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im not sure how to help with your anxiety getting worse, im really sorry that's happening. it's very frustrating when family members are invalidating. you should know that your intrusive thoughts don't reflect you as a person, okay? just because your brain forces these thoughts on you does not make you a bad person nor does it make it your fault. not sure how helpful this is but i just want you to know your feelings are valid even if you don't have the official diagnosis!!
thank you so so much. i appreciate this a lot
Yes we all have felt this way at one point in our journey! You are not alone by any means! You will get through this 😄👍🏼
this is comforting to hear thank you!
Go and get diagnosed. It will be a relief and then you can work on purely focusing on yourself.
First off, lets have a look at this. Look at how hard you are trying to prove “that you are not gross.” Im not grossed out by my organic thoughts. I enjoy them. My ocd will make me think of things that offend and disgust me, or continue thinking of off color things until i react. Thats how it sucks you in. So likely thats whats going on, and you dont feel the way your are trying to make yourself believe you do. Still, see somebody and talk. Get diagnosed.
i just feel like this has ruined my life. even when i’m doing good in the back of my mind i’m worried if i see a child. it’s so hard because it’s always been my dream to have children in the future, all my life i wanted to be a mum, and now i don’t even know if i want to because of this and i feel like i can’t because i’m so disgusting. i can’t even go to therapy or talk to anyone about this because my biggest fear is them telling me it’s not ocd and that means i’m just an evil person. this means i haven’t been diagnosed which makes me feel worse because although i’ve done a lot of research obviously i can’t diagnose myself. i’m just so scared of what i’ll be told. i feel like i’m constantly living in fear of what i might do or what someone would think if they knew about the intrusive thoughts etc. even writing this i’m terrified people are going to think i’m a p because i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd.
i keep getting thoughts of molesting/ doing sexual things to people (that i’m close to) and children, every-time this happens I extremely disturbed and have panic attacks bc i’m a horrible person. i’m honestly just contemplating just k*lling myself because i feel like a disgusting p3do who doesn’t deserve anything in life. i’m already diagnosed with anxiety and depression but i’m not sure if this is OCD or not. i hate my self so much- this thoughts won’t stop happening and i never want to do anything like that ever. :/. i’m not sure what to do, i’ve talked to my therapist but none of her methods worked on how to stop these thoughts.
is reading through posts to find someone to relate to in regards of a symptom a compulsion? i do that all of the time because i feel like an outcast even though i’m not diagnosed. i literally feel like i won’t get diagnosed, but instead i’m just using ocd as a way to deny who i really am. another thought i’ve been having is what if i have anxiety because i can’t act on it instead of because i’m scared i will act on it? i typically relate my feelings to all of this too and it feels like i want to everytime i think about it. however i’ve never done anything remotely harmful. i actually am staying with my sister for the week hoping it will help the thoughts and alleviate them since i’m more isolated. and no matter how much proof there is or how much i remind myself of who i was before this that i’m not this person, the urges and feeling like i genuinely want to i get when the thoughts come just overrides everything.
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