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Hey lunchlysol do you call your ocd Karen lol I love it
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I do! She's an annoying bitch
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I just started doing this after mentioning to my therapist it’s pretty fun. Figuring out how she looks like her name ect :)
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It has definitely helped me. We both laughed when I told her the name I chose.
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Hey lucha! I get that wanting to sleep it away thing. I'm sorry. I'm praying for you. Dunno if this helps but I had a thought today that OCD is really just chemicals or electricity in my brain... Like we yell at each other how much we hate each other, but really, I don't need to respond because ny OCD isnt a person. Its a chemical. I don't have to feel threatened by something that can't even think... Its like yelling at Windex. Idk if that helps. It was just kind of a realization for me. 💛💛 I wish you luck. Que luches like your name says💛💛
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So, if you can, reflect just a little but on how this cycle works. I’m sure before Tuesday you had some really bad days, right? Your obsessions were intense, and you wondered if you were really a murderer, it might’ve even felt like you were about to act on the thoughts. Then Tuesday comes, and they’re mostly gone or they don’t seem to matter. What changed? Maybe you did some exposure work, maybe not. Thoughts, feelings, emotions, they tend to just appear. Sometimes they are tied to external circumstances (like being happy because you’re reuniting with a friend you haven’t seen in a long time) and sometimes not. Ever been unhappy in a moment you thought you would be? What treatment is really all about is being mindful of how your mind works, but not necessarily taking it personally. You can see yourself starting to ruminate and recognize it for what it is: just a random phenomenon of the mind. Your OCD will latch on to any thing that can fuel the feelings of doubt. That’s what’s happening when you’re wondering about what your “true reason” for distress is. It’s just a rumination compulsion where your brain is trying to explain away an issue so it can get rid of it. Your brain likes having a job, and it gets hooked on the anxiety/relief cycle. It thinks it’s protecting you.
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Yes. It fluctuates, some days are good and some are bad. Im in the middle of a move so I feel that what changed was that I was just busy, it didn't give my mind the time to even cook up new thoughts/obsessions. Im always worried about any negative emotions I feel. Annoyance, anger, disappointment, etc, worry me. It scares me that I may act on the thoughts in a moment of feeling any of these. Yes, like right now its tellling me that I might as well just do it so it stops. Im so exhausted, not just physically cause of my move, but all I wanna do is sleep so I don't have to think. I don't want to be a bad person, but ocd makes me believe I do want to be a bad person.
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Basically long story short, ive been dealing with anxiety for a very long time all my life I'm 23 now but about 5 months ago my anxiety started to get really and I overthink a ton and get worried to easily. So my chest hurt for a while from stress at work made me worry why it was hurting, then me worrying and thinking worse case scenarios was making it worse. So i and to go to the doctor and got diagnosed properly with anxiety and I have a med now that I take when I really need it called hydroxyzine but I also have another med that is Zoloft that I have been taking for a about a month now, to help with my intrusive thoughts I have sometimes i only get them when im stressed or when I'm by myself or when i just overthink in general, my loneliness depression is one of the reasons for my anxiety because I wish I had someone as in partner wise to love me and for me to love them. But anyways I've had intrusive thoughts about possibly hurting myself and family, or even my dog. Ive never acted on any of my thoughts in the past and I don't want to but I have had anxiety attacks when everything feels to real and really scares me. I constantly have the thought of am I crazy or am I becoming crazy and stuff and I've done a lot of looking stuff in the past about symptoms but most of them are identical to what anxiety is so it's hard to tell the difference. It's been probably 2 weeks since we last talked. I've been mostly doing good. But I just was wondering if had a little Harm OCD intrusive thought happen yesterday that targeted my Aunt at work she was complaining all day and when it got closer to the end of the shifts for us. I was already annoyed with a situation that happened earlier in the work day. But she came into my department and then went back over to hers and I said it out loud to myself and said you better get back over there or I'll, I tried to say something else because the word I was going to say was kill you. Obviously I don't but that's what my intrusive thought wanted me to say. And made me think thats why i got to hurt her to stop her complaing So the rest of the night I was saying she is safe I am safe I'm control, like this is just anxiety lying to you, it's just because I'm tired and got annoyed earlier. I can't tell if it was working or not because I was so tired and just wanted to go home. But after work her and I spent time together at our house she was on the one couch and I was on the other with a bunch of our dogs in the living room. I tried to keep my mind off of what happened, and I was fighting some stomach achyness already. But I obviously don't want to hurt her and we had conversations just fine. But I went to my other aunt house at night after work to go to bed because she has to watch my aunts dogs because my other aunt and family is on vacation. But anyways I'm trying to get over that word Kill, that word is what is scarring me and sticking. Like my anxiety is lying saying kill, or basically do harm. I don't want to do anything bad but I'm trying to shake that feeling and stickiness of that word. I'm just so scared and worried.
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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