- Date posted
- 1y
Just got my diagnosis
Anybody know how strenuous/exhausting the exposure therapy is?
Anybody know how strenuous/exhausting the exposure therapy is?
It depends on the therapy, how bad the OCD is, how much of an exposure you think you can handle, and other factors like that. It won’t be “easy” but that doesn’t mean it’ll be something horrible. I rather liked my ERP even when it was difficult cause at least I was on a road to improvement instead of suffering and getting worse
It is not either… It is worked on in degrees with your therapist. The whole point is that OCD is NOT about your content but about the compulsion. Therefore, OCD picks on what you value most (knowing you have an anxiety disorder) making you think you need to react to neutralize the thought…thru a compulsion. ERP helps you sit with anxiety so your body/mind learn your you don’t have to react…. Just noise, not a signal. Gradually, you can enjoy your values again.
Okay that’s reassuring
I’ve been at it a couple weeks. So far… a LOT less distressing than life itself.
Me and my therapist started out by ranking my different obsessive themes from one to ten, one being the least distressing and ten being the most. Then we took baby steps by working with low ranked themes before moving on to higher ranked themes as my confidence grew. It is uncomfortable but I felt like it was uncomfortable in a good way because I was finally fighting back against a problem I didn’t think I could fight back against before. I think you will find as much hope as I did in this process.
I find while doing exposures, rarely does my anxiety lessen. It usually amps up and stays that way for the remainder of the day. I could be having a fairly decent day, but dutifully do my exposures and then the rest of my day is anxiety filled. I guess that’s just how it is now? Also, I’m wondering if my therapist even believes I have OCD. I totally understand my therapist cannot provide reassurance. But it’s to the point it seems my therapist acts like I actually did the thing I fear. I feel so isolated.
I can remember the day I started having intrusive thoughts. I was so confused and scared. It’s been almost 3 months- does it get easier to manage? Currently taking medication and going to therapy, but this is all still very new, and very scary. Please tell me there’s relief in recovery..? I tend to isolate myself from my family, often. I’m tired, so so tired. :( Most days, I just stay on the couch or in bed. I don’t quite get as anxious, but like a “heart stopping” gut feeling when a thought pops up. I miss the me I was before the diagnosis. HOCD is scary and harder when it attacks the loved ones, spouse, in your home. :( My heart hurts.
When I catch myself doing compulsions mentally during exposure sessions, it seems alot of the time like the realization that I was just doing a compulsion is more distressing than the actual trigger I'm trying to expose myself to. It feels defeating having to admit the prompt at the end that I performed a compulsion yet again. I still think I've made progress overall, and generally speaking I don't think I'm performing compulsions as much as I used to, and my distress has also gone down noticeably (not completely) but exposure sessions have been kinda tricky for me from the beginning since its all mental. Additionally, I am a bit concerned that I could start using exposures to rid myself of anxiety rather than expose myself to it properly.
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