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and now im mentally checking by seeing if im apathetic to everything else and trying to justify murder and assault to myself because...ocd
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Sounds like typical OCD to me. I had these sort of thoughts pop in as well with Harm OCD and POCD. And then I would think to myself “oh gosh this is proof that I’m a terrible person because I just tried to justify these thoughts!” Don’t let OCD fool you. This all sounds like typical ruminating to me and it’s just going to keep you going in circles. It did the same for me and I still struggle with it from time to time. Acknowledge these thoughts the sane way you acknowledge intrusive thoughts. They’re just thoughts and your mind is just desperately trying to solve them which only makes your OCD worse.
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The root of your problems is reflected in your own answer: "Pedophilia is wrong". You are just echoing everyone's opinions. I am not here to condone anything; however, when we judge things out of ignorance we become trapped in an endless loop of despair. ---- Good/Bad, Right/Wrong, Acceptable/Unacceptable are all judgement marks. When we are educated by professionals on psychological conditions, we become less judgmental and therefore happier people. The people who suffer from homosexual themed OCD have a completely twisted view about homosexuality. The same thing happens with POCD: ' We were offered an idea and we bought it without asking and now we won't let it go as if our lives depended on it'.
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Your message implies that some people "should and deserve to die" . That is worrisome - It is my exact point in my previous post. Who are we to decide who gets to live and who gets to die? This is not personal. Probably this does not even apply to you. I am just writing it for the people who have come to the point of awareness that judgements are the root of all our suffering.
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i mean i have empathy and i don't think all maps should die. but pedophilia hurts people. it's dangerous and im not going to pretend it's not to ease my ocd
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also as a lesbian i find it really offensive to have my sexuality compared to pedophilia
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i don't think any people should die. that was the point of what i was saying ("all maps should die" is a popular tumblr sentiment.)
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Never meant to offend you. I never compared your lesbianism with what you are probably thinking as 'pederasty', not pedophilia. Not at all what I meant. - As I said, this message is probably not even for you. But as a public forum I write for everyone who might read this and find it helpful.
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sorry if i came off as snappy, just a lot of the map community have tried to gain inclusion in the lgbt+ community, so i tend to be cautious whenever homosexuality and pedophilia are brought up in the same context. also i very much am thinking of pedophilia, pederasty is not actually an in community issue at all
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- 22w
(20f) I have been dealing with severe OCD symptoms for as long as I can remember. I recently got diagnosed about a year ago, and even though I know that these thoughts are probably my ocd, I still cant shake them. Growing up I was always very sexually curious. I was sheltered from a lot of things, as I went to a private school and things like sexuality and sex were never talked about. I remember doing some weird sexual things growing up (never affecting another person), looking up taboo sexual things, etc. I always seemed to become aroused no matter what the situation was, even if I just saw someone getting changed. I have no recollection of being SA'd, so i'm wondering where this all came from? Was I just curious and wanted to experiment and try different things? Or am I really a pervert, pedophile, etc. I have all these thoughts racing through my head and it's killing me. Everything I did as a kid I look back on and am disgusted, as those don't align with my views at all today. I never thought growing up thinking these things were wrong, or actually realize what they were until I got older. I'd like to think it was just my curiosity, but i'm not sure. What if i'm in denial and actually do like these things? I just need to know if theres something wrong w me, I cant keep going on like this. Could really use some advice.
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I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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