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- 6y
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- 6y
I feel you, its so crazy. I dont know where it went and if it will come back but on some days i sliiightly feel it but like it doesnt feel the same, its under a loot of anxiety still. It doesnt feel as natural and genuine as it used too. I litteralt cant imagine how goodn life would be if it came back but inalso cant imagine it coming back. Like im soo different from how i used to be, i forgot what its like to be head over heels over a boy. I cant imagine how it would be to be myself again even tho its all i want
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- 6y
Yes same its crazy like my mind thinks people are gay when thet say they think someone of tbe same sex is pretty and im already like, a sign? just like i treat myself
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- 6y
I literally assume everyone is gay because of their voice or even how they pose in pictures
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- 6y
Yes Ive done this a lot, its not as bad as it used to be but its almost like a gay radar to detect gay people so I can avoid them so people don't think I'm gay or they dont turn me gay. Everyplace you go become a minefield because gay people are everywhere, plus I'm probably labelling people who aren't gay as gay because of some tiny detail stereotype, and I'm definitely missing loads of actual gay people because not every gay person 'looks' or 'sounds' gay
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- 6y
I thought I was the only do you mind telling about what you go through
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- 6y
Yes same its like my mind wants everyone to be gay
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- 6y
I've noticed my mum does it all the time when watching TV. If a celebrity who is gay comes on she has to say 'you know he's gay' or shes a lesbian. If a man on tv she thinks sounds gay or camp, she will say it too. It usually didnt even cross my mind until she said it
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- 6y
Yeaahhhhh i do that most of the time. Thats probably why i don't like to be in public
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- 6y
Its definitely fed into my social anxiety in a big way
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- 6y
I thought i was the only one that did that like I was scared to go to certain places because I was scared that there was gay people and I would freak out
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- 6y
Yes my gf invited me to a gay club once and I declined
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- 5y
I'm scared I might become gay if I see touch or think about the gay person . Absolutely pisses me off fuck them
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- 25w
I have been really battling with my SO OCD, and I’ve recently started to have a ton of wins!!! I’m really excited about it, but as I’ve noticed myself not engaging as much… different things have popped up. Now im obsessed with people’s perception on me, and them looking at me and thinking by how I walk, how I talk, what I wear, how I move… that I am gay? And am so convinced everyone thinks that and “knows something that I don’t”. Is that typical with OCD? If so, any ERP advice on how to overcome these thoughts?
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- 18w
The thoughts are real? I have so ocd I really think I’m gay.
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 10w
I was wondering if this also happened to anyone. I grew up very open-minded and allowed myself to question my sexuality when I was younger. I explored feelings for both genders and attraction to them from afar, because I didn't have any friends or experiences to guide me through them. When I started dating, I was open to both but slowly and surely naturally phased out women. It always felt performative, like pretending to be upset they didn't respond, choosing who to be attracted to, and while present with them, wanting to back away or feeling a level of discomfort. When my SO-OCD started, these experiences made it very difficult to navigate the anxieties and intrusive thoughts. My thoughts often circled back to the idea that if I wasn't attracted to women, I wouldn't have tried to in the first place. This type of thought is like a Catch-22. On one hand, I am surveying my past actions or memories for any signs of true attraction or trying to pick at moments where I could prove that I was actually uncomfortable. On the other hand, the thought of being uncomfortable with a moment is tainted in my brain because of the idea that I could just be in denial. Any emotion I've ever had gets scrutinized in hindsight, making it feel like any way in which I feel is wrong. SO-OCD has been particularly difficult because of the fact that I've never been pejorative towards being queer or the LGBTQ+ community. It goes against my own values whether or not I am actually queer or actually straight. I remember growing up in an environment (whether school, family, or friends) that was always lined with prejudice towards any type of outsider - OCD makes me feel ashamed for my own want to understand any group or background different from my own. Essentially, I wanted to know if that's also something that plagues others with SO-OCD. For me, no matter what side of the fence I fall on my OCD rewrites it as bad: Either I'm in denial and lying to everyone even though they already secretly know, or I'm a homophobe. Sometimes they even mix. It doesn't make any sense.
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