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Also, remember that when you are feeling highly anxious you are using your amygdala and your cognitive function goes waaaay down. Meaning, you can't convince yourself either way, even if you try. So it's best to just let it go. And when you are in your rational brain if you do see that thought again you will realize it's silly. But the point is to just stop fighting it.
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Let me ponder on this a bit. I have an idea, but am not quite sure how to put it to words yet
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i wonder this too!
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Maybe don't go the extra step by labeling the thought. Example: ego-dystonic or "maybe it means something." Instead just see the thought and let it go. Or if it chooses to stay that's fine too. But don't label it. Just let it be. Much harder said than done but for mindfulness I practiced a lot of leaves on the water exercises and distancting myself from the thought/ feeling. That doesn't mean pushing it away, because it will push back harder but that does mean seeing it as seperate from yourself. An example: a thought suddently pops in your head, "I want to kill my mom." Don't judge it by attaching words to it. Obviously psychologically it's ego-dystonic but your sympathetic nervous system doesn't care about that. Instead, just notice the thought and then go on with your day. Don't label it.
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I don't think the concepts are opposites. For a thought to be egodystonic OR egosyntonic, it's has to carry meaning and emotions with it. There's loads of thoughts that don't fit in either category because we don't think they're meaningful and we don't have strong emotions in response to them. Acceptance "maybe it means something, maybe it doesn't, and I don't have to figure it out" is how we learn to make the thought neither egodystonic not egosyntonic. Acceptance is how we making it just a boring old thought that flits in one ear and out the other
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Hmm, sounds like when you try to embrace not knowing, your reaction to that is to stick up for yourself/argue by saying the same as the first thing: that it's ego dystonic so it can't be who you are. It's not surprising that you do this, potentially quite automatically, because OCD is like a bully who tells mean stuff about you, and for a lot of us the instinct is to vigorously defend ourselves and to point out flaws in their reasoning. Maybe it would get you out of this loop a bit to know that just because something is ego dystonic doesn't mean it can't be true. It just means it doesn't vibe with how you see and think of yourself. It being ego-dystonic is what makes it distressing. People with ego-systonic intrusive thoughts have obsessive compulsive personality disorder, because the thoughts align with how they like to see themselves. It really is only about how you see yourself, your identity and your preferences and values, most of which has been unconsciously accumulated over time. It doesn't have to be untrue. It can be ego-dystonic and still be true, like for a homophobe who starts to realise that they're gay, or a teenager realising they are a paedophile who sees themself as a good person and is horrified that their emerging feelings could mean something about them which is stigmatised and which might, even to themselves, go against the good person they have believed they are. In both of these cases, the thoughts are ego-dystonic but true, and can certainly develop into an OCD with checking, asking others, researching, analysing etc if the person has a predisposition. So hopefully that can help you to stay with the uncertainty. I'm sure I'll get a few panicked responses from people on this comment, but I'm not going to respond to reassurance-seeking.
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I honestly can’t tell when thoughts are being affected by OCD. Sometimes I think I have what I think are normal “grey” thoughts, but then OCD adds so much weight to them and I spiral. I had this thought that I wished my boyfriend was more confident or independent. I felt so guilty for thinking it. I told him, and of course it hurt him. He told me it’s a normal thought to have, I just dwell on it too much. And that it’s the kind of thought most people keep to themselves. That’s the thing. I don’t know what’s okay to keep to myself and what isn’t. I think sometimes I say things out loud not just to relieve anxiety, but because I genuinely don’t know what’s okay to think or say. I do not know the line between a normal grey thought and something that’s “bad” to think. I don’t know how to tell if it’s something I should process privately or something I need to be ashamed of. I get this confusion with intrusive thoughts too, but those are easier to spot and evaluate. This is harder, because again, it is *my* thought. That makes it harder to sit with. Maybe the intrusive part is the voice that questions what kind of person I am for even thinking it. I don’t have the same telltale signs anymore. My physical anxiety isn’t there anymore, it’s all in my head and that makes it so much more confusing. But I don’t know. The line between honesty vs compulsion is so blurry. I just feel lost
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I've been told a lot that in order to get better, we need to tolerate uncertainty, which yea I get that and I'm trying every day more and more to reach that point!! But I've also been told that we need to tolerate uncertainty AND "our worst fears becoming true". Like how does that work, especially with POCD, OCD about a///ault, SA and all of that? Like that is really difficult for me and I don't really understand how I'm supposed to just shrug stuff like that off
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I know the solution is to always say “yeah that could be true, but I am choosing to live my life anyway.” However, I feel like my biggest issue is my brain always assuming that it is immediately true when I do that. Like if I say “maybe I’m attracted to teenagers, it’s possible,” then my brain INSTANTLY starts rationalizing that thought and defending it and being like “oh okay so you think this now and it makes sense because xyz, and now that’s who you are and your real desire is now and always will be teenagers.” I feel really alone in this area of feeling like my brain “accepting the thoughts” means my brain immediately accepts them as true. I obviously don’t want to think they’re true but I feel so stuck now.
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