- Username
- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yeah, sometimes I can get to the point where I will have the thoughts pop up in my head and ignore them and go about my life. But after the day, I start to think “well... I’ve been ignoring the thoughts and not reacting with anxiety but, omg, does that mean I’m LIKING the thoughts?!” Then I will try to get anxiety all over again to make sure it’s not me liking it. Such a vicious cycle.
Hey, thank you! I’m happy to hear someone thinks the same thing. I also think women are beautiful and boobs are beautiful too, but I never was and still am not attracted to women! There are times where I can accept that women are beautiful and my mind calms down a bit, but then my OCD finds some hidden random memory that means absolutely nothing to make the anxiety flare up again!!
Hey I have dealt with different types of OCD but HOCD has been one of the worst. I have only ever wanted to be with a man but my HOCD gets to me because I think that women can be structurally beautiful and even think that boobs can be beautiful. But here’s the deal. I am obsessed with men. I don’t want to be in a romantic or sexual relationship with a woman. I only want that with a man. My HOCD has been a lot better this past month because I finally accepted that I think women are beautiful. But it means nothing because I know I only want to be with a man. The thoughts and feelings that cause you anxiety aren’t your true thoughts and feelings. If you don’t want them, they aren’t really yours. It’s just ocd doing what it does. Hang in there. Try to let the thoughts and feelings pass through you and just be there. Don’t give them attention. I know it’s hard but It really does help!
tell me about it! ? what is wrong?
I’ve been panicking while with my boyfriend. I care about him and love him so much, but im constantly saying “I’m gay” in my head. All I do is check out girls when I don’t want to and I feel so guilty, it’s as if I turned gay. I’ve been diagnosed with OCD but I keep feeling like I’m just lying to myself. Over the summer this happened to me and before that, my life was going amazing. I met the guy of my dreams and going back to school, then this thought just has been stuck in my head and I’m afraid that I’ve turned gay and that I like it. I can’t even confidently say I’m straight.
I want to feel and confidently know I’m straight again.
I want my happiness back!! I want to feel the butterflies I always had for my boyfriend
I feel ya! I am not allowed to have a boyfriend which makes my HOCD so much worse. I have always wanted one and ow HOCD is trying to make me think that I don’t. before HOCD I was so happy and excited for my future with guys, and now I fear that I may never like a guy ever again. I fucking hate HOCD!!!
It’s the worst!!! I just don’t get how I never had a thought like this (and if I did, I was able to quickly brush it off as nothing) and now my whole world is falling apart ? what do you do to reduce intrusive thoughts, etc.?
And my thoughts go on alll day and into my dreams as well. Can’t catch a breakz
I have the same problem!! I usually try to distract myself but it never works. my therapist says to try to remember that thoughts are just thoughts and they don’t have any meaning. but I still have my doubts
same ??
Quite annoying! I have been taking supplements and noticed I’ve been feeling a lot more happier though. A few weeks ago I was so sad and could barely leave my home!!
This was some time ago, are any of you better or cured of ocd now?
I’m a whole lot better! I’m in recovery but I know OCD can rear its ugly head at any time. Every time I have an unwanted thought or feeling from OCD, I pay it no attention and wow it has worked wonders for me. I have my moments every now and then but overall, it has helped me tremendously
Glad to now you are doing much better after months!
how r u feeling now
I’m still in recovery! I only have bad moments every now and then instead of bad days! Not giving the thoughts and feelings any attention and just treating them like clouds passing in the sky changed everything for me!
Hocd is pure hell. Everytime I try to “accept” my thoughts it feels like I’m truly gay. I’m not homophobic at all but being gay just doesn’t feel right to me. But my mind is saying that being gay is truly what I want. This is torture.
Having a rough morning, can’t figure out if I’m gay or straight. I miss men. I used to know my orientation now I’m so confused. I know it’s ocd because every female I see is attractive but i just want this to go away. My ocd is looking for new ways to bother me for ex. I had the thoughts what if I get cancer or what if I kill someone but nothing bothers me except for hocd
Hocd has messed up my ability to rationally think anything. Everything I do, say, talk, wear, every single thing my mind goes to the conclusion that I’m gay. When I see a woman I find attractive, my mind says I’m lying and I’m forcing my attraction where as before my attraction and desire for woman was so clear and natural, it felt so right. My thinking is messed up, even when I’m getting aroused my mind goes to the image and the thought that I’m getting aroused by men and I just get so upset. This is so tiring.
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