This horrible disorder never ends if you keep fighting, it destroys you mentally and physically, till there's nothing left but obsessions and intrusive thoughts. No sleep, no appetite, no will to live. Controlling your life till life isn't worth it anymore. I've been suffering with OCD (mainly Pure O) for many years now and it is a giant monster always finding cracks to renew and feeds on the slightest doubt, it's a never ending rabbit hole of darkness, if you fight it. There is no answer nor reassurance nor pills to stop the horrible doubts and fears, you can't out think it or try to stop thinking it, just try your best to realise that it is nothing to do with you as a person, you are completely FREE from the horrible thoughts and urges your mind sends you, it's the mind you must seperate the two. Acceptance of uncertainty, trusting in life and realising that thoughts can't be stopped nor controlled nor deleted nor escaped is the way to overcome.

I feel you, I feel you.... My main theme is HOCD and Religious obbessions, it's incredibly exhausting, get triggered constantly, it has stopped me from having real meaningful relationships, I've been in therapy for a while, the thoughts have decreased however still feel horrible. I wish you the best.

I feel this too. I’m angry today at how much I have let this steal my life Constant thoughts of hocd and rocd that are almost ruining my marriage. I am sad and broken and tired of the constant thoughts I know aren’t true but are constant in my mind

I know how you feel @AhmedH. We suffer from the same type. Only I also have mild POCD. It's funny how much we take for granted in this life. Only when it hits us do we understand how fragile life is. I got HOCD when I was 14 or 15 (can't remember exactly). And have had it on and off ever since. It's robbed me of a life that over wanted to have. It's robbed me of happiness and dignity. For a while it was gone, while I had a relationship. Man was that the best time of my life. But a few years after we broke up there it was again...

@deputydean Couldn't agree more man, when my HOCD strikes (for the past year, it's been the worst), I just feel worthless, my self esteem and confidence immediately decreases and continues to decrease, i feel severe fear to build any relationship with the opposite gender, if I do, I am constantly triggered horribly triggered, social life destroyed etc. I really hope one day we can completely overcome this dreadful disorder and live the life we deserve to live.