Feels like I can’t access my old brain. It’s like your stuck, you feel like you’ve changed as a person and don’t care about anything and when you try to care you can’t even express it. Anyone experience this?
I’m feeling this way but I try to be myself and access that brain you describe whenever I experience some relief. I think that once you feel more comfortable and you recover then you’ll start feeling yourself again.
@Hopeful soul Thank you!
Going through that now. As glad as I am that I found a diagnosis, I tend to greave the old me every now and then
@Isabel Davis Yeah, it’s a struggle, but I’ve heard it does get better!
YOU DESCRIBED EXACTLY WHAT I FEEL!!! It's soooo scary! According to what I've learnt, it's pretty normal and common when it comes to ocd. Try not to give it too much attention. I know it's easier said than done. You won't be like this forever!
Hey - how ru now?
My life ended in july when this started. Im waiting for it to come back. Ive been unemployed and cant keep a job because its so debilitating. I used to be happy, But i dont think ill ever be okay again. Its like i died and im just here observing life happen.
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
So hard to not engage the thoughts because even though it's from the "past" (i don't even know if im remembering things correctly and it kills me) and i can't change it, I just NEED to prove it to myself that it didn't happen this way. If you'd asked me questions maybe a few months ago, I would have been able to lucidly explain things. Now I just feel like I'm in a constant swarm of thoughts, not knowing if anything is real. If my brain is to be trusted. Wish I could just get hypnosis to forget
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