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- 1y ago
Real event/false memory
Nothing can shake off the guilt. I don’t start therapy for a couple weeks. I’m almost non functional, what can I do
Nothing can shake off the guilt. I don’t start therapy for a couple weeks. I’m almost non functional, what can I do
Hello. I was in your shoes about a year ago, there is hope I promise! Best advice I have would be to keep doing your daily routine (work, exercise etc) and stay busy. Refrain from mental checking, it just makes it worse. You’ll make it through it I promise! I said a prayer for you. Hang in there
What I’d recommend is pushing yourself to go out. If you have a place you like to go or people you like to be around go there. Figure out ways to push yourself out of the house. In a therapy program I was in they pushed hard on opposite action. So, instead of receding into your space go out into the world, if you can do chores. Create a list of a beneficial activity, a valued activity, and a routine activity for each day this week then try to complete them.
that’s me right now too, I have this guilt because of my ocd and it’s really annoying.
@weronikas I’m starting to feel better in a way that feels more lasting, you will get through this
Same here. I relapsed hard recently. I have more tools to handle it now that I’ve started therapy, but those real events are really kicking me.
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
17f I have a lot of events, but my main and my worst one which is absolutely fucking diabolical was done when I was 14 and repeated when I was 16. Everytime I post something about real event ocd here people are like you are probably didn't do anything that bad, and when they hear what I did they are like yeah that's bad. Someone even asked me if I'm autistic cause "it's crazy how you didn't realize that the thing ypu were doing was wrong at this age." And I kinda agree, like it's fucked up It's just that my event is bad. Doesn't mean I don't have real event ocd. You can have a reocd over the event that was bad, it doesn't mean the event wasn't that bad or you don't have recod. It's just people always expect it to be something innocent and it's not Even a healthy person would feel guilty over it, it's just that I had ocd my whole life and it's making the guilt absolutely destructive, like to the point when I sometimes have a hard time breathing when I think about it, I lost more than a year of life to it, almost checked myself out couple of times if I wasn't so scared of pain/failure, the event haunts me in my dreams, it's in my head 24/7 and I will never able to forgive myself. That ocd. But the event itself was bad. So maybe i deserve it.
i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.
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