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Sounds like your SOOCD is latching on to this friendship for the moment so it’s totally possible your ocd will continue to do so if you keep talking. But that doesn’t mean you should stop talking! If you want to reconnect with this person and feel there’s a good chance it will be a healthy and beneficial relationship in your life, then reconnect. Don’t let ocd dictate your life. If it’s not attaching to this, it will just be attaching to something else anyways. Avoidance is a compulsion and it won’t make your SOOCD any better. In fact, it will only feed the ocd cycle and continue to make your world smaller and smaller. You may have to deal with feeling a little uncomfortable sometimes! But you can handle that.

if it makes you feel better, i had a really hard time when my best friends and I stopped talking. i actually developed ocd over the whole thing.

I did this too, I have started to talk to her again but not as much as I use to. My mind still comes up with the intrusive thought that what if I like her and it makes me anxious sometimes and it also makes my mood drop a lot. But I just let those thoughts and feelings be there and I don't think I can be her best friend again because I tend to get jelouse of her because she is now best friends with my ex guy best friend and to say that there wasn't something more than friendship between him and I would be a lie and it really hurts my feelings to see them together and guess what my OCD uses this against me too but let the thoughts be thoughts and try not to do any compulsions

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