- Username
- JC1156
- Date posted
- 1y ago
False memory ocd
Anyone on here suffer with this. I think I am If you do can you tell me abit about how you cope
Anyone on here suffer with this. I think I am If you do can you tell me abit about how you cope
omg i have experienced false memories so many times during last year and the start of this year, the amount of time i took thinking did i do this? let me find evidence and i’ll be fine. i have some advice and i hope this helps. first of all i didn’t trust who i was, i didn’t know myself and i didn’t even know that i should know myself. self reflect, start to take time alone and fully get to know yourself disregarding the thought for just an hour, i know it’s easier said than done but if you take a bit of time every couple days doing this you’ll start to say ‘ you know what i actually know myself enough to know i wouldn’t do something like this, it isn’t something that i agree with’
I do, I try and not emotionally invest myself in it. I also try and trust myself as best I can and remind myself that no matter how real it feels it’s the ocd and its done it a million times before this time isn’t any different. I also try and catch my brain out if I can feel it making stuff up and lastly the most important thing is to not dig deeper into that thought, not ask any ‘what if’ questions, not go over the false memory over and over again, if it pops into your head just leave it at that and try not to take it seriously
@Crescent moon girl My false memory only goes to one thing and I can’t even see anything in the memory it’s just black nothing there. But I used to use drugs allt so it’s like did I do something bad whilst on drugs and now I can’t remember and people know I’ve done something bad etc. it’s horrible
@Crescent moon girl telling yourself it’s the ocd and you’ve done it a million times is such a good way of the thought disappearing because it’s like oh yeah i have done this in similar situations loads of times
@JC1156 I get it! The past year I’ve only had one false memory theme but it changes the story every time I can prove to myself one isn’t true or changes it to make it worse. I think a good way to cope if you are extremely unsure is telling yourself “well I have no real evidence anything bad happened right now it’s just OCD coming up with possibilities so I won’t worry for now, if I ever find out from someone else something bad did happen then I will deal with it then”
@Sunflowers44 Exactly! It’s like this is what my brain does and it’s what so many other people with OCD’s brains do, yeah sure this could maybe possibly be true just like anything could be but seeing as I am experiencing all the signs of OCD then I’m pretty sure it’s the OCD making this up as per usual 😂
@Crescent moon girl yes!! i realised this after a long time dealing with false memories because as time goes by you’re like wait this memory is VERY similar to one i thought i had last month? now i know this is a pattern of ocd thoughts because why would i do so many of these same memories and worry each time , wouldn’t i have learnt by now?
False memory has plagued me for 9 months I didn’t know I had ocd when it came. Even though both my sisters do and I definitely had OCD for 10 years prior to this. It took my life life to be destroyed for me to get diagnosed. It seems so real and will convince you it’s true. It made me forget who I was. I know I would never do what the false memory is saying I did. But yes you have to trust yourself it’s the only way. If you are very intelligent, so is your ocd (people with ocd seem to be very intelligent). If you try to disprove it will come back with an awnser. Mine came with no room for solving, ocd had already made it unsolvable. It’s like your enjoying life and then out of no where ocd says “you done this terrible thing and forgot about it” When the thought first came, I was like “wtf did I do that” and took it so seriously, because who wouldn’t?? I didn’t understand it was ocd then and took me months of crippling anxiety and terror to see it could be ocd Now I’m still very stuck But at least I can see it’s ocd Even if it feels so real I’ve had many other themes before but this one really has me on my knees Hopefully one we will see through its BS
I’m not at this point yet and it might be wishful thinking but I keep saying to my self “Let it feel real until it doesn’t” I feel this is the way to beat ocd Let’s hope 🤞
⚠️ TW sexual themes ⚠️ I have OCD regarding sexual themes. I struggle with real event/false memory OCD, and I used to struggle with different sexual sins before me and my boyfriend were together. My OCD tells me that if we get married, and we consummate our marriage, that it’ll be sex under false pretenses if I don’t confess everything I’ve ever thought/done in regards to my past. It makes me feel like when we do end up exploring the sexual aspect of our relationship, that it’ll be SA unless he knows everything. OCD is ridiculous. Can anyone relate to this? The thought of hurting him in that way actually makes me sick to my stomach and makes me shake.
im not diagnosed, but these past two days have been terrible. i constantly have this underlying feeling that i might do something that i think is gross and i feel like i can’t do anything on my own because otherwise i might do something wrong. like i feel like i constantly have to be in front of people so that i can make sure of my every action. this is so exhausting and I’m so confused. and like i keep getting terrible images and stuff replaying in my head. i also try to recall what happened but i feel like i have false event too. i used to have religious ocd and that eventually stopped completely, but now it feels like all my work getting over that was pointless. also like i feel like i might have contamination ocd but not the typical germ type. I just get terrible images and I can’t remember if those images are true or not even though they’re impossible and i feel terrible. I don’t know if i could ever get over this because even the thought of it is terrible.
Hi there I talk about religion (but I'm not trying to force it down anyone's throat) So my main event (which is the one that truly bothers me) happened in 2015 when I was 14. I won't go into any details or anything. I will say that it got so bad once that I almost committed something detrimental to my health earlier this year. Not long after that I spoke to a doctor and basically confessed what's been happening to my brain and my mistakes, he mentioned things that really resonated with me, I'll paraphrase a bit: "Okay, so what you did was not good but it's not something to condemn yourself for. It falls into the grey area, you've apologized and have been forgiven (even though I apologized over text, which comes across cowardly)but it seems that you haven't forgiven yourself. There's a whole lot of difference between you at 14 and you at 23. Try to have some perspective." This really helped and it still does, but unfortunately ocd tries to find a way around this. I'll get a thought of "oh but you forgot to mention that other part of the event" and it magnifies it. Can anyone relate? I've done everything but fully move on because I sometimes feel like I don't deserve to move on. And I'm still worried over the future.
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