- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
It means you had something bad happen to you. That’s all. Any meaning beyond that is unknowable and it’s a waste of time to keep trying to “figure it out.” I’m so sorry for what’s happened to you. And there is absolutely nothing abnormal about the things you did after or how you’re feeling now. This is pretty typical of ocd to use these things against you. Are you seeing an ocd specialist? You’re at the perfect time in your life to start taking control of your mental health. And the sooner you get the right treatment the sooner you can get back to being you.
Thank you for that I am about to start seeing a specialist next week. I need this I just find it hard to accept those things for myself I just don’t understand why it had to happen right now when I’m trying to become a grown man and transition into my older self, it’s getting in the way of everything I want to accomplish.
Your words mean a lot thank you fo real!
I have been through the exact same thing. I mean exactly. I was molested and I also doubted by sexualality. It’s okay. This is not you, this is your OCD. You already know who you are. I would highly to not act into your OCD though. Don’t google, don’t ask anyone else what they think about you, talk to your girlfriend about this. And here is hard one, accept these thoughts. Basically, you need to do some ERP my friend. I can testify that it works 100 percent of the time. Let me know if you have more questions.
I honestly do have a question I know reassurance isn’t always good for this stuff but I just want to know this, my mind always doubting everything now I can’t even walk the same talk everything I do is questioned I still have sex with my girlfriend and stuff but it’s like right when I leave her all the thoughts rush back is she my crutch for me? Just why does she make feel better possibly and how come when I leave her I can’t be sane the thoughts rush back like I can’t be by myself
@Anonymous She is not your crutch. Again, this is your ocd. When you are with her, you are simply in the moment. So you forget about your thoughts and you are present with reality. But when she leaves, you get time to think again. So don’t let ocd meddle your relationship. In fact, social support is the best thing you can do. Be with people, call your friends and catch up. My ocd heals when I am social. No she is not your crutch. And yes, you need to stop reassuring. But it won’t happen overnight. Please don’t give in to your ocd thoughts, at least physically. If you are thinking, you are thinking. But don’t let it change you or your relationship.
Have you spoken to a therapist about this? Were you molested or did you guys play inappropriately and you’re afraid of that? Bc children playing inappropriately is extremely common and is often a theme of people’s real event ocd! (Im not taking away From your story If you truly were molested). And either way you were a child, you’re not the same person you are today as you were yesterday so you’re for sure not the same person you were when you were 11!
If you’re on the ocd discord you can personal message me If you’d like!
How can I personally message you ?
@Anonymous Go on the “venting” chat, I messaged there, click on my name and then click where it says message
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