Does anyone else here suffer with guilt over real event ocd or false memory ocd? I don’t know how to cope with this feeling. So much of it feels like false memory but I’m so scared to let myself be happy in case I actually did something but I can’t remember a specific incident just what feels like random images which could be false memory ocd. How do you all deal with this it weighs on me so heavily!

Here is the article - It's helped me a lot, man, especial lt the comment section. --- My OCD got horribly bad last year due to my memory of something that did happen when I was a teenager (I am 32 now), then my compulsions and anxiety got so bad that my OCD threw into my mind many other things I had completely forgotten, then false memories and at the end POCD. I was about to quit for good this life too. I had to go to an intensive outpatient program. All if my stuff is mixed with personal trauma with my childhood, which made it much harder. I did tons of ERP with "worry scripts", I also process some of the events with the therapist. All of that helped with the panic attacks but I was still feeling shitty. It was until recently that I heard Dr. Phillipson talk about how most people with PureO also deal with perfectionistic personality. I started looking into it and I found some amazing books on perfectionism which has helped me move on. Particularly susceptible to these obsessions are people who grew up super religious and/or with very demanding environments. You need to come to terms that may be you have made a mistake - possibly. Who knows. And that's o.k. Nothing to be celebrated of course but you are a human and you are always doing the best you can according to your knowledge and circumstances. especially when we are kids we do a lot of stupid stuff.

thank you so much for sharing, you are definitely a wise and strong human❤️

yep i’ve had false memories. one in particular (my first one) was a couple months ago on christmas break. is was that i m*lested my cousin. long story short i got a religious counselor who (i didn’t know i had ocd) tried to “brainwash” me and everything. i ended up having to tell my grandma that i thought i had molested my cousin and i excessively prayed (i’ve never been religious), couldn’t sleep, coudnt stop crying, and tried to kill myself. i got over it with help from my therapist and realizing it was my ocd and false memory. i’m still recovering from it (i’m 14) . i obsess over the number 4 (how old he was), the number 5 (how old he is now), the number 3 (how old his brother was), couches, being around him. it’s all hard. accepting that they’re all false memories or real memories is the first step in the long journey of recovery.

try and accept the uncertainty. live life as if they didn’t exist because they most likely haven’t. write it down. talk to a therapist.

Have you read the OCD article by Stacey on Real Event OCD?

I go through the same :(

Thank you for sharing your story Scorpio I appreciate the help and I’m sending you good vibes as you recover.

thank you, and you too! you will make it through this i promise

I do talk to my CBT about these issues and she says just do the same as with other themes. Thanks for responding. Is this something you have suffered with Scorpio?

FernandoV I haven’t read the article what is her name I will look it up

http://www.ocdspecialists.com/real-event-ocd/

Fernando thank you so much for opening up about this it is amazing. I feel like I am moving past what I did when I was a young child but there are somethings from my late teens and early twenties that I still struggle with but I try to tell myself that even then we are still growing and making a lot of mistakes (28 now). Some of the things did happen and I have confessed them to people and sought forgiveness and others are things I can’t remember if they happened or not and they feel like false memory ocd, no exact memories just thought that if true make me feel awful. I would love to talk to you more sometime you are such a strong person for making it through this and I would love to know more about the perfectionism articles and books you have read. I came from a family that made me feel inferior to my older sibilants and to friends so this resonates with me so much. If you have discord I am trying to start a support group on there my id is Zander#3940 and if please shoot me a text if you can my number is 8458503484. Email is zander1717@gmail.com this community is amazing and is seriously helping me so incredibly much. You are amazing!