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I’ve wasted the whole year in anxiety. Almost lost my job, my wife, my life but I will win this battle.
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How'd u get through it
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Honestly don’t look at it this way. You didn’t waste your life. You we dealing with a mental condition that most don’t go though. If at all, just know that you’re best years are soon to come :). We only say these are our best years when we compare ourselves to others experiences. Just know that the pain ocd has caused will make the good times even better :). Your life isn’t something that is something to hate, it’s just the perspective you’re in about it :)
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And yes I know my grammar is choppy, I’m really exhausted lol
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It's rough, I'm not going to lie. But I will say, you're a baby. Not emotionally, I mean you're still very young even if you don't feel that way. I would love to go back to 25 and have another chance. and no, your early twenties are not necessarily the best years of your life. It's when people are still figuring things out and deciding who they're going to be at least for the next little while. And if you're a few years behind the curve, so what. I'm not saying your life is going to be sunshine and rainbows but I am saying that it is not too late.
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Hey if it makes you feel better I’ve been dealing with these for like 10-13 years now on and off! Sometimes I think “omg why have I had them this long” but really it’s because when they go away for periods at a time we just get so happy to have release that we don’t work on ourselves. We need to remember to work during the easier times as well as the really anxious times
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Yes!!
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College, relationships, traveling, potential career, etc
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Most or all of that is stil possible after 25 years old.
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Yeah I guess ur right
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Yea, how did you get through it?
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I’m still going through it
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I just can’t give up
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Why do you consider 19-25 the best years of one's life?
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17f Just like the title says. I came to realization that I lost a whole year of life. I remembered my real event in the end of january of 2024. Since then my life has been a living hell. Also kinda made a couple new smaller events through this year. And I know I deserve it cause my event was actually bad. Even people without ocd on reddit agree it was bad. It's still ocd, but I deserve it probably. For this whole year I haven't had a day when I wouldn't think of it. It became my default state to constantly have it on my mind. I walked around, pretended to have fun, talked to people. Most of the time I wasn't really there, I was thinking about my event. My event haunts me when I'm awake, when I'm asleep. I spend this whole year either freaking out, being depressed, thinking on methods to off myself, ruminating, seeking reassurance or trying to distract myself with books, TV shows, social media or daydreaming. Literally barely engaged with reality. So it's so hard to believe a whole year passed... I can barely remember anything that happened during this year. I can't believe this is my life. Probably doesn't really matter cause I don't plan on staying there that long. There is no way I'm going to experience piece with myself. So I will be out in a year or so, since my plan requires some time. Finally will end it all. It just feels very weird. A whole year passed. I was so deep down in my head I didn't even notice. It's scary.
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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since february i have "POcd". Initial symptoms were thoughts, but then I did a testing compulsion during an intimate time, and I spiraled ever since. I struggle with addiction to smut. I'm cutting that out, but I feel as if it is too late. Ive never experienced this much mental, and emotional anguish in my life. On my time on this application I have given advice to others, and helped around, but I wonder if that even applies to me. Millions of times I wish I could turn back time and be more careful. I want to prevent many things, including what led me to spiral into OCD in the first place. I'm surely having an OCD episode. I have gotten a diagnosis, but I'm still not sure. I feel evil, cause unlike many here, I tested on my body sensations and it backfired (twice) I know I'm not supposed to figure out why that is the case, but now I have to live with it for the rest of my life even if its something I don't desire. This is disgusting for me, it is abhorrent. I could've never seen this coming. Day by day I've become more fearful of living with this, "OCD". I was a normal person before this, I knew what I was attracted to, I know my preferences, so why did this come about? This is singlehandedly the most painful thing that has happened to me and I have nobody but myself to blame. I am scared of death but I also would'nt mind sleeping for years on end. My parents and brother were understanding of my situation, but I failed them regardless. I don't want them to see me this way, nor do I want them to learn more of my predicament. I'm cooked. I know it, Fin, thats all folks. I'm only 20 and I already have other diagnosed mental illness so I recklessly brought upon myself another one. Its agonizing to live through, I wish this on nobody, not even my worst enemy. I can't even identify myself at this point. Its tearing me apart.
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