Okk, this is gonna sound super terrible and weird but i can't keep it to myself because it makes me think so bad of myself and stuff. Anyways, when i was a lil younger (maybe like a year or two ago) i touched my cats balls like really sexually and i feel so terrible about it. I'm also christian and just started being more of a christian this year. I've recently been going to this one church and i got saved there a few months ago. It made me feel relieved but I'm just jow thinking of this horrible mistake of mine. Since it happend, the cat ran away and i haven't seen it at all. It makes me scared to know if I'll go to heaven or hell for this. I'm not sure. The thought of me doing that has just sparked so much anxiety md stress to where i have thought about suicide but I'd never go through with it. Im feelin super down right now, and if anyone could help or talk to me I'd be so grateful. Also, I'm sorry this was super long.

That cat probably can't even remember what happened. They're more focused on hunting mice or eating food and sleeping. Obviously it's wrong to do that to animals but you won't do it again so it's fine. Probably scared the cat in the moment but the only one suffering from post traumatic stress is you. Forgive yourself, you gotta live with yourself for eternity. God forgives all who seek forgiveness. Even the worst of people and there are people out there who have done far sicker things than this one mistake of yours.

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. “I, even I, am he who blots out your transgressions, for my own sake, and remembers your sins no more. Listen dear..every and each one of us has a secret story than no one knows about that might be way way worse and more bothering than yours.. david the prophet and the one who was selected by god to be the king of Israel ..he sinned! He killed! But when he felt bad about it and asked for forgiveness he returned the great king of Israel Please don’t ever feel down or less than anyone because everyone has his own terrible secret mistakes and because you are good/better than anyone in the eyes of god May god help you to overcome your thoughts...please forgive your delf as god forgives you an god will always forgive no matter what anyone have done I love you

Sorry for my English?

Hey, everyone makes mistakes. Yours might have been a bad one, but it's still a mistake. You regret it! That's good. And God forgave you before you even did it, because He loves you and doesn't want you to be hurt. Forgive yourself, learn from everything - and whatever you do, don't obsess about it!!

Actually, I have a similar story from when I was a child. And I have a really hard time getting over it

I relate to this, i disrespected my older sister when I was a Kid and only actually I've started to overthink about it, I am also christian too and thought about suicide too

I guess it's human nature to act impulsively and kinda stupid at some times. God loves ppl who redeem themselves, it's how he tests our faith in him. If we as humans are capable of forgiving you, I'm sure god the most merciful is too. And so should you! free your soul from this burden.

Also when i made this mistake i was quite young and had no idea it would put me in such a bad mindset in the future. I didn't know there was a thing called beastiality or anything like that. Later when i found out about what it was called and stuff, i got really scared bc doing something like that is illegal in most states and i was so young that i didn't know about the consequences.

Really thanks for your text, I had so much regrets of things I did, sometimes It makes me feel worthless and suicidal... Its so good to read such a beatiful text, thanks

We all have❤️

Also, this might not relate to ocd and I'm sorry if i kinda make people mad but i feel like this is a good community of people to get some help from.

I definitely relate to this in different ways, something that’s helped me get through it is reminding myself (which I’m actually doing right now since I’m thinking about it) is that we’re meant to learn from our experiences and test our boundaries- even the ones that are the most difficult to cope with, and I truly believe that G-d understands that

This happens when we are kids, we don't know if something we did is bad, just like you said we havent no idea about it