What does recovery look like? I have been really trying not doing the compulsions and I just sit with the anxiety. It’s sooo soo hard. When does it get easier. I feel like I’m losing my mind.
It doesn’t go away completely, but with treatment, you should learn to just live with your intrusive thoughts and let them kinda float by, from what I’ve heard. I don’t know though, I’m still working on it as well. :/
@☾ ᴍxɢɪᴄᴀʟᴍᴏᴏɴ ⋆˙⟡ Thank you so much. I really appreciate your response. I can’t wait to get there. For you too!!
Of course!!!! Anytime
Recovery is different for everyone. You'll still get intrusive thoughts even in remission. Sometimes you'll question is, this a compulsion. So I still doubt sometimes but I think that's what most people are like even without ocd. I'm just hyper aware of it because I had/ have ocd and don't want to go back
Those of you who have overcome at least a bit, if not all, of your OCD. When you went through the CBT and ERP, did it feel like the end of the world? And how did you face the fact that your fears and uncertainties might actually come to life?
I’m having a big OCD relapse and would like to hear anyone’s tips on how to be present and healthily deal with these intrusive thoughts and the “need” to preform compulsions. Thank you!!
I cannot for the life of me stop ruminating or checking how I feel about thoughts or focusing on thoughts or creating more thoughts. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I want to scream. I try not to ruminate about the thoughts, but trying not to just makes me think about them more. I try not to check, but somehow, I still check. I want to let a thought sit in the background, but the more I try not to focus on it, the more I end up focusing on it. I don’t want the thought to expand because that feels like engaging with it, but I can’t just stop it from expanding. It feels impossible. People keep saying I’m in control of my compulsions, and maybe that’s true for the physical ones. But when it comes to the mental compulsions, I swear I have no control. It feels like I’m missing something that everyone else seems to have, like there’s some tool they’re using that I don’t have. Controlling mental compulsions has never felt possible for me. I’m starting to fear them. And every time someone says I’m in control and can just choose not to do them, I end up beating myself up even more when they happen. Or when I *choose* I guess. I don’t know anymore. If this is my fault, if I’m responsible for this, then what does that make me? I feel like a monster. I am at my wits’ end. How am I supposed to control mental compulsions when it feels like they control me? I freak out when they happen. They don’t bring me relief, they just make me panic. I want it to stop so bad.
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