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But then where is the line between fantasizing and not. People who fantasize make thoughts on purpose. And as I said I don’t like those thoughts but still somehow have them and I don’t know if it’s on purpose or not.

@birdsunflower1 Even if you were fantasising (which it doesn’t sound like it to me, considering you’ve said you don’t like the thoughts) it’s once again still just thoughts 🤷‍♀️, the only thing that would be bad would be if you were to act on the thoughts, and considering you’ve said that you don’t like them - I don’t think you would

It kind of sounds like me but not sure.

@birdsunflower1 Sometimes you just have bad thoughts on purpose cause your trying so hard not to have them lol. I struggle with it myself because then I think we’ll if these thoughts are on purpose then they aren’t intrusive. But I learned that that doesn’t mean I agree with the thoughts. They are still just thoughts.

@Anonymous6482 Can 100% agree with this 👍🏻

@Ilovemyhusband0322 Fantasizing about the other gender I feel like is normal with anyone because everyone gets curious at some point in their life. So there’s really nothing wrong with that and even if you fantasize about the same gender and even like it doesn’t mean you are attracted to the same gender or would ever do anything in real life.

@Ilovemyhusband0322 - But fantasizing when you want something,desire something. (I am not saying that you wanted the same sex but I feel like in your context fantasize is not the right word if it’s unwanted)

@Ilovemyhusband0322 - If it’s ocd it’s still fits. Sexual thought,arousal and “enjoying” in dreams when you don’t want that in real life sounds like ocd. Maybe I’m wrong but for me it sounds like that.

@Ilovemyhusband0322 - I am really happy for you! 🧡

@Ilovemyhusband0322 Omg! Can you elaborate? I’m dying today. I watched a movie yesterday with my husband that had sexual content and I was aroused and it was w a scene of a naked woman. My husband noticed me having more moisture down there and he said he can tell I was more aroused that usual. Then he asked if it was because of the movie, I’m panicking both today and yesterday 😭😭😭😭 I thought I had gotten over this theme

@Anonymous He wants to finish watching it today, and I said NO! I think he knows why, I recently told him about my theme 😭

@Ilovemyhusband0322 Haha, that’s what I mean, like I have done the same in the past and I read this article in HOCD about how this is normal, you may have had fantasies in the past and they didn’t matter but now because you have ocd, they do matter because “what if” you know logically, you won’t do it in real life but still, “what if” ugh, so annoying

@Ilovemyhusband0322 On the same boat, i love love love my husband but ocd makes me doubt everything . My therapist said the same, humans react to sexual things but my ocd doesn’t accept that as an answer , or at least it will acccept it for a bit. It’s funny because I’ve searched things like porn and 80 percent of straight women watch lesbian porn. I don’t watch it but when I see sexual scenes on tv, I get aroused and I start panicking even though I know this is normal

@Ilovemyhusband0322 What are you doing for exposures?

@Ilovemyhusband0322 I hate it! I’ve had this theme on and off for 13years!

@Ilovemyhusband0322 Same, photos and writing statements , like I may be a lesbian , I may be bisexual

@Anonymous One time a friend tried to show me a cut that she had from a liposuction and I literally had a panic attack and ran away, that’s how terrified I am lol, like I would literally pushed any female who would try to come close to me lol 😂

@Ilovemyhusband0322 That’s amazing that you are already doing erp. It took me 11 years to start erp so I think there’s less hope for me , mine seems very real. Maybe because all the rumination I’ve done all these years

@Ilovemyhusband0322 😭😭😭😭😭 I wish I could accept that. Are you seeing someone in nocd? Your thoughts are sexual in nature or more like false attraction? I keep jumping from symptom to symptom , like groinal response , images, statements, false attraction I beat one symptom and then something else pops up