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Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Absolutely! You just need to remember that even if you *did* make these thoughts then they’re still just thoughts 🤷♀️ and even if you did think them you can tell that you don’t align with them so don’t feel so bad about having them
But then where is the line between fantasizing and not. People who fantasize make thoughts on purpose. And as I said I don’t like those thoughts but still somehow have them and I don’t know if it’s on purpose or not.
@birdsunflower1 Even if you were fantasising (which it doesn’t sound like it to me, considering you’ve said you don’t like the thoughts) it’s once again still just thoughts 🤷♀️, the only thing that would be bad would be if you were to act on the thoughts, and considering you’ve said that you don’t like them - I don’t think you would
This could possibly be rumination. And it’s kind of like thinking then on purpose to see how you react. Basically trying to give yourself a bad reaction to prove that you are still disgusted by the thought. But a lot of the times after you think so many bad thoughts you aren’t going to have that same reaction. Some people don’t even have a reaction at all but you that doesn’t mean you agree with it or like the thought!
It kind of sounds like me but not sure.
@birdsunflower1 Sometimes you just have bad thoughts on purpose cause your trying so hard not to have them lol. I struggle with it myself because then I think we’ll if these thoughts are on purpose then they aren’t intrusive. But I learned that that doesn’t mean I agree with the thoughts. They are still just thoughts.
@Anonymous6482 Can 100% agree with this 👍🏻
Maybe you are trying not to have the thoughts which in turn will make you have them. The more I read about thoughts the more hear not to pay too much attention to them. Your brain try’s to protect you and what you hold dear by giving too much value to OCDs intrusive thoughts you train your brain to think they are important when they are not. Even “normal” thoughts often get it wrong. We often spend too much time in our heads.
I never dealt with pocd before and suddenly started worrying but now I keep imagining this disgusting thoguhts on purpose and I thought it was to test myself but it’s really disgusting And it’s like I can feel how the thoguhts feel to do that thing and I don’t feel disgusted or worried or at least don’t think I am I jsut feel nothing but can easily imagine the thoguhts and why can I imagine them and not feel bad about imagining them does that mean it’s true
Is this ocd? I Have a thought or think something f harmful that I’ve gotten intrusive thoughts about - and get a feeling like I want/like it or it would give me relief??? Please tell me that will eventually go away and I’ll get my real feelings back??? Or have I just turned into those things? Sometimes things that make me upset it even feels like I’ll do them just so I can be upset about them.
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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