I'm trying to get better at sitting with the uncomfortable anxiety sensations. Mornings are when the thoughts are so loud. I did fall into some compulsions but I am trying to delay them and not do them for so long. I know recovery is a process. The thoughts do get better when I don't do the compulsion but I hate the panicky feeling and the urge to listen to OCD's demands. It is so scary when it feels like you urgently need to do what it is telling you.