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Sounds like OCD, similar to my own. I do have compulsions but may be possible that you have pure o where you just get the obsessions? Without meaning to scare you mine did start as just obsessions then compulsions started when it got too much to handle. It’s a lot easier said than done as I struggle to do so, but try to open up to the psychiatrist and get a diagnosis and treatment as soon as you feel ready to. They’re there to support you not judge and my cbt therapist said that she’s heard a lot worse than my intrusive thoughts and compulsions which is so reassuring because to me they are the worst possible thing imaginable. I hope you can get the help and support you need soon (but if you’re not ready yet that’s fine also). Here if you ever want to talk x
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I have harm thoughts of my daughter
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And The debilitating fear that i could intentionally harm her. I am afraif of knives..
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Did u talked to a psychiatrist?
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I have talked to a psychiatrist and they said it sounds like OCD but then I didn't get the diagnosis when I didn't have the compulsions that they asked about. I only mentioned harm thoughts to my psychiatrist. Afraid to mention pocd thoughts
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What kind of harm thoughts do u have
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Thanks mia123, I may have to get another opinion. I like my therapist but she's not an OCD specialist I don't believe. Bebesrecovery thank you for sharing. I sort of think it's pure o but trying not to self diagnose and when they don't give me the diagnosis I doubt myself haha. Edith I have fears I've been negligent in the past and could have harmed someone or am accidentally a murderer. I also fear making mistakes that could harm someone or intentionally harming someone. I will worry about hurting someone physically or mentally. Like I convinced myself maybe I was manipulative as a kid and messed up my brother, maybe I was negligent in my work and hurt someone, maybe I will grab that person inappropriately. A range of thoughts. They're all over the place but surrounding harm themes
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I'm sorry that must be really tough Edith
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I'm 14m n I hope I have pocd and I've never got a official diagnosis, a lot of times I get what I hope is false attraction when I see certain kinds of kids, not all kids cause it, only some of them do, I'm worried that's a sign of actual acttraction, today I saw a reel on insta n it had some 8 year old kid in it, I felt what I hope is false attraction but it felt too real, I initially scrolled past it but I scrolled back idk why and watched the full reel with the kid in it, I really hope it was false attraction and not real, I don't understand why I scrolled back onto the reel, I don't think I should have done that, I'm worried it's actual attraction, just this past week I've met a girl my age whom I knew I was into, I don't get why this stuff is happening to me, but I don't want to be a pedo n I wanna be able to have a relationship with that girl I met. Also today I went to see a therapist for the first time and I described this situation and what I hope is false attraction, my therapist told me that feelings are just feelings unless you act on them, now I'm worried she was saying that I am attracted to kids but I'm just not acting on it, like I said, I really hope I'm not a pedo and that I hope I'm able to have a relationship with a girl my age but now I'm doubting myself so much, I'm starting to believe that I am just a pedo in denial, I don't understand what's happening with me anymore, I can't stand it all anymore. I've also never gotten a official diagnosis.
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TW So I haven’t been diagnosed with pocd, but many ppl said that I have it. I was in bed when I remembered this time when I first started experiencing what I hope is false attraction not actual pedophilia, I’m looking back on it rn n I’m worried it wasn’t false attraction, I remember feeling a sense of attraction when I saw that kid, I was about14 at the time and the kid was 11 or 12. I remember constantly searching to see if it was normal for a 14 year old to like a 12 or 11 year old, I was worried when I was doing that i think, I also kept walking pass her to look at her i think to check if i was attracted or not, but it makes me worried that I was attracted to her because im worried that i did it bc i was actually attracted. now looking back on it rn, I don’t feel panic, worry, shame, or guilt, I originally only felt panic and worry, never shame or guilt. Now I don’t feel any of it, not feeling panic and worry now makes me think that I am a p, I don’t want to be a p. I hope im not a p, Ive talked to a therapist and they’ve said that it’s pocd, but it wasn’t a official diagnosis, I’m worried it was a false diagnosis because I lied on one or two of the questions. I also constantly get senses of what I hope is false attraction when I see some kids, I keep trying to figure out if it is real or false attraction. Can someone give me some advice please
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I’m on track to getting my diagnosis and i’m already questioning it. Pocd feels so real, and even though i once saw someone say “it has to feel real or you wouldn’t worry” which is like god level reassurance honestly, it hurts. I can’t look at children, they deserve better. My usual attraction seems to be gone and i can not think about anything else. At the same time i don’t really feel anxiety. I’m scared i don’t feel bad enough, if i just smiled maybe i honestly wouldn’t feel bad? I don’t have many other ocd symptoms either, except for some stuff when i was a kid and like questioning everything about myself. I’m clinging to the hope that this is Pocd instead of me being a Monster and at the same time i’m so sad that i have to go trough this. I don’t like myself but i’m sorry for my younger self. I just want to be held and be told that everything will be okay but how can i know? Even then i feel like comfort of that kind only really applies to others who are struggling and aren’t horrible like me. In so many ways i sm convinced i am a monster even though it might be a bit irrational. Maybe i’m a monster after all and then i should really get away from everyone i love. They deserve better :( After a lifetime of struggles (nothing super serious) i’m just getting started with therapy and i’m so.. scared. What if it won’t help? What if it turns out i’m the bad person i fear to be. Is there any way i can prepare or some tips or literally anything else? I would appreciate any wise words
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