Anyone else suffering from guilt and shame from sexual things they did as a kid when they didn’t know any better. And if so how do you cope with it I really need help thx
By learning a lot of it is normal and you shouldn’t blame yourself because you were a kid who didn’t know better. I was shocked to hear people I consider to be really evolved and kind tell me they had experiences like this and had to work on forgiving themselves for not knowing better too. My goal is not only to forgive but break the cycle
Yea. At first I didn’t even realize that it could be related to OCD. Mind you I am undiagnosed but I’ve had a fairly consistent pattern of OCD behaviours. And I deal with this theme on and off and every time it comes back it is so debilitating. It feels like the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Realizing that a lot of it is common behaviour helped a bit. It still comes and goes but knowing that other people struggle too makes me feel not alone.
This thread alone is enough to show how common it is. You’re okay. Your brain wasn’t developed, you didn’t know and it is the past. Let it be there and be in the today.
Regardless of nature, you to learn to understand that you were just a kid, and kids know nothing, and have extremely underdeveloped brains. For example consider that There’s a reason legal systems don’t punish kids and adults the same for the same crime. Kids are dumb.
Same
Real events OCD is so hard :( Self love/compassion practice can be helpful. ❤️ learning to forgive yourself is so important. I am also currently struggling
Does anyone know how to deal with guilt for something you did as a kid that you feel is disgusting and worry that it could have hurt someone you loved.
I did a few sexual compulsions (only with myself of course) in the past (2 months ago , did it couple of times) and I regret it BADLY I want to die every time because of that because of the guilt that I can’t handle it I feel like a monster I can’t move on from this. I feel like I deserve nothing in life. I prefer to kill myself then do it again. Like what went on my mind. I wanted to check and get rid of the thought but I can’t live with the shame. I posted this a few times but cant move on. What I did was BAD sexual compulsion. My therapist said to me that people with ocd can have a sever compulsions. And I think I told her about this compulsion but I think she forgot so I’m planning to said it to her again so she will tell me if it’s actually ocd or not. And the fact that I did have another themes before Pocd but I don’t know if I have Pocd anymore cause I feel like a monster and like I crossed the line. I’m terrified that I went to far. I regret I badly. There is not a single day I’m not thinking about it and want to kill my self. That compulsion is against my morals like I become the person I was afraid of all the time. The shame will it me until the day that I die
When i was between the ages of 11-18 i was a very mentally ill and hyper sexual kid. I did a lot pf sexting, sent nudes, and even one video of me doing inappropriate things that haunt me to this day. I have changed a lot since then and realized that this was all jn relation to (TW!!) sexual abuse i experienced as a child/teen. I still feel horrible for the things that I have done and think about this daily. I beat myself up because I know it was wrong of me to act that way growing up. Im afraid that someone will find these texts/pictures/videos one day and it will lead to my complete humiliation. I want to throw up at the thought of people i know and love seeing me act that. Its not who I am or who I ever was. I regret that part of my life so deeply it hurts.
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