I truly just want to die, this shit is never going to get better i have zero support, nobody understands me, my family’s lives are perfect and im just here miserable as fuck i get so irritated and jealous because nobody is going through this but me and they can care less. Im done with everything.

Your brain is hurt. It doesn’t function the way it should. People don’t often understand, but it’s hard to quantify. But everyone here, we understand. We understand what it’s like to want to run from yourself and not be able to. This disorder will do everything it can to make you feel isolated, including make it seem like no one cares. Believe that they do anyways. And please hold on. I know it seems like the hardest thing it the world, but this will not crush you.

I hear you. Ive lost my best friend to this disease. She told me its all in my head and she was having real problems. People don’t understand and even when they try, their patience runs out. They don’t understand we don’t want to feel like this or have these thoughts. But we do. And we have to work on that. And while it would be nice to have their support, we must learn to rely on ourselves becuase we are strong and we are capable and we will move forward regardless.

Please don’t die. Your friends and family love you and care about you a lot. You have so much to look forward to in the future. Keep doing your erp exercises and overtime you will realise that your thoughts are not real and you can be safe in those situations. We can get through this together and we are all here for you.

It’s so easy to feel defeated with OCD. You are not alone. You are loved. There is hope!