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I'm here to listen to someone to vent or just need someone to talk. I'm overcoming perfectionism, anxiety and intrusive thoughts. I was diagnosed with ptsd ( us army combat vet = Combat tour Iraq =
I'm here to listen to someone to vent or just need someone to talk. I'm overcoming perfectionism, anxiety and intrusive thoughts. I was diagnosed with ptsd ( us army combat vet = Combat tour Iraq =
I'd love to talk, do you mind if I ask what works for you to help you overcome your OCD? I've been experiencing terrible existential OCD lately (am I real, can I trust myself, who am I, what is the purpose of life, etc.). I used to be very religious, but I lost my faith back in 2016 and have been pretty closed off to spirituality since. I've decided that I want to pursue my spirituality again, but I'm working through a lot of fear and trauma from my past that I believe is causing some of the existential thoughts. Is there anything that helps ground you to your reality? spiritual or not
First thank you for responding to my post. I will say what has help me with my ocd is having a support group that you can be open and trust. And the word trust is a word I don't used lightly. In the past I had trust issues because of some people that I though will help me but cause pain and more in my life. Anyways why did you step away from faith.
Sorry for the late response! I stepped away because in the religion I was a part of, I watched members treat other members poorly because of their ideology. The structure also didn't work for me.
Thank you for serving, Im sorry you had to go through that. I have relationship ocd too. My partner was drunk and kissed a girl and told me later that same week. We didn’t talk for a while, but he cried saying he’d be better and would never do anything like that again. That was almost 2 years ago and he made the changes I asked for. But my mind just keeps taking me back to the same place, revisiting those memories even though Ive forgiven him. I just hate being constantly reminded of it when we’re in such a healthy place now. Feel free to share abt your ROCD if you think it would help you ❤️ here to listen
Thank you very much I want to help and encourage others. You can say to your mind I won't accept thoughts you take control of your mind. Words are powerful. I get those negative thoughts and my past therapist will always say to me how far have you come. I'm here for you. I'm more open with my ocd and ptsd than before
@smilesforall Your kindness is so appreciated. Im working on trying to listen to the part of myself that isnt these thoughts. Seeing how far others have come gives me hope
@Multitudes It's been a journey and it's a process. From where I was to where I am now. If there is hope for me there is hope for you my friend. Just drop message and want to hear how you are doing and how is your recovery doing
Firstly, thank you for your service! I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling with OCD and PTSD. I can’t imagine how hard that must be. I also struggle with perfectionism because I’m afraid of disappointing others; especially academically. It’s not a big issue like it used to be but some days are harder than others. My main theme I’m dealing with right now is SO-OCD and it’s so frustrating. I’m at a point now where I can feel my old self coming back but OCD is always trying to drag me back into obsessing again. I’m working through it, but it gets hard at times. Anyways, I hope things are getting better for you and you’re doing well!
Thank you and yes perfectionist is a battle because I'm like you I don't want to disappoint myself or others and I hold myself to a higher standard and if I don't do it right to that level. How are you working thru it
@smilesforall I’m the same way too! Honestly I try not to put all my energy and effort into everything I do because it burns me out. I also did some self-reflection and realized I’ve disappointed people in the past and I’ve failed here and there but it wasn’t the end of the world and my future didn’t get destroyed like I thought it would. It actually benefited me and helped me get to where I am today. So I try not to be so self-critical but it’s really hard to break those habits and tendencies especially if you’ve been doing it for years.
@blazed Yes it is hard but I been less in being so selfish critical of myself. I've come a long a way. I'm here for you if you ever want to talk or vent. All ears are open
@blazed Yes it is and to top it off I'm prior military I hold myself to a higher level but I'm doing good thank to God and celebrate recovery group
hello everyone. my ocd targets a lot of things, including trauma. i just have ocd specialized therapist not talk therapist so i don’t really get to unpack much. I went through a lot of trauma and also seggsual trauma. if anyone is okay to hear what i have to say and give me advice that would be nice :( thank you
Hi, I’m new to the app as of today. I’m 20 years old, and wanted to get some stuff off my chest about the types of OCD I’ve been experiencing over the years. I’m not entirely sure how or when my OCD was brought up, but I’ve been a perfectionist for as long as I can remember. Anywhere and everywhere I go, if I see things placed in an order/angle that my brain doesn’t approve of, next thing I know I’m “fixing” it to be in the placement I feel looks better. I’m not aware of why I feel the need to do that, but until an object is in the “right” placement, I won’t take my eyes off of it. My eye will even twitch. Another form of OCD I have is in relationships. I spend each day overthinking and over-analyzing every one of the relationships that are important to me. Friends, family, significant other. Another one is what’s considered “Pure OCD” . When I get an intrusive thought of something devilish, whether it’s randomly seeing my great aunt naked bc my grandma considers her “fat” even though she’s not, or it’s seeing something demonic and traumatizing, I immediately tell myself, “I don’t wanna see/think about that” over and over and over until the thought is gone. Or I’ll try to replace one mental image with another. One other form of OCD I face every day, is religion. I got baptized for the first time in my life earlier this year in January. I had finally started to repent for my sins, and now I’m constantly feeling afraid that I’m letting God down due to my depression/lack of motivation and vaping/smoking. I also fear excessively that He’ll banish me from His kingdom, or just turn a cold shoulder. I know that what I’ve just typed up is probably all over the place. That is my brain unfortunately. How do you go from being a mentally disorderly and seemingly erratic young woman, to a more well-established, successful woman? I’m all ears!
Is there a therapist or a specialist on here that I can briefly chat with? Or maybe an OCD conqueror who’s very familiar with the disorder? I need an experienced person to talk to me so bad. I just really wanna talk to somebody about what I’m going through so that I feel less alone, and so I can maybe get help managing my symptoms. Thank you in advance ♥️
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