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Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Can ocd make you feel that you make thoughts on purpose? It feels like I make some ugly thoughts on purpose but I don’t like it.
Absolutely! You just need to remember that even if you *did* make these thoughts then they’re still just thoughts 🤷♀️ and even if you did think them you can tell that you don’t align with them so don’t feel so bad about having them
But then where is the line between fantasizing and not. People who fantasize make thoughts on purpose. And as I said I don’t like those thoughts but still somehow have them and I don’t know if it’s on purpose or not.
@birdsunflower1 Even if you were fantasising (which it doesn’t sound like it to me, considering you’ve said you don’t like the thoughts) it’s once again still just thoughts 🤷♀️, the only thing that would be bad would be if you were to act on the thoughts, and considering you’ve said that you don’t like them - I don’t think you would
This could possibly be rumination. And it’s kind of like thinking then on purpose to see how you react. Basically trying to give yourself a bad reaction to prove that you are still disgusted by the thought. But a lot of the times after you think so many bad thoughts you aren’t going to have that same reaction. Some people don’t even have a reaction at all but you that doesn’t mean you agree with it or like the thought!
It kind of sounds like me but not sure.
@birdsunflower1 Sometimes you just have bad thoughts on purpose cause your trying so hard not to have them lol. I struggle with it myself because then I think we’ll if these thoughts are on purpose then they aren’t intrusive. But I learned that that doesn’t mean I agree with the thoughts. They are still just thoughts.
@Anonymous6482 Can 100% agree with this 👍🏻
Maybe you are trying not to have the thoughts which in turn will make you have them. The more I read about thoughts the more hear not to pay too much attention to them. Your brain try’s to protect you and what you hold dear by giving too much value to OCDs intrusive thoughts you train your brain to think they are important when they are not. Even “normal” thoughts often get it wrong. We often spend too much time in our heads.
I never dealt with pocd before and suddenly started worrying but now I keep imagining this disgusting thoguhts on purpose and I thought it was to test myself but it’s really disgusting And it’s like I can feel how the thoguhts feel to do that thing and I don’t feel disgusted or worried or at least don’t think I am I jsut feel nothing but can easily imagine the thoguhts and why can I imagine them and not feel bad about imagining them does that mean it’s true
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@Ilovemyhusband0322 Fantasizing about the other gender I feel like is normal with anyone because everyone gets curious at some point in their life. So there’s really nothing wrong with that and even if you fantasize about the same gender and even like it doesn’t mean you are attracted to the same gender or would ever do anything in real life.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - But fantasizing when you want something,desire something. (I am not saying that you wanted the same sex but I feel like in your context fantasize is not the right word if it’s unwanted)
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - If it’s ocd it’s still fits. Sexual thought,arousal and “enjoying” in dreams when you don’t want that in real life sounds like ocd. Maybe I’m wrong but for me it sounds like that.
@Ilovemyhusband0322 - I am really happy for you! 🧡
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Omg! Can you elaborate? I’m dying today. I watched a movie yesterday with my husband that had sexual content and I was aroused and it was w a scene of a naked woman. My husband noticed me having more moisture down there and he said he can tell I was more aroused that usual. Then he asked if it was because of the movie, I’m panicking both today and yesterday 😭😭😭😭 I thought I had gotten over this theme
@Anonymous He wants to finish watching it today, and I said NO! I think he knows why, I recently told him about my theme 😭
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Haha, that’s what I mean, like I have done the same in the past and I read this article in HOCD about how this is normal, you may have had fantasies in the past and they didn’t matter but now because you have ocd, they do matter because “what if” you know logically, you won’t do it in real life but still, “what if” ugh, so annoying
@Ilovemyhusband0322 On the same boat, i love love love my husband but ocd makes me doubt everything . My therapist said the same, humans react to sexual things but my ocd doesn’t accept that as an answer , or at least it will acccept it for a bit. It’s funny because I’ve searched things like porn and 80 percent of straight women watch lesbian porn. I don’t watch it but when I see sexual scenes on tv, I get aroused and I start panicking even though I know this is normal
@Ilovemyhusband0322 What are you doing for exposures?
@Ilovemyhusband0322 I hate it! I’ve had this theme on and off for 13years!
@Ilovemyhusband0322 Same, photos and writing statements , like I may be a lesbian , I may be bisexual
@Anonymous One time a friend tried to show me a cut that she had from a liposuction and I literally had a panic attack and ran away, that’s how terrified I am lol, like I would literally pushed any female who would try to come close to me lol 😂
@Ilovemyhusband0322 That’s amazing that you are already doing erp. It took me 11 years to start erp so I think there’s less hope for me , mine seems very real. Maybe because all the rumination I’ve done all these years
@Ilovemyhusband0322 😭😭😭😭😭 I wish I could accept that. Are you seeing someone in nocd? Your thoughts are sexual in nature or more like false attraction? I keep jumping from symptom to symptom , like groinal response , images, statements, false attraction I beat one symptom and then something else pops up
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
I have all kinds of thoughts that aren’t me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things 😞😞😞😞 I can’t do this anymore
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