I just feel like I don’t care anymore. I’m so exhausted of swinging between constant thoughts and numbness. I just don’t feel like I can sustain the feeling of love. My boyfriend will find someone else. I know he thinks he loves me but I know he could also love again. He’d be fine if I just disappeared. I just hate myself and don’t want anyone to love me. There’s always going to be other people in the world a person will have a connection with so he could move past me just fine. No one connection means anything.

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Cjs2496

Date posted: 5y ago

When you feel like you cant take another step walk another mile. There have been times where I felt like this and I was so consumed with worry and angst that I could barely eat or sleep, but trust me push through. He doesnt want to find someone else, and if he is worth it then he will stick around to help you through the darkest of times. OCD does not have the power to take anything away from you that matters to you, especially not true love.

ocdrn

Date posted: 5y ago

I have felt this before too. But think of it this way... your bf chose you. He could have 100 thousand other people but instead, he chose you to be his 1 girl. That being said, if he loves you, he will be supportive and comfort you when you feel this way. Tell him a little bit about how you feel. If he decides to leave, then it wasn’t meant to be. But he will probably stay and be there to help. Pushing people away doesn’t help you. It makes it worse. Giving into these feelings is letting your OCD and intrusive thoughts win. All of those thoughts aren’t real. Your brain is trying to trick you.

Cjs2496

Date posted: 5y ago

good point^^^ and if you love someone you dont want anyone else.

Cjs2496

Date posted: 5y ago

i recommend therapy too

junelle

Date posted: 5y ago

thank you for your responses, this has helped. it’s been a rough few weeks with rocd but knowing I’m not alone helps

Jesuslover28

Date posted: 14w ago

Idk what to do

I don't even know if I should put this here, but I have the greatest girlfriend in the whole world, and I love her very much, but my thoughts keep saying I'm going to hurt her, so I can hurt God and idk what to do, I feel so disgusted and idk what to do, and the worst part is why does some part of me just not even care idk what to do anymore, it's almost like I'm turning into this horrible person and idk what to do, I'm really not sure what to do. I have really been able to be happy I just feel like I don't deserve it and I want to care about people and God and I want to be a good person, but a part of me shuts off my caring nature and idk what to do, I'm really freaking out because it's like IDC and idk what to do I just feel so nasty and scared because why don't I feel like I care. Why does it feel like it's something I wanna do idk, what to do I'm really freaking worried. Also I don't want OCD but a part of me says I need it or I like these thoughts and idk what to do, as im writing this i just feel like laughing and idk what to do, i really judt want jesus to hug me and say everything will be alright, i am such a monster....

Mariabae

Date posted: 12w ago

what if im in denial

maybe i dont want to accept the factvthat i lost feelings, maybe i never actually loved my boyfriend and i hust wanted a relationship , i dont want reasurance, but in very scared i dont love him, because it feels real. im scared

Relationship OCD

Mariabae

Date posted: 9w ago

i feel bad

i feel so bad for posting here, idk what i wamt i have so many thoughts abt the feelings i have for my bf im scared my thughts are true or that they will be true and i feel bad for feeling amd thinking this way i such a bad girlfriend, i am scared that i like other people just because i look at them or talk to them normally and i feel like a liar what cam i do to stop feeling like this i am scared

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