OCD33
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- 2y ago
Past
Does anyone have their past “proofs” and make it feel like denial because of the past
cc97cc97
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- 2y ago
Yes
Jeffrey Jeffrey
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- 2y ago
I would say that everyone who lives with OCD would point to past proofs to prove their point, i.e., that they are a bad person, they are a pedophile, that they are evil. But we cannot change the past, we live only in the present, and everyone on the planet has proof of having done something bad, because as humans we have all done things that we regret. OCD takes that regret and blows it out of proportion. When OCD provides you with "proof" your response may be, maybe I am (fill in the blank) and maybe I am not (fill in the blank), but I am not going to compulse to find out - because compulsing feeds the OCD, like gas feeds a fire. We have to learn to live with the uncertainty of our past, and live in the present, accepting that maybe we are or were a bad person, but that is not today. ERP helps us to learn that we can do that without compulsing. Practicing self-compassion and allowing yourself to be human and not arguing with OCD will help lessen the anxiety.
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
Yes
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
I feel like I’m the only one who had these intrusive thoughts when I was young
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
No not the only one.. it’s something that bothering me a lot
ocdanonymous!ocdanonymous!
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yep
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
Thank you for making me feel not alone
ocdanonymous!ocdanonymous!
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- 2y ago
u are not the only one! i had a lot of them very young
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
@ocdanonymous! I’m so sorry you are suffering. How have you been doing ??
ocdanonymous!ocdanonymous!
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- 2y ago
@OCD33 honestly rlly rlly struggling rn. how r u ??
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
@ocdanonymous! Same as you I was listening to a series and I’m really freaking out right now but I just can’t figure out why… I don’t know anymore fuck….
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
@ocdanonymous! Are you in therapy? I know it’s so hard. Sending you strength
NOCD Advocate Jess, CPSSNOCD Advocat...
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I am not sure what you mean by "make it feel like denial because of the past" Are you saying that you go over past proofs but when you do you still feel doubt about the "proof" ? I just want to make sure I understand. But we do know with OCD if we go over the past, when we try to figure it out, when we try to get reassurance or any other compulsion that the doubt just grows. I would encourage you to ask yourself what is some ERP that you could do around this to help?
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
It just feels like things I did in the past prove that this theme is real .
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
@OCD33 I found that we have similar experiences, like our ocd is similar.. If you want to talk I’m here. Sometimes I’m good but sometimes I’m not, so no pressure but if at one moment you want to talk I’m here
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
@S.verv20 Thank you. I was doing good for a while. Now I’m back to not feel good and this feeling like denial.
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
@OCD33 I can understand.. me it’s not that bad but I question because of sex and orgams etc.. if you want to talk I’m back on this app
S.verv20S.verv20
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- 2y ago
@polishgirl I really stress right now it’s like it’s the only thing that’s stressing me right now
Mike_dMike_d
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- 2y ago
Ah the past evidence, well that’s the tricky part of OCD isn’t it? You’ll sit there and be like “but i thought so and so was cute.. and i did this at this age and this at this age” but in reality it’s you mentally reviewing (compulsion) and it’s a tough one to eliminate because i do it to. So i completely understand the feeling there. As hard as it is.. maybe maybe not, maybe plan some exposure as well. Let me know your thoughts
OCD33OCD33
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- 2y ago
Thank you for responding. It’s so hard to not be like “well you had these thoughts as a kid and you did this as a kid so it must mean denial”.
Mike_dMike_d
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- 2y ago
@OCD33 I understand how you feel, Here is an example of how to respond. Let’s take you and you’re let’s say 9/10/11 years old and you genuinely thought another girl was cute. This might replay in your brain “remember that time…” What’s important is to nip it right there “maybe ocd you’re right” “Wow! You are right!” We tend (i as well) take things to another level and that’s ok, but try and use these techniques, ambiguity, self compassion.
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moon027097
- Date posted
- 4w ago
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