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What you said to them before doesn’t matter right now. Maybe it was a lie, maybe it was a mistake, maybe it was true—who knows. It’s happened. Right now, you’re feeling it’s not getting better. You can tell them that now. Also, you only started a few weeks ago. Recovery for sure isn’t a steady ascent. There’s a whole lot of up and down and peaks and valleys and u-turns. Be patient with yourself ? you’ll get there.
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thank you. i will work on patience with myself. i appreciate your advice ❤️
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Be honest that it isnt helping and you are struggling to do the work on your own. Thoughts we have arnt often true- you will get better.
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thank you. i appreciate it.
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I'm sorry. Please try to your best avoiding performing your compulsions. I know your OCD will do everything it possibly can to get you to do a compulsion, so it will be behaving nastier than usual, but please try to will through it. I also know it may seem futile at times but sticking with it can be so effective. Definitely use the resources available on NOCD. I would listen to some of the Q&A videos on the NOCD YouTube channel when things start to get bad. It helps calm me down. Also don't beat yourself up if you give into a compulsion a few times along the way. We all do, it's part of getting better. Please keep trying and give it some time. Come back to us and tell us how it's been going, we'll be here to support you.
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thank you so much for the support. i will definitely be easier on myself.
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