Hi I am new to this app and didnt know what else to turn to. My parents dont understand me at all.. my ocd or anything I go thru. I have almost 2 years clean from drugs, have extreme anxiety, and pretty severe OCD and trich. I am just having a really hard and traumatizing week. Two nights ago my freezer caught on fire( which I didnt even realize was a thing) and there was no one there to help me. I was frozen in shock and I just switched the breakers off until my apartment maintenece could help in the morning. Of course I didnt sleep bc I just kept thinking it was still going to catch fire. The power has gone off 3 times this week.. once while I had a cleaning service here to help me clean my apartment( which is a hard enough exposure for me anyway, to let other people in touching all my things especially during covid). The last thing is I have been worried for a while that there is something physically wrong with me (my dad is a physician and I have physical symptoms to back up this theory). I wont share my symptoms cuz that could take a while but as someone with Ocd you think are all of these symptoms real/fake and related/ unrelated issues that I should or shouldnt worry about. Well my concierge doctor called me with intensive lab results they did as a result of my worrying and it turns out my ANA is pretty high and she wants to refer me to a rheumatologist. ANA being high is the first sign of an autoimmune disease. She was trying to write my fatigue off as sleep apnea but they did find something pretty significant in my bloodwork. Im just really scared. This is too much for me to deal with and worry about. I just feel like shutting down, I cant deal with this all by myself. Any advice or just support? I do have an Ocd therapist, have been thru exposure therapy, and currently take meds for it.

jess 113

Date posted: 5y

Thank you, I really appreciate that.

Ocd=lame

Date posted: 5y

Damn, a bunch of things that would suck by themselves all happening at the same time, anyone would feel overwhelmed by that. I hope your test results turn out okay, and if they don’t, just know that you can trust the medical professionals to get you through this tough period. Take some space and do something that relaxes you, I know that’s such basic advice but it sounds like you really need a break. I hope next week is a little less chaotic! (And congrats on being clean for two years, that’s impressive)

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

Wow! That’s a lot. I’m sorry but I found it hilarious the way you worded the freezer fire 😂 (“which I didn’t even realize was a thing”). When I get overwhelmed by things going on, I try to remind myself to stay in the present. “Yes, I’m nervous about work tomorrow. But right now, I’m in the shower. Let’s just be in the shower right now.” Etc. Do you have any friends nearby, just to share with? Talk to?

jess 113

Date posted: 5y

Ya its like who knew that water could drip down the back of your fridge and start an electrical fire? It was just a crazy freak accident. But pretty terrifying becuase all I had in there were frozen meals, plenty of cardboard to catch fire. Ive been pretty isolated, my parents live in GA and im in North Carolina. I moved here to get clean, but no I really dont have any support outside my parents and my therapist. I did have a pretty strong sobriety network for a while but they no longer talk to me because I needed to be put on a medication( for my anxiety and Ocd) that they dont approve of. So I lost a lot of my support here.

Alyosha

Date posted: 5y

@jess 113 I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time. That sounds hard to lose friends over a decision to take meds for your mental health. 😞

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