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Sounds like OCD, similar to my own. I do have compulsions but may be possible that you have pure o where you just get the obsessions? Without meaning to scare you mine did start as just obsessions then compulsions started when it got too much to handle. It’s a lot easier said than done as I struggle to do so, but try to open up to the psychiatrist and get a diagnosis and treatment as soon as you feel ready to. They’re there to support you not judge and my cbt therapist said that she’s heard a lot worse than my intrusive thoughts and compulsions which is so reassuring because to me they are the worst possible thing imaginable. I hope you can get the help and support you need soon (but if you’re not ready yet that’s fine also). Here if you ever want to talk x
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I have harm thoughts of my daughter
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And The debilitating fear that i could intentionally harm her. I am afraif of knives..
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Did u talked to a psychiatrist?
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I have talked to a psychiatrist and they said it sounds like OCD but then I didn't get the diagnosis when I didn't have the compulsions that they asked about. I only mentioned harm thoughts to my psychiatrist. Afraid to mention pocd thoughts
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What kind of harm thoughts do u have
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Thanks mia123, I may have to get another opinion. I like my therapist but she's not an OCD specialist I don't believe. Bebesrecovery thank you for sharing. I sort of think it's pure o but trying not to self diagnose and when they don't give me the diagnosis I doubt myself haha. Edith I have fears I've been negligent in the past and could have harmed someone or am accidentally a murderer. I also fear making mistakes that could harm someone or intentionally harming someone. I will worry about hurting someone physically or mentally. Like I convinced myself maybe I was manipulative as a kid and messed up my brother, maybe I was negligent in my work and hurt someone, maybe I will grab that person inappropriately. A range of thoughts. They're all over the place but surrounding harm themes
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I'm sorry that must be really tough Edith
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I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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Please read this. I’ve had ocd pretty much a lot of my life but never knew what it was until my senior year of highschool. I’m 21 with 2 kids and i believe i’ve had pocd a little bit before my daughter was born (which was 8 months ago). It made me start looking at all kids differently and i hate it. But it really started triggering me about 3 months ago. I’ve been thinking if i’d intentionally touched or harmed my kids the wrong way, or any kids for that matter. This started giving me false memories (or at least hope they are). I’ve been having panic attacks, yelling at myself, punching walls, praying, and even thoughts of ending my own life. I grew up in a severe toxic household throughout my childhood and teenage life. I’ve never wished that on my kids since i became a dad. I wanna give them the life i never got. I look back my photos of my children and i feel like i’m a complete fraud of a dad. I cannot look at my kids or be around them a lot of times. I can’t hold my daughter right. I can’t change their diaper when they need it. Even my son came and was hugging on me the other night while i was watching tv and i acted like a stranger to him. I can very little do this stuff sometimes because it’s either i get relief or i push my thoughts as far back as i can. I get scared if i did something to not just my kids, but any other kids in the past. I have such a a great life and such a beautiful family. It was hard and stressful at first being young with a family but i couldn’t be more thankful at all for them. I’m just so lost and stressed right now that i just don’t know what to do anymore
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