I just feel like I don’t care anymore. I’m so exhausted of swinging between constant thoughts and numbness. I just don’t feel like I can sustain the feeling of love. My boyfriend will find someone else. I know he thinks he loves me but I know he could also love again. He’d be fine if I just disappeared. I just hate myself and don’t want anyone to love me. There’s always going to be other people in the world a person will have a connection with so he could move past me just fine. No one connection means anything.

Relationship OCD

Cjs2496

Date posted: 6y

When you feel like you cant take another step walk another mile. There have been times where I felt like this and I was so consumed with worry and angst that I could barely eat or sleep, but trust me push through. He doesnt want to find someone else, and if he is worth it then he will stick around to help you through the darkest of times. OCD does not have the power to take anything away from you that matters to you, especially not true love.

ocdrn

Date posted: 6y

I have felt this before too. But think of it this way... your bf chose you. He could have 100 thousand other people but instead, he chose you to be his 1 girl. That being said, if he loves you, he will be supportive and comfort you when you feel this way. Tell him a little bit about how you feel. If he decides to leave, then it wasn’t meant to be. But he will probably stay and be there to help. Pushing people away doesn’t help you. It makes it worse. Giving into these feelings is letting your OCD and intrusive thoughts win. All of those thoughts aren’t real. Your brain is trying to trick you.

Cjs2496

Date posted: 6y

good point^^^ and if you love someone you dont want anyone else.

Cjs2496

Date posted: 6y

i recommend therapy too

junelle

Date posted: 6y

thank you for your responses, this has helped. it’s been a rough few weeks with rocd but knowing I’m not alone helps

Mariabae

Date posted: 22w

i feel bad

i feel so bad for posting here, idk what i wamt i have so many thoughts abt the feelings i have for my bf im scared my thughts are true or that they will be true and i feel bad for feeling amd thinking this way i such a bad girlfriend, i am scared that i like other people just because i look at them or talk to them normally and i feel like a liar what cam i do to stop feeling like this i am scared

anxiousashhh

Date posted: 22w

idk

I feel like I’ll never lead a normal life again with OCD, my thoughts have begun to be convince especially about POCD. I feel like so sad and down that this will be my life forever. I’ll never get to fall in love again without intrusive thoughts. I’ll never be worth falling in love with. I can never be intimate again. I’m just done, my life is over. I can’t even look at my nephew and niece anymore without the smile fading. It feels like I’m so nasty and then my brain convinces me this is how I feel. That there’s some part of me that is a p*do and that’s it. I’m a disgusting human being for that. I just feel hopeless

ljlutes

Date posted: 16w

Insight into my feelings

Can anyone validate my feelings/felt the same way. I overthink a lot about my relationship, but I especially worry my boyfriend will randomly change behaviors and become toxic. He’s never had toxic behaviors but I worry at some point in our relationship he could possibly change, and it consumes me sometimes.

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