POCD TW I was scrolling through Instagram and saw a picture of a little girl and suddenly I had the urge to kiss or touch her or something it scared me a lot and I started scrolling faster to get away from it BUT I felt a groinal response and it felt SO real like butterflies and twitching and itching and everything maybe even vaginal lubrication and I had the urge to masterbate and scrolled back to make sure I don’t desire this and I felt calmer when I didn’t feel anything looking at her again but I still feel anxious and kinda aroused during the day thinking back to the situation I don’t know what to do it feels so real the urges and everything ?

Orgasms can happen. For example when you have a wet dream from intrusive thoughts. I actually typed this before I read @jl455289's quote. Very good.

"But, what about those who feel more than just a twinge or a swelling during or after unwanted thoughts, images or impulses? What about those who feel arousal or even experience an unwanted orgasm related to these thoughts? Some would assume this arousal is evidence of some type of denial or unconscious desires. This could not be further than the truth" reread that section.

So label it as OCD and dont reassure yourself. The more unacceptable you find your thoughts, the more intrusive they will become. Ive been there. Testing yourself to see if it is genuine is just another form of reassurance. It led me to more uncertainty.

Don't know if this will help : https://www-intrusivethoughts-org.cdn.ampproject.org/v/s/www.intrusivethoughts.org/blog/whats-going-ocd-arousal//amp?amp_js_v=a2&amp_gsa=1&usqp=mq331AQCCAE%3D#referrer=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.google.com&amp_tf=From%20%251%24s&ampshare=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.intrusivethoughts.org%2Fblog%2Fwhats-going-ocd-arousal%2F

(Obviously you did) so think to yourself what that implies. If it was truly you, you wouldn't be feeling the guilt/doubt you are feeling.

I've had an orgasm because of a sexually intrusive dream. I went from dreaming about sleeping with girls and waking up satisfied and full of hope, to having sexually intrusive dreams and waking up sobbing in horror. Also, what's TMI?

Thank you guys. I don’t know how something that feels so wrong can feel so real. It’s really wearing me out. Knowing I’m not alone with this really helps me. My dreams are also horrific, but they only happen whenever I’m giving too much power to my OCD. During recovery (and I was almost free of symptoms) I didn’t have such dreams and sensations, but now I have a relapse and it’s worse than before. I guess it’s because this time I let my OCD convince me too much. I’m giving in to nearly every compulsion, thinking about every thought too much and feeling like giving up. The groinal responses are the worst part of it at the moment. But knowing it happened/still happens to someone else and that it’s a common symptom and NOT proof for my sexuality convinces me to keep fighting. I really am sorry that you have to go through the same stuff. This shit is scary as hell and sadly very convincing. I guess for feeling better you have to be convinced that no matter what you’re thinking or feeling, you’re still a good person and worth it. And that it’s not the real you. But it’s hard, it really is.

@figuringitallo men, fortunately, get multiple erections per night. Sometimes I've awaken to erections after having really weird dreams. What was troubling to me was that they'd turn "wet". Just now I was walking past this cute girl. She was looking at me and smiled when I looked back. I felt this pleasant tickle or butterflies if you will. Things like that happen and I know I'm into girls, but that's reassurance...

It does a little bit, but does it mean you can also get orgasms from intrusive thoughts?

The author warns to not use the article as reassurance so read the end, too.

I don’t get the last sentence

“this could not be further than the truth” does it mean people who feel real arousal are in denial?

I know reassurance isn’t a solution to all of this but right now I just need it :(

It means it has nothing to do with your desire.

Did you experience anxiety/guilt?

Really relate to this. I’ll feel some kind of GR, then I’ll test the thought again, and I feel nothing, I get into a nasty cycle of testing. And yes, GR’s can be more than just a twitch. Part of what’s exacerbated my OCD is when I’ve had sexually intrusive dreams and feeling aroused, and when I got an erection at a really inconvenient time. (Sorry if that’s TMI)

“Too much information” - sorry, should’ve clarified! Thanks for sharing that story. Im really in that place now, struggling. My dreams have gotten really bad, and I can’t decide whether or not it’s OCD or really me. Waking up with an erection to them is what’s really doing me in. It makes it feel real and wanted. @deputydean

@deputydean yuuuuuppp. That’s always the scariest. That same thing happens to me, when I feel actual attraction to an adult I’m like “why are you even obsessing?! You clearly aren’t what you fear.”