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I’ve wasted the whole year in anxiety. Almost lost my job, my wife, my life but I will win this battle.
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How'd u get through it
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Honestly don’t look at it this way. You didn’t waste your life. You we dealing with a mental condition that most don’t go though. If at all, just know that you’re best years are soon to come :). We only say these are our best years when we compare ourselves to others experiences. Just know that the pain ocd has caused will make the good times even better :). Your life isn’t something that is something to hate, it’s just the perspective you’re in about it :)
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And yes I know my grammar is choppy, I’m really exhausted lol
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It's rough, I'm not going to lie. But I will say, you're a baby. Not emotionally, I mean you're still very young even if you don't feel that way. I would love to go back to 25 and have another chance. and no, your early twenties are not necessarily the best years of your life. It's when people are still figuring things out and deciding who they're going to be at least for the next little while. And if you're a few years behind the curve, so what. I'm not saying your life is going to be sunshine and rainbows but I am saying that it is not too late.
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Hey if it makes you feel better I’ve been dealing with these for like 10-13 years now on and off! Sometimes I think “omg why have I had them this long” but really it’s because when they go away for periods at a time we just get so happy to have release that we don’t work on ourselves. We need to remember to work during the easier times as well as the really anxious times
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Yes!!
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College, relationships, traveling, potential career, etc
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Most or all of that is stil possible after 25 years old.
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Yeah I guess ur right
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Yea, how did you get through it?
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I’m still going through it
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I just can’t give up
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Why do you consider 19-25 the best years of one's life?
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I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless
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Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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17f Just like the title says. I came to realization that I lost a whole year of life. I remembered my real event in the end of january of 2024. Since then my life has been a living hell. Also kinda made a couple new smaller events through this year. And I know I deserve it cause my event was actually bad. Even people without ocd on reddit agree it was bad. It's still ocd, but I deserve it probably. For this whole year I haven't had a day when I wouldn't think of it. It became my default state to constantly have it on my mind. I walked around, pretended to have fun, talked to people. Most of the time I wasn't really there, I was thinking about my event. My event haunts me when I'm awake, when I'm asleep. I spend this whole year either freaking out, being depressed, thinking on methods to off myself, ruminating, seeking reassurance or trying to distract myself with books, TV shows, social media or daydreaming. Literally barely engaged with reality. So it's so hard to believe a whole year passed... I can barely remember anything that happened during this year. I can't believe this is my life. Probably doesn't really matter cause I don't plan on staying there that long. There is no way I'm going to experience piece with myself. So I will be out in a year or so, since my plan requires some time. Finally will end it all. It just feels very weird. A whole year passed. I was so deep down in my head I didn't even notice. It's scary.
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