things I felt with him and all the attraction and feelings are being clouded by intense anxiety, doubt, and worry. It triggers the SOOCD thoughts so bad and in the shower i was worrying that my anxiety, checking (of arousal, attraction, emotions, etc), other compulsions, and numbness are going to ruin my relationship. It just makes me worry that i’ll never get those feelings back. TMI!!!!! i just want to feel h*ny again man and I want to feel those feelings I felt for my man 😭 Literally 6 years of numbness, depression, anxiety and I finally felt somewhat normal 😭 he was waking things up and my intrusive thoughts messed it all up again. Anyways, I just want to know if anyone has experienced this and if ERP helped at all. I have a therapist now (thank you nocd) and I’m finally going to do ERP, try to fix my depression, and stuff like that. I’m trying to take the advice of someone who commented on one of my posts. They say that i need to continue my life no matter what ocd tells me. It’s getting harder again but I just hope the work im about to put in will allow me to finally enjoy my life.
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