I'm having a full on panic attack I can't stop crying. I moved into my new apartment and I just miss my parents and my home so much. I'm crying and I can't breathe. I wish I had never grown up I might pass out I've never had this before and I'm afraid. I feel so alone and I don't think I'll ever be able to get friends cause I'm so shy and introverted. I thought I wanted to live alone, I've always been more comfortable when alone but now I wish I could be home with my family.

I just have no one to talk to and I'm embarrassed to call my parents cause I don't want to make them feel worried about me.

I’m married and in my mid to late 30’s and there are nights I want to call my mom to help me stop a panic attack. You aren’t alone in these feelings. I’m sending you comfort and strength. I know since joining this app, I am often able to come here rather than wake my partner or call my parents. I hope the SOS feature here or we can help you. 💜

I know it's part of life but I don't want it to be. Ever since I was a kid I didn't want to grow up. I love my parents so much and I know it won't be long until I see them again but I miss my home country and I feel like nothing here works and I feel so miserable I' m unable to see the good in anything rn. I know this feeling will pass but I just feel so alone. I have no good friends here and because of corona, I'm not able to meet them or do anything fun. I'm just lock in here in my apartment and I have nothing here not even a kettle to make myself coffee or tea and I feel so trapped. (I'm not able to go out to buy a kwttle either cause I'm waiting for someone to come fix my internet)

I understand. You’re doing your best and thats all that matters. Honestly you’re pretty brave to move to another country to study. Look at you makin moves! Your friends and family must be proud of you. Don’t let yiur feelings frighten you, just work through them. People worry bc they want you to be your best self. Its ok to cry and be afraid. You made it thus far so you definitely can handle it down the road! You’re not alone despite your feelings! Breath lol close your eyes and breath for a moment to relax yourself. I hope all ive said so far has been somewhat of a help!

Also theres plenty of people to talk to on here so don’t be shy on those days where you find it hard to manage!

I’m turning 32 and I feel like I didn’t fully grow up until my late 20s. You have time, and honestly growing up sucks but it’s also so great in so many ways. Think of it as personal growth. No one can bring you down if you can find strength in yourself. It’s there.. just find it and grab it

Yeah I know its' okay to call your parents. I just felt like I shouldn't call them already 2 days after separating. I just have this problem of wanting to appear strong and I know I should learn to be vulnerable around people but it's so difficult... I'm glad there are people here who I can talk to and because this is more or less anonymous, I feel more comfortable being vulnerable in here. Thank you all for your caring words, I appreaciate them. I've always wanted to live alone but for some reason now that I do, it was more difficult than I had imagined... I will be okay, I'm sure, but the beginning is always hard...

Im sorry you feel this way ☹️. Its ok to feel afraid but its a part of life that we all go through but i promise you that things will get better. Calm yourself and do something that you enjoy! Maybe go get some food depending on what time it is for you, watch a movie,listen to your favorite songs, youtube, anything to keep your spirits up!

Don’t feel embarrassed!! I still need my parents sometimes and im 24! Lol you had the courage to be on your own and that’s impressive in my book!

Think of this as a way to face your fears of growing up. Why do you fear growing up? Its ok to miss home and such but its exciting to get out there and try nee things and meet new people. Corona sucks, i know that. Are you working? Maybe you can meet people at work so that you wont feel as lonely there. You will make friends! As long as you try. People can be friendly if you give them a chance. In case you dont want to go out for groceries, you could always have them delivered? Im sorry this is hard for you. Im throwing some suggestions to try and help

How far away from home are you?

I appreciate the help. I'm just in a very bad place rn. I have so much to do it feels overwhealming and I don't know where to start. I'm studying in a completely new country like 4h flight away so I can't go home until Christmas. I know it'll get better but rn I can't stop crying. I usually never cry. All my classes are online so I have no reason to meet my class mates and I'm afraid I'll just trap myself in my apartment because of the way I feel. I just wish I was still in high school with my friends and lived with my parents. Thank you for helping and trying to make me feel better I truly appreciate it. I came here cause I feel like I have no one to talk to. Everyone expects me to be steong like I usually am and I know it's dumb not to show how I really feel but I don't want to make people worry about me. I will be fine in a few days and it'll all turn better. Rn I just feel so bad...

Idk if you have a tiktok lol but theres this psychologist on there who gives very helpful tips. You should check her out! Her name is @kreftscouch

Thank you! I made some friends here last time but I still felt like an outsider. People here have their own inside jokes from the culture and at times I find it difficult to even understand the language. It's just been so tough to get to know how things work around here so these few first days here have been draining. I guess this is just all of it coming out at once... I do have tiktok thank you I will go check her out :)