- Username
- kool11
- Date posted
- 4y ago
What you said to them before doesn’t matter right now. Maybe it was a lie, maybe it was a mistake, maybe it was true—who knows. It’s happened. Right now, you’re feeling it’s not getting better. You can tell them that now. Also, you only started a few weeks ago. Recovery for sure isn’t a steady ascent. There’s a whole lot of up and down and peaks and valleys and u-turns. Be patient with yourself ? you’ll get there.
thank you. i will work on patience with myself. i appreciate your advice ❤️
Be honest that it isnt helping and you are struggling to do the work on your own. Thoughts we have arnt often true- you will get better.
thank you. i appreciate it.
I'm sorry. Please try to your best avoiding performing your compulsions. I know your OCD will do everything it possibly can to get you to do a compulsion, so it will be behaving nastier than usual, but please try to will through it. I also know it may seem futile at times but sticking with it can be so effective. Definitely use the resources available on NOCD. I would listen to some of the Q&A videos on the NOCD YouTube channel when things start to get bad. It helps calm me down. Also don't beat yourself up if you give into a compulsion a few times along the way. We all do, it's part of getting better. Please keep trying and give it some time. Come back to us and tell us how it's been going, we'll be here to support you.
thank you so much for the support. i will definitely be easier on myself.
so i feel like i need to vent because all of this is just building up, 3 months ago when i had my first intrusive thought that caused an obsession that went on for weeks and then every other week a new intrusive thought would pop up and i’d obsess over that one. and it continues with multiple themes. some even similar to the one i’m dealing with right now but for some reason this one feels so much more real then again all the themes did. i really don’t know how to explain it, frightened if it’s just me. some days i feel completely numb to it like i’m a bad person but if that was so why would i keep fighting it and being in distress over it. it’s breaking my heart. i should know that it’s no coincidence since i’ve been dealing with this thing. whatever it might be ): i really don’t want to give up but i’m just scared. it all feels wrong and i feel numb or sometimes the ugliest stuff pops into my head. also the old themes have tried popping up again. i wonder if this whole thing is just my fault if it’s all just me but the truth is i guess i’ll never know... there’s so much more i could say... but i hope someone can relate to this... is it possible to feel just completely not like yourself like you’re trying so hard to just be the way you are but it’s hard because you have to sit with the fear inside your head... cause tbh there’s no other choice
my infuriated thoughts are getting much intenser. my therapist told me not to reassurance but i can’t help this. i want to believe these are not my actual thoughts and i still have myself, but i don’t know anymore. i’m getting too used to have these thoughts and i’m scared. am i really like this? is this ocd? i wish i could just reset all the memories that i have and restart everything.
My biggest obsession at the moment is that I am not going to get better, or, am I going to get better. My therapist is making me say a script to myself about not get better and never being well again, losing my family and suffering for the rest of my life. I am so scared I am doing it wrong. I don't stop worrying about getting better all day long, it goes round and round in my head. I am full of anxiety and pain. I am apparently supposed to really believe that I might not ever get better...but I can't MAKE myself believe that. I still hope to get better....is that wrong? Is that not doing erp right. What if I can't get the erp done correctly??? I feel like my therapist and I are just going round in circles as I am not grasping it properly
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