Any moms with pocd?

Before. I was about 15 or so when it started. You? It's just so hard because I just don't see how I could go from not being in the mood after he tried so long, and then getting that intrusive thought, then I felt something down there. I'm also worried what if i wasn't attracted that night because sometimes my brain hyperfocuses on his physical imperfections. And I remember a few times even not wanting to hug him or push him away because of those imperfections. And I feel horrible. And I remember telling him I didn't want to kiss that night. So it makes me feel weird to wonder if I wasn't attracted because I can't remember. Then to not feel anything until I got the thought. Ugh I hate this

Sorry for the misspellings. I do know how to spell haha but my phone is messing up with repeating words or messing up letters

I haven’t been intimate with my husband in like 4 months because I’m afraid I’m going to think of my kids. I also worry that “I hope they will walk in” which because of ocd I always wait til they are asleep. I feel like a perv if they are awake. But I totally get what you are saying it’s the literal worst and I’ve had the same where I’m feeling nothing then icky thought and it’s like I’m now in the mood. And that’s where im like nope im done. Sometimes I get scared that he might be thinking of the kids though and that’s the absolute worst of my experiences.

Sometimes I can shake the thoughts and go on other times though I’m just like I’m sorry but I can’t right now. It is heartbreaking to think of your partner that way especially knowing they are a good person. Our kids love their dad so much. Ugh it’s so hard having this type of ocd and having kids. Did yours develop before or after kids?

That’s crazy! I do the same thing sometimes with my husband I love him lots but I focus on imperfection too and then I feel like a horrible wife. A lot of the time though if we are doing really good I feel more attracted to him and forget the imperfections. So the first time I ever had a weird thought I was probably around 14. I watching my cousin and I had this thought of what if her parents thought I did something bad to her and I panicked… after that though I really didn’t have anything else until I had my firstborn at 18. After he was born that’s when I went full blown pedophilic thoughts all day long other harm thoughts as well. I ended up going to a mental health facility when he was like 2 months old and that’s when I found out I had ocd.

I’m a mom. I have this thought/false memory that I did something while changing her diaper….like if I took a picture and sent it. Or put it on Snapchat. It’s weird. I never had this thoughts before. It’s really disturbing. :( it makes you feel like a bad mom. I’ve hard thoughts to turn myself in or call cps on myself….