Sometimes I worry that I don’t have ocd and that I’m losing my mind and that I’ll never feel better again. I was starting to feel really good last night and I thought it was finally over so I went ahead and did a lot of the stuff I enjoyed doing before this happened (the reason I had to stop was because certain things were triggering in either one way or another) but eventually I hit a point where I just could not bring myself to do something because it was causing too much anxiety. I got this horrible image last night in a dream and then I began to get a flurry of bothersome thoughts, so now I have 2 obsessions to worry about now. The first one is kind of in control but I’m just afraid what’s going to happen to my brain and I’m worried about having an episode in front of my family, who I’m supposed to be having a small dinner with today. I don’t want to tell them what’s going on but I’m afraid they’ll notice that I’m not well. I’m never present because I’m always in my head analyzing and ruminating and worrying. The feeling last night gave me hope that I could be myself again but I just worry that these thoughts will always linger and make me lose my mind. :(

I just wrote you a big long spill but dropped my phone and lost it all. Anyways, YOUR NOT ALONE. if I could write as well as you I would say the exact same thing as what you said but about me. I guess we will never know. Maybe we are crazy. Maybe not. I guess we might never know but enjoy yourself today by living life. This all sounds so easy I know. God bless us

Omg I’m going through the same thing right now, these past few days I’ve been in a perpetual state of anxiety. I’m scared I’m going crazy and just accepting my thoughts as well. But we’re not alone, everyone on here understands what we’re going through! We have to just keep pushing through, I’ve gotten over it once for two years before it reared it’s ugly head again. There is hope, we just can’t lose it!

I feel I have been in a anxiety spike for over a year now. It's so hard. Today I slept in till 10 am. Just trying to not think. I'm sure that could be a compulsion as well. But I do work hard. Most my anxiety is triggered from work. I'm not sure why though, so then I'm always in my head

Im Sorry you feel this way and I really relate to everything you said. Know that you are not alone and it is possible to recover ! You are not losing it! Its just anxiety that makes your mind go weird directions ( someone just said that to me :)) . Just hold on and know it will pass eventually. That is how i overcome an anxiety peak myself . I remember i had it before and it passed.

I know that they’re just thoughts but sometimes I’m afraid that they will or have changed my morality and how I see things. That’s the worst part and it’s why I’m so afraid of my mind. And a lot of the times, even though I’m always doing reassurance, checking, researching and a lot of other things typical of those with ocd, I always worry that there’s something else going on and that I actually think these things and it all just very scary. And then sometimes I worry that I’m not feeling anxious enough about it so that must mean I accept it as a truth and that I’m going to act on it, and in the midst of the anxiety it all seems very real. It’s hard to do almost anything these days because of the nature of my obsessions. I’m forced to be exposed to it everyday because it something I have to see everyday (and maybe that’s why I don’t feel much anxiety right now.) I know that no one is probably going to read this, but I’m tired of this constant cycle of overthinking everyday, and I just needed a place to share my thoughts.