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Hey lunchlysol do you call your ocd Karen lol I love it
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I do! She's an annoying bitch
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I just started doing this after mentioning to my therapist it’s pretty fun. Figuring out how she looks like her name ect :)
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It has definitely helped me. We both laughed when I told her the name I chose.
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Hey lucha! I get that wanting to sleep it away thing. I'm sorry. I'm praying for you. Dunno if this helps but I had a thought today that OCD is really just chemicals or electricity in my brain... Like we yell at each other how much we hate each other, but really, I don't need to respond because ny OCD isnt a person. Its a chemical. I don't have to feel threatened by something that can't even think... Its like yelling at Windex. Idk if that helps. It was just kind of a realization for me. 💛💛 I wish you luck. Que luches like your name says💛💛
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So, if you can, reflect just a little but on how this cycle works. I’m sure before Tuesday you had some really bad days, right? Your obsessions were intense, and you wondered if you were really a murderer, it might’ve even felt like you were about to act on the thoughts. Then Tuesday comes, and they’re mostly gone or they don’t seem to matter. What changed? Maybe you did some exposure work, maybe not. Thoughts, feelings, emotions, they tend to just appear. Sometimes they are tied to external circumstances (like being happy because you’re reuniting with a friend you haven’t seen in a long time) and sometimes not. Ever been unhappy in a moment you thought you would be? What treatment is really all about is being mindful of how your mind works, but not necessarily taking it personally. You can see yourself starting to ruminate and recognize it for what it is: just a random phenomenon of the mind. Your OCD will latch on to any thing that can fuel the feelings of doubt. That’s what’s happening when you’re wondering about what your “true reason” for distress is. It’s just a rumination compulsion where your brain is trying to explain away an issue so it can get rid of it. Your brain likes having a job, and it gets hooked on the anxiety/relief cycle. It thinks it’s protecting you.
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Yes. It fluctuates, some days are good and some are bad. Im in the middle of a move so I feel that what changed was that I was just busy, it didn't give my mind the time to even cook up new thoughts/obsessions. Im always worried about any negative emotions I feel. Annoyance, anger, disappointment, etc, worry me. It scares me that I may act on the thoughts in a moment of feeling any of these. Yes, like right now its tellling me that I might as well just do it so it stops. Im so exhausted, not just physically cause of my move, but all I wanna do is sleep so I don't have to think. I don't want to be a bad person, but ocd makes me believe I do want to be a bad person.
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- 23w
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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Hey so a couple months ago (7-8) I remember being upset at my family member. Like she was talking too much while I was annoyed and remember wanting her to be quiet. I got an intrusive thought like a really bad image of doing something really bad to her, and my hand twitched to the side a little? Like it felt like I was about to?! And I remembered thinking "if I do this, I'll get in trouble". I got up and left to the bathroom and felt horrified! I was thinking "did I want to act out? Did the only reason I didn't act out was because of getting in trouble? If there was no consequences, would have I done it?! Does this mean this whole time I've been using OCD as an excuse?" I remember I couldn't sleep for 3 nights because of how bad the anxiety was, I was crying and I felt very guilty like I should turn myself in to a mental hospital. I couldn't eat for many days or be near her because of that thought and twitch I had! I'm worried it was an impulse or I actually wanted to hurt her. And even to this day I still ruminanate about this. Like last night I couldn't sleep well I kept waking up every two hours and asking myself "am I capable?" I couldn't eat last night. Sometimes I move on from it like I forget that happened but when I remember, I feel distressed about it! I don't want to be an evil person or do bad actions towards anyone! I'm even scared to be angry because of this because I'm scared I have more "chance" of acting out due to anger. Like was it an impulse and I held back? Is this even OCD? Please help, I'm really scared!
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- 14w
I know I am going a bit cuckoo because my period is coming up, but lately it feels like every intrusive thought I have, I *like* it. Like I genuinely feel like I like it, and then I immediately panic because I start checking. Mentally, emotionally, whatever it is. And I know that is a compulsion. I *know* that. But it feels so real that I cannot stop myself. Every single time I check, it still feels like I like the thought, and it is driving me absolutely insane. It is especially the POCD thoughts. They feel so real. I feel like something is going on mentally, like some kind of confusion or glitch, because I swear I was not like this before. I would have intrusive thoughts, and they would feel real, but not *this* real. And I do not even know if this is normal. I know OCD is **supposed** to feel convincing. That is the whole thing. But I have never experienced it to this extreme. I have never gotten the same thought so many times and still felt like, “Oh my God, I did enjoy it,” even after checking a million times. It is like no matter how many times I check, it feels like I liked it. Especially during intimacy :( and it is making me lose it. Then I start thinking, “Well, I am in distress, so maybe that is proof it is not actually me.” But right after, I am like, “What if I am only panicking because I care about what society thinks and not because I actually have morals?” And then I spiral again, wondering if maybe I just care about how I am seen rather than who I am. I am panicking so much no today. I had to take my Xanax today for the first time in two months, and I needed three separate doses. I really need some support right now.
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