what do i do my anxiety and thoughts have gotten 10x worse and idk what to do. i haven't even gotten diagnosed yet so i cant say i have ocd. i try to talk about it with my sister and she'll say "stop self diagnosing yourself you don't even know if you have it" when she doesn't even know half the things that go on in my head and all the things i do daily to prove to myself i'm not gross. but i still feel like i am disgusting and a horrible person.

im not sure how to help with your anxiety getting worse, im really sorry that's happening. it's very frustrating when family members are invalidating. you should know that your intrusive thoughts don't reflect you as a person, okay? just because your brain forces these thoughts on you does not make you a bad person nor does it make it your fault. not sure how helpful this is but i just want you to know your feelings are valid even if you don't have the official diagnosis!!

Yes we all have felt this way at one point in our journey! You are not alone by any means! You will get through this 😄👍🏼

Go and get diagnosed. It will be a relief and then you can work on purely focusing on yourself.

First off, lets have a look at this. Look at how hard you are trying to prove “that you are not gross.” Im not grossed out by my organic thoughts. I enjoy them. My ocd will make me think of things that offend and disgust me, or continue thinking of off color things until i react. Thats how it sucks you in. So likely thats whats going on, and you dont feel the way your are trying to make yourself believe you do. Still, see somebody and talk. Get diagnosed.