Okay so this is not about OCD but I need to get it off my chest and this is the closest thing to therapy that I have cause it it very expensive and I can't afford it. I feel like my mom has a sexual problem. I feel unsafe around her. When I can growing up she always wanted to touch me and touch and see my boobs. When I hugged her she would always try to touch my back trying to figure out if I was wearing a bra or a tank top. And between 1 and 2 years ago I stopped letting her touch me. Not my hands, not a hug, nothing. And even though I've told her that I don't like touching she always tries to grab my but, or my thigh or my belly. When she does I feel like I wanna push her and I have a panick attack. I'm 19. She doesn't like when I have friends. It feels like she gets jealous and she always tries to keep me home, to not go out at all. I feel like I'm not making any sense but I needed to get that off my back

yeah it sounds like ur mom is trying to control ur sexuality or try to figure out what ur body looks like or is curious how puberty has changed u which is so so so weird for anyone let alone a mother to do. please stay away from her whenever u can. there are assault hotlines that can help u with this stuff. and therapists. u can try to stay over at a friend’s house if possible. i’m sorry i don’t know what else to say and i can’t rlly help but that is so invasive and i’m so sorry

It is ok to feel the way you're feeling. Regardless of who it is, even your mother, should respect your boundaries, period. If all else fails, '6 ft mom, you could have the 'rona" lolol all kidding aside, it sounds like there are other underlying issues with Mom, and talking to ur therapist about hidden factors could explain why her actions manifest into unwanted touching. Sounds like mom needs to speak with a therapist too. Best of luck friend, hang in there!

Thank you for telling your story. Boundaries are important "I don't like when you touch me inappropriately" "do not touch my butt, or my breasts" You also have the right to push someone's hands off you. Stay affirmative. Make it clear. I'm very sorry you're experiencing this. I'm not sure what her intent is. You could try to ask "what are your intentions when you're trying to touch me like that? I've made it clear I don't like that."

One day you'll be able to have your own place and feel secure and safe. Don't give up. Stay in school push for a career save up, get your license and continue to stride for independence.

While you don't have to identify this way, there are free support group/ group therapies for sexual assaults/ child abuse. Some of the feelings you're feeling are universal in those categories and so the groups can help you (virtual ones too) even if you don't personally classify it as sexual abuse.