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Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Absolutely! You just need to remember that even if you *did* make these thoughts then they’re still just thoughts 🤷♀️ and even if you did think them you can tell that you don’t align with them so don’t feel so bad about having them
But then where is the line between fantasizing and not. People who fantasize make thoughts on purpose. And as I said I don’t like those thoughts but still somehow have them and I don’t know if it’s on purpose or not.
@birdsunflower1 Even if you were fantasising (which it doesn’t sound like it to me, considering you’ve said you don’t like the thoughts) it’s once again still just thoughts 🤷♀️, the only thing that would be bad would be if you were to act on the thoughts, and considering you’ve said that you don’t like them - I don’t think you would
This could possibly be rumination. And it’s kind of like thinking then on purpose to see how you react. Basically trying to give yourself a bad reaction to prove that you are still disgusted by the thought. But a lot of the times after you think so many bad thoughts you aren’t going to have that same reaction. Some people don’t even have a reaction at all but you that doesn’t mean you agree with it or like the thought!
It kind of sounds like me but not sure.
@birdsunflower1 Sometimes you just have bad thoughts on purpose cause your trying so hard not to have them lol. I struggle with it myself because then I think we’ll if these thoughts are on purpose then they aren’t intrusive. But I learned that that doesn’t mean I agree with the thoughts. They are still just thoughts.
@Anonymous6482 Can 100% agree with this 👍🏻
Maybe you are trying not to have the thoughts which in turn will make you have them. The more I read about thoughts the more hear not to pay too much attention to them. Your brain try’s to protect you and what you hold dear by giving too much value to OCDs intrusive thoughts you train your brain to think they are important when they are not. Even “normal” thoughts often get it wrong. We often spend too much time in our heads.
I never dealt with pocd before and suddenly started worrying but now I keep imagining this disgusting thoguhts on purpose and I thought it was to test myself but it’s really disgusting And it’s like I can feel how the thoguhts feel to do that thing and I don’t feel disgusted or worried or at least don’t think I am I jsut feel nothing but can easily imagine the thoguhts and why can I imagine them and not feel bad about imagining them does that mean it’s true
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@Ilovemyhusband0322 Fantasizing about the other gender I feel like is normal with anyone because everyone gets curious at some point in their life. So there’s really nothing wrong with that and even if you fantasize about the same gender and even like it doesn’t mean you are attracted to the same gender or would ever do anything in real life.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - But fantasizing when you want something,desire something. (I am not saying that you wanted the same sex but I feel like in your context fantasize is not the right word if it’s unwanted)
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - If it’s ocd it’s still fits. Sexual thought,arousal and “enjoying” in dreams when you don’t want that in real life sounds like ocd. Maybe I’m wrong but for me it sounds like that.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - I am really happy for you! 🧡
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Omg! Can you elaborate? I’m dying today. I watched a movie yesterday with my husband that had sexual content and I was aroused and it was w a scene of a naked woman. My husband noticed me having more moisture down there and he said he can tell I was more aroused that usual. Then he asked if it was because of the movie, I’m panicking both today and yesterday 😭😭😭😭 I thought I had gotten over this theme
@Anonymous He wants to finish watching it today, and I said NO! I think he knows why, I recently told him about my theme 😭
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Haha, that’s what I mean, like I have done the same in the past and I read this article in HOCD about how this is normal, you may have had fantasies in the past and they didn’t matter but now because you have ocd, they do matter because “what if” you know logically, you won’t do it in real life but still, “what if” ugh, so annoying
@Ilovemyhusband0322 On the same boat, i love love love my husband but ocd makes me doubt everything . My therapist said the same, humans react to sexual things but my ocd doesn’t accept that as an answer , or at least it will acccept it for a bit. It’s funny because I’ve searched things like porn and 80 percent of straight women watch lesbian porn. I don’t watch it but when I see sexual scenes on tv, I get aroused and I start panicking even though I know this is normal
@Ilovemyhusband0322 What are you doing for exposures?
@Ilovemyhusband0322 I hate it! I’ve had this theme on and off for 13years!
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Same, photos and writing statements , like I may be a lesbian , I may be bisexual
@Anonymous One time a friend tried to show me a cut that she had from a liposuction and I literally had a panic attack and ran away, that’s how terrified I am lol, like I would literally pushed any female who would try to come close to me lol 😂
@Ilovemyhusband0322 That’s amazing that you are already doing erp. It took me 11 years to start erp so I think there’s less hope for me , mine seems very real. Maybe because all the rumination I’ve done all these years
@Ilovemyhusband0322 😭😭😭😭😭 I wish I could accept that. Are you seeing someone in nocd? Your thoughts are sexual in nature or more like false attraction? I keep jumping from symptom to symptom , like groinal response , images, statements, false attraction I beat one symptom and then something else pops up
I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time
I wanted to ask if it is possible to purposely think of an intrusive thought and then shifting your mind instantly to something else? Is it still an intrusive thought if you have been thinking of it 'purposely' for a second? I dont know how else to explain it, but it felt like I was purposely thinking of it. Anyone else had similar experience what happened during intimate moments like masturbation I feel so ashamed cuz the thoughts are so bad they're either about family members children and stuff like that it feels like I think it I just want to know if I'm not alone I feel like a monster because it feels like I thought these things or like I did think these things and I don't know what to do I feel so ashamed and grossed I need help I just want to know if anyone had a similar experience to shed light on because I don't know I feel so isolated
I have all kinds of thoughts that aren’t me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things 😞😞😞😞 I can’t do this anymore
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