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Yes, @%##! Its the worst. Even when I'm writing in my DIARY, that no one is gonna read its circles circles. And I can never STATE anything. For instance let's say I'm feeling annoyed I would write "I think that I have the feeling of annoyance, but I don't know maybe its something else, but I think I am feeling annoyed. And if I'm annoyed it is about ..." goosh!
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My therapist always has to stop me from talking and takes me back to the original thought. Maybe it's because this is a part of just right OCD. Like we have this compulsion to make sure that it all needs to come out, we have to cover every possible angle, even if thoughts overlap we feel we must cover all ground so nothing, NOTHING, gets looked over or is missed. Like, everything is discussed, no stone unturned. Shit, I realized I'm doing it right now as I'm writing this.
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It sooo annoying, im doing it all the time! 😅 I pray treatment will help with this too!
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You explained this so well (of course, minus the repetitions 😅)!!! I’ve had therapists in the past who were quite rude about my “talking in circles!” Luckily my current therapist is kind about it. She said something like, “Is this hard for you to talk about?” I didn’t understand what she meant at first, lol
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@em.jem We must learn to stop ourselves from talking :)
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I do that! I say the same thing over and over and over again thinking that I explain it better and better
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even in writing your post you did it :)
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Thank you for reading everything I wrote! It makes me feel better that I’m not the only one with this issue haha 😂
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Yeah. It IS annoying. My daughter tells me all the time: mom, I got it, enough. And I stop immediately.
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Haha, aw! They shouldn't have to though, so gonna work on it. Another thing I do is start telling a story from 5 different angles so no one understand what I'm saying, because I can't figure out the right way to say it! And get this thought hald a second into it that its WRONG to share it 🤣
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@asdfghj Yep. I really do think this is part of just right OCD. At least that's how it feels.
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@AnonymousV No matter what its a part of Im gonna learn to stop it. Im longing to tell a story straight, one time through, and make people laugh 😄
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@asdfghj You're right. I think I have this need to put everything into a proper category. :)
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@AnonymousV Lol, exactly! I only caught you in it cause my therapist said "I think you're compulsively checking with me if this or that or a or b is a compulsion". Even many of the things we believe we do to get better is compulsive: "gee, I just got to understand this perfectly first!" 😅 its completely ridiculous!
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@asdfghj Thank you for catching me! I never ever truly realized it until now. I have this need to make everything just right and never thought of it as something pathological. I'm sure I'll be checking myself at it a lot now.
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I even make sure my texts are grammatically correct and all the punctuation is in place I will experiment with ignoring the punctuation to oh and spelling to instead of too will be torture
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I'm a grammar nazi I have a friend whose texts are so hard to decipher because she texts like she had a stream of consciousness and it's a mess I'll do that now good luck reading this shit :)
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Hahaha! Been working on the same thing. Sending work emails with typos is a great exposure. I used to think "how do these people live with themselves" whenever I got emails with flaws. And when a friend pointed out I had been misspelling a word my entire life I had a breakdown 😅 for instance Im reading excessively about OCD, which of course can be to educate myself to get better, but mostly it's hindering my recovery because I'm stuck on understanding perfectly instead of actual recovery.
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@asdfghj Yes!!!!!!!! It's s compulsion. For sure. So I stopped. For now. While I'm feeling ok. Let's what happened when I start freaking out again and will start looking for reassurance through videos and such.
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@AnonymousV Ouf! We can do hard things! 💪
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@asdfghj Indeed!
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Do you guys also have problems asking questions? Like I have some questions that I ask my eating disorder doctors that don’t have an answer (because science hasn’t found an answer yet). And I just NEED to find the answer so I ask the question multiple times in different ways. It’s like I think that an answer will magically appear if I ask the question in a different way. But I know there are no “perfect words” that will help me get an answer. I feel awful every time I do this to my doctors. Sometimes I don’t even realize I’m doing it.
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Oh, wow. Yes! I have always thought the question part was about reassurance. But it definitely is about perfectionism and accuracy and just right as well. I'm rephrasing and when the other person notice and says "you're still asking x" I'm like "but this is different!"
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