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- 5y
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- 5y
I just wrote you a big long spill but dropped my phone and lost it all. Anyways, YOUR NOT ALONE. if I could write as well as you I would say the exact same thing as what you said but about me. I guess we will never know. Maybe we are crazy. Maybe not. I guess we might never know but enjoy yourself today by living life. This all sounds so easy I know. God bless us
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- 5y
Thank you for reaching out and the complement. :) It means a lot since I really wasn’t expecting anyone to say anything. I’m not going to lie you did spike a bit of anxiety in me just there, but I understand accepting uncertainty is part of what I need to do if I ever want to get my life back, so I appreciate the reminder and the support. ❤️
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- 5y
Omg I’m going through the same thing right now, these past few days I’ve been in a perpetual state of anxiety. I’m scared I’m going crazy and just accepting my thoughts as well. But we’re not alone, everyone on here understands what we’re going through! We have to just keep pushing through, I’ve gotten over it once for two years before it reared it’s ugly head again. There is hope, we just can’t lose it!
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- 5y
Very true. Thanks so much for the support! It helps a lot to know I’m not the only person feeling this way. My last ocd spike was 3 year ago and then all the sudden it just came back. :( Pretty sure it was caused by coronavirus stress and new changes in my life
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- 5y
I feel I have been in a anxiety spike for over a year now. It's so hard. Today I slept in till 10 am. Just trying to not think. I'm sure that could be a compulsion as well. But I do work hard. Most my anxiety is triggered from work. I'm not sure why though, so then I'm always in my head
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- 5y
Im Sorry you feel this way and I really relate to everything you said. Know that you are not alone and it is possible to recover ! You are not losing it! Its just anxiety that makes your mind go weird directions ( someone just said that to me :)) . Just hold on and know it will pass eventually. That is how i overcome an anxiety peak myself . I remember i had it before and it passed.
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- 5y
I know that they’re just thoughts but sometimes I’m afraid that they will or have changed my morality and how I see things. That’s the worst part and it’s why I’m so afraid of my mind. And a lot of the times, even though I’m always doing reassurance, checking, researching and a lot of other things typical of those with ocd, I always worry that there’s something else going on and that I actually think these things and it all just very scary. And then sometimes I worry that I’m not feeling anxious enough about it so that must mean I accept it as a truth and that I’m going to act on it, and in the midst of the anxiety it all seems very real. It’s hard to do almost anything these days because of the nature of my obsessions. I’m forced to be exposed to it everyday because it something I have to see everyday (and maybe that’s why I don’t feel much anxiety right now.) I know that no one is probably going to read this, but I’m tired of this constant cycle of overthinking everyday, and I just needed a place to share my thoughts.
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- 23w
Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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- 16w
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 13w
Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
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