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I can see why this would cause a lot of fear and anxiety. OCD is a difficult thing to do, and sometimes it feels like you have to force yourself to do it. May I ask what you mean by saying that you are resistant?

I also have contamination OCD and I'm aware of how debilitating it can be. I recently started ERP again after several years. I too was anxious about starting it again because I thought it would somehow trigger me more. However, it hasn't. It is making me play an active roll in my treatment. We all deserve to live lives where OCD doesn't rule us. Please consider trying ERP. Best wishes to you!

I absolutely get you! I have had severe OCD around chemicals and as you I read articles and safety protocols - wow that's the worst thing you can do!!! You feed your OCD and dig a deep hole for yourself. I also thought I was resistant to ERP because my fears were "real"- I thouut I was more aware than other people... I will tell you: you aren't resistant to ERP! As I understand you, this wasn't a problem in the beginning, but "lately, I have developed..." and then you have collected a lot of "facts" and scared yourself by doing compulsions/avoidance. Before you began with those behaviours it was no problem, am I right? You have to go back to the way you lived before this fear showed up! Search treatment - I did. It really helps to bteak these unhealthy patterns, if you ate willing to change your way of living. You know the paradox, you try to protect your life, but you only destroy it by listening to OCD. Search help now.

Another thing I learned in ERP: you can never argue your way out of this mess! But when you (on your own, or with the help of a therapist) begin to touch and use objects you have avoided for long your brain will adjust and with time you will see that "it was ridicolus, it was OCD all the way..." There is hope! You don't have to live in this nightmare.

You are heard, and I totallt get you!! I have been in similar circumstances and also reported things I have experienced as unsafe...never been taken seriously... My heart aches for you, I know the mental prison and the conviction that there is no help because of the "real danger" At the end of the day you have to ask yourself: is it worth it? Why not take the risks and maybe live a shorter but happier life? My English isn't perfect, it's not my native language...but I hope I can spread a bit of hope to you and know that I have been where you are.

I get you and you aren't triggering me at all. I also have had those fears of hurting other people, this high sense of responsibilty. Anyway, it doesn't matter, and you know, in the long run, we destroy our relationships with our excessive behaviour and safety rituals. So it's no "excuse" to let OCD run the show. I am glad if you feel seen and heard, and I do wish that you will search treatment so you can live a happier life!

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