Any moms with pocd?

Please only read if you're an adult. About a year or so ago my husband tried to get me in the mood before being intimate and I couldn't get in the mood. After a while I ended up getting a quick pocd thought and then I felt something down there. And I remember thinking omg what does that mean. So I let him continue and I tried to see if the feeling would stop, but then as I was focusing I got more in the mood and reminded myself I was with my husband. But how did I go from not being in the mood at all to then feeling something down there with the pocd thought? Then I even obsess over if I wasn't attracted to him that night too because I remember saying I didn't want to kiss at all. I hate this so much.

Username: Maeh24Maeh24

Date posted: 2y ago

Before. I was about 15 or so when it started. You? It's just so hard because I just don't see how I could go from not being in the mood after he tried so long, and then getting that intrusive thought, then I felt something down there. I'm also worried what if i wasn't attracted that night because sometimes my brain hyperfocuses on his physical imperfections. And I remember a few times even not wanting to hug him or push him away because of those imperfections. And I feel horrible. And I remember telling him I didn't want to kiss that night. So it makes me feel weird to wonder if I wasn't attracted because I can't remember. Then to not feel anything until I got the thought. Ugh I hate this

Username: Maeh24Maeh24

Date posted: 2y ago

Sorry for the misspellings. I do know how to spell haha but my phone is messing up with repeating words or messing up letters

Username: Meepmeep Meepmeep

Date posted: 2y ago

I haven’t been intimate with my husband in like 4 months because I’m afraid I’m going to think of my kids. I also worry that “I hope they will walk in” which because of ocd I always wait til they are asleep. I feel like a perv if they are awake. But I totally get what you are saying it’s the literal worst and I’ve had the same where I’m feeling nothing then icky thought and it’s like I’m now in the mood. And that’s where im like nope im done. Sometimes I get scared that he might be thinking of the kids though and that’s the absolute worst of my experiences.

Username: Maeh24Maeh24

Date posted: 2y ago

Omg how are we so similar? Did you keep going though after that? I felt nothing, then tried to just focus how I'm with my husband, and then ended up finishing. Yes, I experienced that too where I worry about him on the side of like pocd fears but I remind myself that's totally not him. And it's heartbreaking when it happens

Username: Meepmeep Meepmeep

Date posted: 2y ago

Sometimes I can shake the thoughts and go on other times though I’m just like I’m sorry but I can’t right now. It is heartbreaking to think of your partner that way especially knowing they are a good person. Our kids love their dad so much. Ugh it’s so hard having this type of ocd and having kids. Did yours develop before or after kids?

Username: Meepmeep Meepmeep

Date posted: 2y ago

That’s crazy! I do the same thing sometimes with my husband I love him lots but I focus on imperfection too and then I feel like a horrible wife. A lot of the time though if we are doing really good I feel more attracted to him and forget the imperfections. So the first time I ever had a weird thought I was probably around 14. I watching my cousin and I had this thought of what if her parents thought I did something bad to her and I panicked… after that though I really didn’t have anything else until I had my firstborn at 18. After he was born that’s when I went full blown pedophilic thoughts all day long other harm thoughts as well. I ended up going to a mental health facility when he was like 2 months old and that’s when I found out I had ocd.

Username: Stardust777Stardust777

Date posted: 2y ago

I’m a mom. I have this thought/false memory that I did something while changing her diaper….like if I took a picture and sent it. Or put it on Snapchat. It’s weird. I never had this thoughts before. It’s really disturbing. :( it makes you feel like a bad mom. I’ve hard thoughts to turn myself in or call cps on myself….

Username: Meepmeep Meepmeep

Date posted: 2y ago

@Stardust777 I totally feel that I’ve had those also sometimes I think maybe I should runaway to keep them safe.

Username: Jerseyshore13

Date posted: 2y ago

Please read/Sexual Intrusive Thoughts. HOCD?

Okay it seems I have a new theme, if this even is a theme? I love my husband very much and I know I am not into the same gender. I have no desire to be with the same gender & I never did. But lately I’ve been getting so inside my head because I have compulsive staring and sexual intrusive thoughts which started postpartum towards my baby then quickly snowballed. I then started having sexual intrusive thoughts towards other females and males. It makes me feel weird and perverted. Where I worry is if same sex thoughts/images pop in while being intimate with my husband or during self pleasure because this has happened before. Also, I am freaking out thinking that if I think another female is pretty it means I’m attracted to her? I mean I am sure we all have thoughts like that when we look at other women right? “Oh she’s pretty.” “Oh she has nice hair.” “Oh she is really in shape and has a nice body.” Or are these thoughts weird? I can’t stop overthinking this. It’s like this started as sexual intrusive thoughts postpartum, then POCD, then sexual intrusive thoughts towards others, to me feeling like a weirdo and perverted, and now I can’t stop obsessing. I need to emphasize here that I would never hurt a child. I would never want to make anyone uncomfortable with my compulsive staring. I am very much in love with my husband and never have I ever thought of being with the same gender. It’s not something I desire. I love my husband, I love my family. I care deeply about being a good mom, a good wife & an overall good person.

Username: Anonymous2414

Date posted: 50w ago

Moms with pocd

Moms who have pocd and groinals. Can anyone relate? Intimacy is a very hard thing for me because I'm always worried of intrusive and groinals. I actually was sort of contemplating with my husband later and I wanted to. Then we ate dinner and then my son sat on my lap and it's like I was waiting to feel any feeling in my body. And I kept feeling like I was feeling something. So now I feel like it will have to be another night since I don't want to do it just in case I had some sort of groinal response. I guess my question is has any other mom dealt with this exact thing and how did you escape from this? Ugh it's been years I've been tormented by this. But I can't just go do it anyways because I'm afraid the groinal could have been real and then I'm acting on it somehow. Ughhh

Username: anne.abby

Date posted: 42w ago

Groinal 🥴

I’m 29 weeks pregnant and keep having intrusive thoughts about my husband sexually abusing my husband. And what’s worse is that I’m having groinal responses. It makes it so confusing. These thoughts are obviously repulsive and make me horrified. But the groinal response makes me question if I am turned on by something so awful??? I mostly have pocd. What can be done about this? Also, I have handled my ocd in the past successfully. This feels like if I am aroused by this then maybe I need help. It’s also making me like freaked out even when I am aroused by normal things, like my husband.

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