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This thought led me to a darker place I felt so afraid I would disassociate and become something I couldn't recognize anymore and do horrible things. Don't go down that road best do therapy asap. I let it get out of control now I have to undo 10 years of ocd and compulsion

Please hit the sos ! Button it’s round and blue on the right bottom those videos are helpful @aquarius01

I have experienced this too. You feel like you are in a really bad place where you don’t know if you can fix it. It’s really hard, I definitely understand, but just know it can be fixed. Just try and think of positive thoughts along the way and try not to focus on the negative things. Try and think of all the ways you are Blessed by Jesus Christ. It’s hard to feel Peace sometimes, but just know that God is working in your life 24/7 even if you don’t see it sometimes :) And through Jesus you can overcome anything! Just know that you are not alone in this. 🌸

I know that hell.. it's dark and depressing and extremely Scary.. I have been dealing with it for most of my life but it has only been the last 2 years since I have been diagnosed with ocd.. Erp therapy has helped me and I can now see and feel bit more hopeful about the future.. my husband died 2002, he was 37 and our daughter was 8.. I began having hallucinations, was psychotic and grieving. I had diagnoses that were schizoaffected, bipolar and personality disorder. Years of antipsychotics mood stabilizers and anti-anxiety medication sometimes. Did not help. Except for possibly giving me side effects that we're making my OCD worse and therapy that wasn't working. My OCD was religious pedophile scrupulosity and existentialism OCD. Hang in there! I know how difficult the Dark Places can be. Just hang on.