I feel like I’m going crazy again. I moved to a new state so that means new doc/therapist. Since I’ve moved here about 4 months ago I’ve been dealing with terrible episodes and I’m just miserable. I haven’t been on medication and recently i decided to try it again. About 2 weeks ago i called around to see if they take my insurance and the ppl that did either aren’t taking new patients or they’re way too far for me to travel as i have no car and I’m very very low on cash bc my mental hasn’t been able to get a new job bc I’m terrified. I made an appointment but they didn’t have anything till later this month and I’ve been trying to be positive but I just keep having this obsession that i NEED the medicine and i dc if it will make me a zombie and emotionless bc that’s just how miserable i am. Im crying uncontrollably because my thoughts won’t chill out. I don’t know what to do in the meantime & i can’t afford to commit myself . If anyone has anyways to cope while I’m waiting to see a doctor I’d really be grateful. I feel like my brain is going to explode.

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

Did you know inside this app you could connect with an OCD specialist therapist who does ERP via live face-to-face video conferencing sessions? It’s only $50 per session to, the same price as an insurance copay. The reason it’s affordable is that NOCDs team all has OCD and they want to make treatment affordable for people. All you do is hit the therapist button and schedule a free 15 min confidential call with NOCD’s intake team. They’ll then connect you with an ERP therapist in your state who can help. For instance, in California there is this great OCD therapist and her name is Darilyn who helped me. NOCD doesn’t have a waitlist so I’d strongly recommend you hit the button.

bluberries

Date posted: 5y

Thank you for that, unfortunately i couldn’t afford a copay so a local psychiatric hospital told me to go to an ER which i did bc my mind couldn’t stop thinking about getting on medication, i became obsessed. I just want to feel better. So they did an evaluation on me and prescribed me my Zoloft . Idk why maybe it was going to the er that became the compulsion bc immediately after the doctor told me they would prescribe me medication my blood pressure went down.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

Hey I relate, I'm currently waiting to be seen by a CBT therapist and a minute feels like an hour and an hour feels a day. Medication can be really helpful combatting OCD also CBT/ERP. I recommend the book Brain Lock as it has a 4 step guide using CBT. I would recommend doing research on your condition reading books/blogs so you're equipped with information. Also stuff like keeping yourself busy and seeing friends helps a lot. also maybe download the app headspace.

bluberries

Date posted: 5y

Thank you, i supposed i just feel like I’m at my wits end. I try to research but tbh everything i read makes me understand myself more and i feel less confused but it also lets me know i can’t cure myself. and it’s so tuff out here in a new place where i know nobody. That probably has a part to play. I just feel like this appointment is light years away and i won’t even notice a change until im on the right dose.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@bluberries I completely get you. Here are some websites that have helped me. With regards to being in a new place- if you're up to it are there any clubs you can join? :) Intrusivethoughts.org OCD Action OCD UK Books Overcoming OCD the imp of the mind Also it does feel overwhelming but you're here, you're on this app! You're on the road to recovery!

bluberries

Date posted: 5y

@Daffodil Thank you so much, do you think it’s somewhat safe to Go to a hospital if i can’t take it anymore ?

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@bluberries Hey I recommend calling a helpline/ contacting those on OCD action (I think you can contact them by email if you're not from the UK). Definitely contact/ go to a hospital if you feel youre in danger. Things sill get better

bluberries

Date posted: 5y

What part of California, this is where i live now ?

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y

Everywhere in California! She administers the treatment online via video-conferencing sessions (it feels kind of like talking to someone on skype or FaceTime). To get connected with her you just hit the therapist button in the app. $50 per session is about $150 less than most therapy sessions for ERP, and NOCD lowered it there due to their team’s personal stories. They had to pay outrageous fees for treatment.

doliie

Date posted: 4y

@NOCD Advocate - Stephen Smith Is it still $50 per session? Do we get to choose when to have sessions?

nae nae

Date posted: 25w

Afraid I won't recover

I'm going through a rough time. I used to think medication would brighten my world, but if anything, it's muted it. The physical anxiety is less, and I felt okay(ish) for a while, but things are getting bad again. I'm so afraid I'll never get to a point where I feel safe in my body and in my mind. Today is the first day I've cried in... I don't know how long. But I didn't feel the relief I thought I would. Initially, I did, but it morphed into dread, and now I'm sitting by myself, trying not to panic. I really want to begin seeing a therapist for OCD, but I don't know how much my insurance covers. There's just so much on my mind right now. A whole bunch of old themes are resurfacing. I wish I could've been given a different path in life. I'm trying to stay strong. It's just really difficult. I feel like I'm being sent back to square one :(

Aquario

Date posted: 25w

need advice

my therapist isnt avaible for a this week and this weeks been hell, cant focus, i keep getting stuck in my thoughts, if i predict something will happen and it doesnt, my brain gets stuck on what if it did and then my obession keeps going, i keep trying to not pay attention or let go of my thoughts but feels like im in a trance when the thoughts come up and feels hard to snap out of it. also since my ocd is to the point of disability (despite social security keeps denying me) i cant go out much and my fears have been getting more and more dehabilitating and i dont know how to properly fix it, i dont know the right way to respond to these thoughts, i dont know how to let go, its just been super rough and demoralizing...

Anonymous

Date posted: 23w

Ocd/going crazy

Hi about a week ago I found out I have ocd and chronic anxiety! I tried zoloft and it was terrible for me. I also started therapy and I take hydroxyzine but I will discuss further medication with my doctor. My question is I have a huge fear that I'm going crazy, I am crazy, or schizophrenic to the point I'm so hyper aware of my surrounding ill look out the corner of my eye to make sure I'm nit seeing anything ill make sure to double check what I'm hearing and it's so draining! I get really scared and go into a panic and cry 😅 I need some reassurance has anyone felt this way my doctor and therapist explained it to me but I'm still very scared. I feel like one day I'll have a break and I won't be the same! I tried the grounding exercise and breathing it helps temporarily. I also cut out smoking weed and none of my family has this but I feel like I have it or ill develope it even though it's rare!

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