So many people on here struggle with thinking about what they miss doing or feeling before their OCD theme hit. Some miss being attracted to the opposite sex and feeling giddy talking to a cute guy at the super market, others miss being able to sit with their partners in peace on the couch, others miss cooking with sharp knives without having thoughts about anything but the food in front of them. What do you miss? I miss feeling like I had a strong sense of self and identity. I miss doing or saying something and thinking, “yeah, that’s the type of person I am! And I’m proud!” Now, I say/do stuff and think, “well that’s how the old me would have done it, and I’m not sure what else to do. But it doesn’t really feel like it’s coming from me anymore. It’s just, a habit. My whole personality and identity is just performing a habit. And I have no idea what to replace it with cause I can’t seem to access the “real me” anymore.”

You did it many times and you can do it again. It's the same game just different player :)

I miss not being scared all the time. Like I'm "missing something". I miss being able to be with friends without the dread of what will happen if I get a thought. I was depressed before, but I even miss that. It wasn't great, but it was better than this. I would rather have it be difficult to get out of bed than for it to be difficult for me to get into bed because the thoughts are impossible to stop. I miss food. I've been nauseous because of anxiety for a while and so it makes it difficult to eat different kinds of food without feeling sick. I miss daydreaming. Even doing that sometimes gives me anxiety because I think about how OCD is holding me back. I do see improvements, but I'm just exhausted. Sorry for being a huge downer.

I'm like you, I miss the "old me", the "fun me". The sense of identity and my independence. I've been pushing myself into uncomfortable situations; starting a conversation, leaving my house to walk with my daughter, talking to my husband..small baby steps to find me has been good.

BTW I’m suffering from gender OCD now but I’ve had/recovered from sexuality OCD, existential OCD, and health OCD themes in the past.

I feel the samee

I miss enjoying my relationship. My boyfriend is great and I dont want anybody else but I just cant seem to enjoy that. I want to be in peace, I want to not have doubts anymore,no more what ifs, feel content with my relationship as I used to. I want to show him all my love,Im scared he will get tired of this and leave. I dont want to leave him but sometimes I get thoughts without the anxiety and it makes me think that maybe I dont love him. But still I know I dont want to leave. I want to be with him, I want to choose him everyday. I hate this shit!

I miss my energy. And actually wanting to go to the gym. I miss feeling love at all I miss looking at my kids and thinking about how cute they r and how much I love them. Harm ocd hurts. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.