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The first intrusive thought I clearly remember happened when I was 8. I had gone with my family to an amusement part and my dad and I were on the Ferris wheel. We ended up stuck and the top. I completely freaked out. I remember thinking that I was going to fall out and that the ferris wheel was going to break and my dad and I were going to fall to our deaths. I remember saying "I don't like this. Why aren't we moving? I don't like this" my dad tried telling me to just calm down and explained that we needed to wait so other people could get on. It felt like an eternity before it started moving again. I couldn't wait to get off that thing. Haven't been on a ferris wheel since. I'm now 45. I have been afraid of heights for as long as I can remember. I also have an irrational fear of bridges especially if I walk over them.
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I was 11 too when I discovered masturbation and feeled extreme guilt and felt like I had done a massive sin after ejaculation. Then I stopped for a long time until I realized that thwre was nothing wrong about it
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When I was 6, I thought that if I thought about vomit I would puke, but then I couldn't stop thinking about vomit and got scared and started crying. Dad asked me what was wrong, and I told him that there were "bad things in my head". He was very confused.
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Do you have that vomit fear still?
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@positivityyyyy No. It evolved to other things. Now my main obsession is uncontrolled weight gain.
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@positivityyyyy I do
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When I first I had ocd my parents didn’t no wat to do I was takeing showers for 2 hours cause I’d get stuck doing rituals not noing the amount of time that had passed I had other problems to things to do long to do that’d I’d just stop I’d stop washing my hair cause it was to hard my sister kept telling me I was doing it on purpose to keep ppl from getting in the bathroom and another time my dad would do this little hand thing I did cause of mt ocd in a mean way telling the hospital to take me I’m not normal there’s something rong wit me and I didn’t no this then but my older sister had ocd when she was younger cause she was molested and she use to wash her hands till they bled I never had anything like that done to me my ocd just came when I went threw puberty but my dad doing that to me was horrifying and noing mt older sister had it wat did he do to her and she had something happen to her to cause it mental illness runs in my family my mom was anorexic when she was younger and relatives have other mental illness and drug addiction I get stuck wit ocd that ruins my life.
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I needed help and couldn’t get it cause nowere helps wit ocd noone took the time to understand me ppl were just tlk bout me cause it’s such a wierd illness most ppl are just unsympathetic and don’t want to try to relate and understand you I wish I had better help and support round me.
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Since when do you believe you have OCD? Anyone who would like to share what were the indications/symptoms in childhood?
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One of my first memories of OCD was from when I was about 8-12 years old. I’ve always struggled with sleeping and prone to twisting and turning due to my brain going like 🧠 🗣️🗣️🗣️ Anyways once I couldn’t sleep and got out of bed one of my parents said, with compassion, ”oh it’s so late, why are you awake it’s school tomorrow” and when they followed me to my room I saw that the time was 22:22 and I felt a really scary feeling in my chest (today I know it was anxiety) and from that day on the time 22:22 🕰️ followed me for years. I was twisting and turning and feeling anxious about my digital clock (I’m a 90s girly) turning 22:22. I could get issues taking deep breaths, being sweaty, uncomfortable and scared and feeling like ”ITS SOON 22:22 AND WHEN THE TIME PASSES IT WILL BE TOO LATE”. I never really understood exactly what was going to be ”too late” but I’m guessing it was getting too little sleep absolutely blown out of proportion. As soon it passed 22:22 it was all good and I could fall asleep 😴 I don’t struggle with those numbers today instead I smile and feel compassionate towards little me. Still OCD sucks, I still struggle with sleep times to times and do have some magical thinking but the big difference is that I logically know that it’s not real even if it emotionally sometimes feel that way. Take care out there. If this made you feel less lonely, wanna share your first memories of OCD? ❤️
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So I have been trying to work out over the past 5 years where my OCD come from and have began to realise that ruminating on where it comes from is actually a compulsion in itself. I believe mine come from having a low self esteem and a lot of stress in my life at that time. I then attended talking therapy to try and understand my feelings and intrusive thoughts and all this did was fuel the OCD further because trying to assign meaning to the thoughts is actually the opposite of what we should do. Does anyone else feel like they know what triggered there OCD?
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