luchalysol
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- 5y
Charlie12232Charlie12232
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- 5y
Hey lunchlysol do you call your ocd Karen lol I love it
luchalysolluchalysol
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- 5y
I do! She's an annoying bitch
Charlie12232Charlie12232
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- 5y
I just started doing this after mentioning to my therapist it’s pretty fun. Figuring out how she looks like her name ect :)
luchalysolluchalysol
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- 5y
It has definitely helped me. We both laughed when I told her the name I chose.
Daisy102Daisy102
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- 5y
Hey lucha! I get that wanting to sleep it away thing. I'm sorry. I'm praying for you. Dunno if this helps but I had a thought today that OCD is really just chemicals or electricity in my brain... Like we yell at each other how much we hate each other, but really, I don't need to respond because ny OCD isnt a person. Its a chemical. I don't have to feel threatened by something that can't even think... Its like yelling at Windex. Idk if that helps. It was just kind of a realization for me. 💛💛 I wish you luck. Que luches like your name says💛💛
Carl CornettCarl Cornett
- Date posted
- 5y
So, if you can, reflect just a little but on how this cycle works. I’m sure before Tuesday you had some really bad days, right? Your obsessions were intense, and you wondered if you were really a murderer, it might’ve even felt like you were about to act on the thoughts. Then Tuesday comes, and they’re mostly gone or they don’t seem to matter. What changed? Maybe you did some exposure work, maybe not. Thoughts, feelings, emotions, they tend to just appear. Sometimes they are tied to external circumstances (like being happy because you’re reuniting with a friend you haven’t seen in a long time) and sometimes not. Ever been unhappy in a moment you thought you would be? What treatment is really all about is being mindful of how your mind works, but not necessarily taking it personally. You can see yourself starting to ruminate and recognize it for what it is: just a random phenomenon of the mind. Your OCD will latch on to any thing that can fuel the feelings of doubt. That’s what’s happening when you’re wondering about what your “true reason” for distress is. It’s just a rumination compulsion where your brain is trying to explain away an issue so it can get rid of it. Your brain likes having a job, and it gets hooked on the anxiety/relief cycle. It thinks it’s protecting you.
luchalysolluchalysol
- Date posted
- 5y
Yes. It fluctuates, some days are good and some are bad. Im in the middle of a move so I feel that what changed was that I was just busy, it didn't give my mind the time to even cook up new thoughts/obsessions. Im always worried about any negative emotions I feel. Annoyance, anger, disappointment, etc, worry me. It scares me that I may act on the thoughts in a moment of feeling any of these. Yes, like right now its tellling me that I might as well just do it so it stops. Im so exhausted, not just physically cause of my move, but all I wanna do is sleep so I don't have to think. I don't want to be a bad person, but ocd makes me believe I do want to be a bad person.
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- 22w
Makes me feel like a horrible person
That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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- 18w
Is this something OCD does?
Whenever anyone starts to feel like their thoughts are less triggering or they feel a moment of happiness/ relief OCD tells you that you want the thoughts back or you actually like having the thoughts and maybe thats just the person I really am? I feel like im going insane😢
laladracu
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- 17w
idk if its harm ocd anymore
I dont know whats going on. I dont know if its OCD anymore. I know it was in the beginning. Ive been through a lot of trauma and had one little scary thought of killing my sister 4 months ago that has blossomed into this giant idea of me being a serial killer and wanting to hurt everyone (I never had any social issues growing up but I have had some trauma). Recently I’ve been having urges to just give in. And my mental images have been horrible and I can’t stop checking if I like them or not. I think I’ve convinced myself I have. This morning I woke up a shaking mess with an urge to unalive my family and when my mom left for work I was alone with my sister and couldnt stop vomiting uncontrollably. I dont know if i’m upset because I cant hurt anyone and I want to, or if I’m scared and just want my old life back. I was an avid horror and gore lover and now I’m convinced I want to do the things I’ve seen in the movies. Someone please help. I’m ready to check into the psych ward.
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